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Drug users and mental illness

What mental illnesses do you suffer from?

  • AD(H)D

    Votes: 170 28.4%

  • Anxiety

    Votes: 401 67.1%

  • Depression

    Votes: 404 67.6%

  • Bipolar

    Votes: 136 22.7%

  • OCD

    Votes: 110 18.4%

  • Panic Disorder

    Votes: 138 23.1%

  • Other (please specify)

    Votes: 91 15.2%
  • Total voters
    598
Melancholic depression (Severe/treatment resistant)
Panic disorder
ADHD/Learning disability
Chronic Insomnia


Panic disorder was triggered as a child, I was born with the other 3...
EDIT - POST 666!!! Fucking \m/
 
I was diagnosed with Anorexia when I was in high school, my parents freaked when I went from 62kg to 46kg in year 10, I am currently 52kg (the low end of the healthy weight range for my height) and my periods have come back so I don't qualify as anorexic technically, but I don't feel like I'm cured. I first tried drugs because my ex fiance did them and I was curious and I thought he was cool and wanted to be just like him *eye roll* upoon experiencing their effects, I continued to take them every now and then when I had gained weight purely because I wasn't hungry on it and had energy so I could use them to lose weight, I didn't enjoy the "high" at all, it felt like anxiety. Then 4 years later I was curious to try IV when a friend told me she did it that way, I tried it that way and liked it, I started doing it alot more than before and only ever this new way, then I tried to stop and realised it is going to be hard. I was so surprized because before going IV I'ld never ever craved it, I didn't enjoy it, I just used it to kill hunger and give energy. So yes I think my drug use is related to my underlying mental disorder, I wouldn't have continued to use even though I didn't enjoy it if it weren't for my burning desire to lose weight.

I think I also suffer from anxiety and perhaps social phobia, but neither of them diagnosed, maybe I don't, maybe I'm just a bit shy and anxiety is from the drug use. *shrug*
although the councellors at marinoto hospital wanted to put me on prozac for my anxiety and that was before I'ld ever used drugs, i read the side effects they included things like increased risk of suicide, and generally made me decide I'ld rather have the anxiety and told them I didn't want the prescription (I was very anti-drugs when I was in high school, I was one of the kids that looked in the ones smoking ciggies behind the bikesheads and thought "Oh My GOD, They're Totally smoking!!" *shock* I even threw out about a gram of my friends when I found it, I was like, is that drugs? drugs are bad for you! and put it in the bin, I also would stick my head completely out the window so as not to accidentally inhale any second hand marijuana smoke because if I did inhale one puff it would ruin my whole life. lol.
 
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isn't it funny how things change like that?
i swore i would NEVER try meth, i was SHIT SCARED.
why i did? i do not know. but i always imagine what life would have been like if i'd never accepted that puff of the pipe. after i declined it 3 times, the 4th time he asked i gave in & said "never doing this again"
l o fucking l.
 
My diagnosis has changed to just PTSD and HPPD. Since quitting weed my OCD is all gone, same with Social Anxiety Disorder (still shy, but not so scared and anxious and awkward feeling). However, yesterday I had my first panic attack, so I'm worried about that. Is PTSD known to cause panic attacks? I was thinking about that trip and my HPPD was flared, but up until this point my PTSD has just been a constant dwelling/worrying about my bad trip(s) and sort of hating myself for pushing things too far, when I knew psychedelics weren't for me.

I feel my depression is just a symptom of HPPD, the more I read into it and read forums dedicated to it (along with Depersonalization and Derealization) I realize depression is almost a symptom, not really something that can be diagnosed. I hate tripping...but I'm tripping all the time, so naturally that is making me depressed/anxious, if I wasn't seeing static and colour blotches and halos and movement all the time, I'd probably be a lot happier. I need to look into DR and DP and see if either of those fit what is going on with me.
 
Buspirone for GAD, didn't work well, stopped taking it and my GAD has improved over the years.
Lately it has popped up again though :(
Had lexapro, zoloft, prozac.. Blah.
How about you

Also in my earlier post I forgot to mention Anorexia diagnosis, slipped my mind
 
I'm pretty messed up mentally right now, but haven't had anything officially diagnosed because I don't know how to go about seeing a psych.

If I had to self diognose I'd say some form of anxiety or depression, I've always struggled with social situations, particularly with people I don't know or in volatile situations, and in general I worry and get depressed about things all the time, even when there's nothing to worry or feel down about. Of course feeling like that constantly lead to the drugs, because when I was high I felt like the person I wanted to be beneath being constantly depressed and wound up and nervous.

