Drug seeking behaviour

[Jnowhere]

i have schizophrenia.. i've been watching what i say to doctors to not get labeled as drug seeking.

i was telling them i want to go on ativan or a benzo when i move to smoke free housing. i was telling them i want to switch up between taking thc edibles and using the ativan every couple days to not get addicted.. i might be in a pretty shitty place if they don't want to prescribe me them, but every time i get out of the hospital they always give me an ativan prescription despite not really asking for it, and i'm 39 and got prescribed benzos as a teen, so i'm hoping they don't cut them not.. i'm thinking cause i'm not on any anti-psychotics they might not want to prescribe the ativan, but honestly if my anxiety and insomnia kicks in, it's probably just better for me to have some downers. ime i've been pretty good not getting addicted to them because of weed, and i'm still gonna be able to smoke when it's not snowing at smoke free housing, so i think i'll be good only use them part of the year and not everyday.. i've always been prescribed "take as needed" idk if the doctors are gonna be down with me using how i want to though. it doesn't really seem that common of a method of dosing.

i'd honestly love an adderall prescription, but i'm worried about trying to get it and being deemed drug seeking... plus i think they only prescribe that to schizos when they are medicated on anti-psychotics as well.. idk. prob never get an adderall prescription. hoping they make some other type of legal stimulant some day or legalize addy or coke.. but yeah. that's me and drug seeking behavior with the docs.

Bro you gotta learn to be slicker than that. No, cocaine is schedule 2 and used in delicate operations in the ear, nose and eyes. But prescription 8 balls, huh huh. I can't even get a bump in my oxycodone and and the DEA during the Biden administration said Amphetamines are the next war on opiods.( figuratively speaking) yes I know coke ain't an amphetamine. KLuckily Donald Trump hasn't gone after prescription drugs like Obama and Biden.
Oh and I have 2mgx 3 times a day of Ativan after I out smarted a cop when nailed with .3825 bal Because of a fucked up liver. Got it dropped to regular dui and got Ativan and week a of 20mg x4 of Oxycodone after spending 5 days chillin and watching tv in bed watching tv and being pumped full of morphine and Ativan. Instead of jail. You got to be learn to be smooth, bro.

Because you are as slick as a jackhammer. I still remember how you erased your posts to make it look like I first talked to and engage danfr2.

You think I will forget, not a chance. Forgive, yes. Forget never.

 

[foodcrisis]

Bro you gotta learn to be slicker than that. No, cocaine is schedule 2 and used in delicate operations in the ear, nose and eyes. But prescription 8 balls, huh huh. I can't even get a bump in my oxycodone and and the DEA during the Biden administration said Amphetamines are the next war on opiods.( figuratively speaking) yes I know coke ain't an amphetamine. KLuckily Donald Trump hasn't gone after prescription drugs like Obama and Biden.
Oh and I have 2mgx 3 times a day of Ativan after I out smarted a cop when nailed with .3825 bal Because of a fucked up liver. Got it dropped to regular dui and got Ativan and week a of 20mg x4 of Oxycodone after spending 5 days chillin and watching tv in bed watching tv and being pumped full of morphine and Ativan. Instead of jail. You got to be learn to be smooth, bro.

Because you are as slick as a jackhammer. I still remember how you erased your posts to make it look like I first talked to and engage danfr2.

You think I will forget, not a chance. Forgive, yes. Forget never.

i'm hoping there's some type of radical change in the government and people's thoughts on what drugs should be legal... lol.. i really doubt i'll see legal coke in my life time, but then again, shrooms and ketamine are becoming way more accepted and i never really thought that would be happening.

i'm hoping some of my ideas get spread through out the internet and people start to accept them, like someone could get addicted to coke and it does a lot of harm to them, but someone else might just like it on occassion and it brings something new to their art or music or even simply, regular non artist people sometimes just like a little coke on new years. why can't they have clean coke? no big deal... probably not gonna convince too many people that the few musicans whose jams were changed up by coke is a good reason to make it legal... but to me it is.

