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Drug Use Escalating Due to College

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Michael_25

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I've gone back to college to undertake post-grad studies. The workload, and the people with whom I have to work is very stressful. I've noticed that I'm consuming more oxycodone and benzos simply to escape. Without drugs I'm constantly stressed. I dislike some of the people with whom I have to work for group assignments. How do I overcome this problem. I'm falling behind at the the moment simply because I dislike what I'm doing and the people I'm doing it with. The drugs are getting in the way of studying.
 
Well stop the fucking drugs until everything cools down. You don't wanna get on an opiate addiction, trust me on that
 
Alternatively you can get rid of the people you dont like instead, at least 6 feet deep to be safe and stop studying, why do it if you dislike it?

But seriously if you cant manage something because your dealing with people or things you dont like need drugs to help, then im afraid the real world is going to be tough for you. Unless you are awesome like me most people dislike what they are doing and the people they are doing it with.

I think an attitude adjustment might work well for you. Embrace the suck, it only gets worse.
 
Dboy1987 said:
Well stop the fucking drugs until everything cools down. You don't wanna get on an opiate addiction, trust me on that
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It's the only thing I know that reduces my stress, though.

blight12 said:
Alternatively you can get rid of the people you dont like instead, at least 6 feet deep to be safe and stop studying, why do it if you dislike it?

But seriously if you cant manage something because your dealing with people or things you dont like need drugs to help, then im afraid the real world is going to be tough for you. Unless you are awesome like me most people dislike what they are doing and the people they are doing it with.

I think an attitude adjustment might work well for you. Embrace the suck, it only gets worse.
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You make a good point. In regard to studying: Well, sometimes we have to do something we dislike in order to progress. I need the post-grad degree to enter a different field of work. I just hate working with certain people on joint group projects, since we weren't allowed to pick with whom we wish to work. These guys I'm working with are lazy fucks, to boot.
 
Well you can pretty much either be the leader of the group or the drug addict, im sure your efforts wont go unnoticed either way.
 
Im trying to take a break from drugs
It is not as peaceful as i had hoped, the problems from my drug use seem minor compared to the cravings i get
THE FCKING CRAVINGS ARGHGHGUFDSHPFIUS dfhpuds
 
Michael_25 said:
It's the only thing I know that reduces my stress, though.

You make a good point. In regard to studying: Well, sometimes we have to do something we dislike in order to progress. I need the post-grad degree to enter a different field of work. I just hate working with certain people on joint group projects, since we weren't allowed to pick with whom we wish to work. These guys I'm working with are lazy fucks, to boot.
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Yeah I get it though, i spent 5 years building a business so that I could work from home and never have to do anything or deal with any people i didn't like. I dont even answer my phone if i dont recognize the number. So yeah dont accept life will always be shit but rather deal with it well while you work on getting rid of the parts you dont like :)
 
Trying2Iso said:
Im trying to take a break from drugs
It is not as peaceful as i had hoped, the problems from my drug use seem minor compared to the cravings i get
THE FCKING CRAVINGS ARGHGHGUFDSHPFIUS dfhpuds
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Trust me, those cravings are the problems.

Having to live real life knowing that if at any time something goes wrong with your cash, or drug supply, your outed as an addict through withdrawal and cravings is a scary thing.
 
I am so lucky with this, for some wierd reason cravings are directly linked to alcohol usage, never had a single stim craving when sober, never even bought meth once which I have used prob 50 times, without it being caused by alcohol related craving.

Cravings are tought to control, im just lucky i dont get them at any other times. That feeling you get that if you dont get the drug now, the rest of your night is going to be horrible is tough to deal with. It can conquer your reasoning and resistance so fast sometimes you dont even know how it happened.

Always wondered why, i think possibly the first times i used any drug was on alcohol so the craving or addiction was always linked to that as a trigger.
 
NHmm go to college and just suck it up and get it over with... Oooor you can be like me and drop out, selling drugs is your only income, which mainly does nothing more than to support your own habit. End up living on the streets with absolutely no hope for anything. Hmm choices...choices... Guess which one I would of choose? And I HAD the option
 
I'm gonna move this over to TDS as it really doesn't fit in OD.

OD--->TDS


As to your situation.. it's normal for a drug user to turn to more drugs during times of stress, ya know? But, you're at the point now where you can still reign it in.. as you're clearly realizing there is an issue, or you wouldn't have posted this.

What you have to realize, is that yes you're stressed now.. and the drugs are seeming to help with that, but if you keep going.. the drugs are going to cause you more stress. Your grades will go into the toilet, you'll miss class, etc, and then how are you going to feel? So what will you do? Do more drugs of course to escape that stress, and thus entering a very destructive cycle.

Get off the ride now, man.
 
OP:
I understand completely man. People are fake as shit. Im in the same boat and i try to avoid big doses or redosing and keep as much days in between as to avoid physical addiction.

1mg lorazepam once or twice max per week. 10mg oxy twice per week

Even if u dont get physically dependent u still become mentally dependent this way, and it feels like a slippery slope.
But u know for sure than once u get physically dependent things will get exponentially worse,
So keep a drugcalendar and be strict or get burned.
 
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OP, the situation you are in right now may very well be a trial run for a similar situation in your future field. There are many times that you have to work with difficult people, have people on your team that don't pull their weight, have big egos or whatever. There is a very good book out there about working with difficult people and since I can't remember the title I just googled "how to work with difficult people" and got three pages of resource reading, most of which looked good. Look at this as an opportunity to learn how to be in charge of your self in a group situation that is less than ideal. You could even take it a step further and learn ways that you can actually change the dynamic of a group and be a motivational force outside of just yourself. It will serve you very well to gain non-drug strategies for dealing with difficulties and stress. Plenty of alternatives exist. Find the ones that work for you and begin to put them into practice. Using drugs to alleviate stress is not a viable strategy.
 
stick with education and get smart instead of wasting u'r life on drugs.

i wasted 20 years i can never get back.no education.
 
people can be really fake insensitive inconsiderate, lazy, etc. everything you wouldn't want in a project mate.

it sounds like you're using drugs to cope with the stress of working with others. i think you should reflect on that a bit. maybe try communicating with them better? who knows. i'd give you advice but i think the best advice will come from yourself.
 
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