But yeah of course in the end they just exacerbate the issue and now even after a while away from drugs I'm worse than ever, depressed, anxious, and getting panic attacks and constant bouts of dissociation. Should see a psych, but meh. No idea how to go about finding one myself, couldn't pay for it anyway, and don't want to load all this onto my families shoulders, I know my parents will just blame themselves and stress over it, they've got enough to deal with.
 
insomnia now, hopefully not a disorder...so much fun!!! :|:(:(:(:(:|

seriously, what works for you insomnia suffers, 5mg zopiclone barely work, trying 10mg in a bit. I hope for the best.
 
my last diagnosis was panic disorder with agoraphobia. leads to much isolation. I'm hyper-sensitive to stimulants, even coffee. lots of odd triggers, such as standing in line at a store.
 
vortex - some suggestions
sounds like ur going thru a hard time and these might help u
-uve had the diagnosis of wats wrong with u.......sometimes tho, its best not to read too much on the net about ur conditions, and as far as depersonalisation/derealisation goes, i dont know if uve bn officially diagnosed or not but wait till u hav before u start labelling urself with the disorder......it just gives u more to worry about and get stressed and depressed about (u dont need that!) and once u hav, let the doctor deal with it and tell u how to treat it rather than fixating on websites that may or may not b expert on any of ur conditions
sometimes its better to take ur mind off mental illnesses u suffer from as much as poss by not reading up about them too often
-zopiclone is a useless drug IMO....and its addictive, plus if u use benzos ull hav a cross-tolerance with it anyway (i dont know if u use benzos but again i suggest u avoid them)
there r better non-addictive things u can take for sleep - melatonin has excellent results in many ppl, and i found high doses of valerian root (2gms plus a night) along with a strongly steeped cup of passionflower tea or two to knock me out as gd as a dose of midazolam (benzo i was prescribed for sleep) if not better
magnesium also helps, as well as calcium - warm milk is excellent
a bath (not too hot) before bed is relaxing, and u shud never do anything stimulating like video games before bed
-wen u feel a panic attack coming on, try to breathe from ur diaphragm.....focus on breathing in, holding ur breath in for 5 seconds then slowly breathing out
only think about ur breathing, try not to think about anything else, hard as it sounds
hyperventilation (overbreathing from ur chest) causes the panic to worsen as it raises ur heartrate
u can choose to take my advice or ignore it but if u do try anything i suggested, plz let me know if it worked in any way!
gd luck and im sorry to hear ur having such a hard time - bad trips can b really traumatic, esp wen they leave u with HPPD
 
it seems to me many drugs mimic mental illness in the user..
sometimes exacerbating possible mental problems in them..
some of us live for that. i love acid because i'm so manic..
it makes me microanalyze the universe, myself, the wall..weed makes me
skitzo n i like it..my highs are very psychedelic with a hint of delusion..colors
change, objects morph, music feels visible, designs crawl, ears ring..good shit.
only pharms have given me bad trips and some noticeable damage..
all those benzos, anti-depressants, and anti-psychotics i've tried
fuck me up hella bad..took prozac for 2 days, still felt paranoid i'd
lost my sanity..stayed up many days and didn't sleep well for a few
weeks..brain zaps suck..tripped out badly on zyprexa..i still get these weird hot flashes..
like my heart will start going and going and it kinda hurts..scares
me sometimes..anyway i might try meds again soon but i'm afraid to.
i've yet to see any lasting positive results from the shit. all is
good in insanity..no rules and no worries.

I'm bipolar II with schizotypal personality disorder, anxiety (sometimes to the point i can't talk), and dyslexia (learning disorder). I have a job (music teacher) but it's easy as hell...i pretty much
rely on music to support myself..genius level iq but when it comes to the
world and responsibilities my iq is out the window. financially not doing too
well and staying with my dad (splitting cost on things, but it still sucks)..well
he buys me weed and we party with strippers..not so bad for now..but it's
hard to bring chicks over sometimes and i can't feel good about myself..i go
through periods of being independent and semi-independent..life is one
crazy rollercoaster eh. i thought about trying for disability but i'm not
optimistic about waiting that long.

yes i'm insanity's king. i'm actually sober too. i drank a lot last night n feelin majorly manic today. i feel awesome.
 
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