 

[Jnowhere]

i'm hoping there's some type of radical change in the government and people's thoughts on what drugs should be legal... lol.. i really doubt i'll see legal coke in my life time, but then again, shrooms and ketamine are becoming way more accepted and i never really thought that would be happening.

i'm hoping some of my ideas get spread through out the internet and people start to accept them, like someone could get addicted to coke and it does a lot of harm to them, but someone else might just like it on occassion and it brings something new to their art or music or even simply, regular non artist people sometimes just like a little coke on new years. why can't they have clean coke? no big deal... probably not gonna convince too many people that the few musicans whose jams were changed up by coke is a good reason to make it legal... but to me it is.

Please, tell me why you made me look as if I was the first to answer.
danfr2? Ok tiny why?

 

[foodcrisis]

i don't really talk about my love for coke to my therapist or psychiatrist...

i was actually being honest and talking about how ativan is honestly a big relief from my anxiety, and even with small doses it is like a replacement for getting high.. but i also describe techniques i have not to get too addicted....

i was talking to my therapist recently about how i don't really want to get rid of my schizophrenic hallucinations or HPPD. how those are the only things that really keep me happy.. she was like "yeah. if that's how you feel you shouldn't have to take medication and should be able to keep your social security money if that's what keeps you happy". i forget her exact words. she seemed pretty i think the word is liberal. even the psychiatrists are that way where i go... i have a back injury with proof from a doctor too, so i think that might be part of the reason why they are so prone to think i need disablity money. if i start to stress my back the schizophrenia gets exacerbated. they say i'm using good coping mechanisms from what i describe as my thought process... idk. i've been hospitalized with drugs in my system so many times. they don't really seem to accuse me of being drug seeking, and aren't really trying to keep me on any anti-psychotics... i'm pretty lucky where i live.

 

[foodcrisis]

Please, tell me why you made me look as if I was the first to answer.
danfr2? Ok tiny why?

bro, you're posts are beyond my comprehension.

 

[Jnowhere]

Prescription opiods are becoming almost illegal and I am Fucking going nuts in pain!!!!!!!!
Great idea, kill off the junkies; and make patients suffer.
ALL PAIN AND NO RELIEF MAKE A JNOWHERE A SAD AND ANGRY MAN

 

[Jnowhere]

Don't talk about getting high to your therapist. Your delusions are ok. They will keep you in the government assistance train. Because those that need it should be helped. But you still haven't answered my question. Why did you make me look like a fool by deleting all your posts on danfr2's idiotic thread? WHAT AM I YOUR SCAPEGOAT, MAKE ME LOOK STUPID BECAUSE OF YOUR ERROR IN JUDGMENT. WHAT DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ME. WHY DO YOU WISH TO TRY ME? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?WHY? WHY? WHY??WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY? WHY? WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU ? WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU? WHATDID I EVER DO TO YOU?

 

[foodcrisis]

Don't talk about getting high to your therapist. Your delusions are ok. They will keep you in the government assistance train. Because those that need it should be helped. But you still haven't answered my question. Why did you make me look like a fool by deleting all your posts on danfr2's idiotic thread? WHAT AM I YOUR SCAPEGOAT, MAKE ME LOOK STUPID BECAUSE OF YOUR ERROR IN JUDGMENT. WHAT DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ME. WHY DO YOU WISH TO TRY ME? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?WHY? WHY? WHY??WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY? WHY? WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU ? WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU? WHATDID I EVER DO TO YOU?

are you talking to me??? i didn't delete a single post if you are talking to me.... i don't think i've deleted a post in months and months, and i've never deleted anything any one has responded to.

 

[Jnowhere]

danfr2, I responded second to you then you deleted all your posts to make it look like I responded to his idiotic thread. Why now I am the scape goat for his thread. Electrum 1 confirmed it and he will cut me no slack. I don't like liars; why did you make me a scapegoat. All I am asking for is an excuse or a reason.

 

[Jnowhere]

Tell me, why you thought that making me look stupid was a good idea? I am just curious as to the thought process of someone who thinks I am weak? Do tell. This should be fascinating.

 

[Psychlone Jack]

Reign it in, please, fellas. The topic is drug seeking behavior, not who made whom look stupid, etc. Let's keep it cordial.

 

[Jnowhere]

Reign it in, please, fellas. The topic is drug seeking behavior, not who made whom look stupid, etc. Let's keep it cordial.

Sorry