Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

[koneko]

not 'off' weed ..... its my only 'problem' drug

How are you getting on with that tekken? It's a hard one

I need to stay sober this week. Not for any real purpose just for a rest. The soul is willing but the mind is weak. Fingers crossed I can stick with my self made promise. Arghhh

Nice to see you in here Emma a "rest is as good as a change" hehe and tolerance lowering most enjoyable on the return from the holiday

After the imposed by meds alcohol ban I've just not fancied a drink yet hmmm which is very strange for me but my snivelling wimpering kidneys are loving me for it

I find the mind is the strong bastard in this tro of drug love, the body gets ignored and the soul gets lost 8|

There's an old saying "just do it" - it works

Aye and then once you've done that it's sticking to doing it %)

I'm not on a sabbatical so should probably leave! The sabbatical approach appears to encourage the extremist in me out in the most alarming of ways! Talk about binge-head when it's over I've tried the approach for quite a while now (10 months) and have to say - FAIL for me anyway

Best of luck with it folks

 

[been head]

having hobbies and intrests helps big time when your trying t take a break, and i dont mean just sitting in playing games consoles. get out and do physical activities i like going off roading in my land rover, or i go mountain biking, fishing at the moment im starting to get into photography ive just brought a digital slr camera which is amazing.

if i had no hobbies i woud be doing drugs all the time which aint good for any one. drugs are good in moderation and its important to have a balanced life.

 

[masaz]

Oh I'll still be having a drink. Tonight at least. I've got a bottle chilling as we speak. I'm just going to try and not put anything else in my body ( Drugs wise )

And I'm gonna do the opposite! Good luck with your drug-avoidance

Dunno why I can't face quitting booze entirely but I suspect it's the quality of the nights I have with friends when I don't over-do it that are stopping me from dropping the stuff entirely. Fine by me. Don't wanna gain back all the weight I've lost either so that's an incentive. People have been commenting on it, even my best mate who usually mocks me mercilessly about anything and everything (don't worry I savage her right back ) I also don't appear to spend my drunktime getting overly emotional and angry and dramatic so that's a sign to me that the underlying problems were indeed fixed last year One of my close friends is quitting too so I suspect that'll help a lot.

Hobbies are good shit, my sabbatical last year got me into tea, horse-bothering and DJing. Wonder what this year will bring? I'm already teaching myself Java, and I'm not one who can program whilst fucked, you should see the PS2 games I used to come up with on that lil C+ programming studio that came with the machine yonks ago.

 

[tekkeN]

How are you getting on with that tekken? It's a hard one

doing pretty well actually, for me anyway.. only smoked a little bit here and there and only in the evenings after doing all my work.. more importantly not brought any since being in Portugal, normally I pick up then pick up again when the stash is getting low So for me I'm doing well not had any for a couple of days but may partake tonight as the ladettes are coming round and their always smoking..

been on dexies today done an insane amount of work so feel I deserve it more, although what's really good is I have no desire to buy any.. feels good to finally have broken the cycle of buying weed all the time, even though it only been like 10 days

 

[masaz]

edit: depressed rant, pulling socks up, sorting self out, nothing to see here

 

[Mugz]

I'm forcing myself to go on a benzo sabbatical, I had an interview today and I won't hear back from them for at least 7 days, and I don’t have another interview until the week after next, so am going to force myself to not take any benzos at all until my next interview, or if I get the job that I went for today, I wont take any benzos until my start date, and hopefully by then I will not need to use them everyday, or at least I will not need to use as much. I really want to kick them out of my life totally. I'm going to make sure I exercise as much as possible to make the withdrawals easier. I'm really not looking forward to the withdrawals, but the results will be worth it.

 

[tribal girl]

^Your reasoning sounds very familiar, Mugs. Trying to work out timetables before you can start using again is never a good sign. Good luck with it though, and I hope you get the job. Sometimes you gotta be strong.

I think exercise, lots of sleep, and healthy eating are they way to begin the transition of a life without them. Also reducing alcohol intake would be a good thing too. Been thinking about tai chi myself. But then, I've been thinking about a lot of things. It's just the actual doing part I seem to have trouble with.

 

[tribal girl]

Seven day benzo break currently in progress. Two days down.

Since my previous post, I have been making a conscious effort to eat better. Also taken up a lil' light exercise and going to bed a bit earlier. Not much earlier, but then that's always been a problem of mine. I actually woke up feeling worse than ever this morning, but I suppose you gotta give it a while to readjust to fucked up sleeping patterns.

 

[jancrow]

Yes, it seems to take forever to readjust the body clock sometimes. I find melatonin quite helpful for that.

 

[Mugz]

On my 8th day of benzo withdrawal, the first few days were horrible with little sleep. The last two nights I have been able to sleep a decent amount. Headaches have been really bad most days and I am randomly twitching all over the place, especially in the evenings.

Hopefully it will get easier over the next few days. Have an interview on the 3rd of February but I don't want to be a twitchy, scatty mess during it.

 

[B9]

how long you been doing benzos & for how long?

 

[angelsmoke]

On my 8th day of benzo withdrawal, the first few days were horrible with little sleep. The last two nights I have been able to sleep a decent amount. Headaches have been really bad most days and I am randomly twitching all over the place, especially in the evenings.

Hopefully it will get easier over the next few days. Have an interview on the 3rd of February but I don't want to be a twitchy, scatty mess during it.

You are doing AMAZINGLY and I am so proud of you *epic hugs*

 

[Mugz]

how long you been doing benzos & for how long?

I'm not sure of the exact dates, but I believe that I have been on them for a bit more than 2 years. I had planned to taper in June 2008 as I was taking about 7.5mg lorazepam a day and was down to about 5mg diazepam, but I never made it to the end of the taper and ended up at the equivalent of about 20mg diazepam a day again.

 

[B9]

Well it's a kinda long drawn out process in some ways - the tough part is learning to live without it - are you getting any kind of profesional assistance ? If not can it hurt to seek some ?


Best of luck as well Mugabe

 

[Treacle]

Assume that 20mg of diazepam was the lowest dose that you could feel, due to tolerance (not addiction)... If you suddenly started taking 20mg a day, would it cause a particularly nasty withdrawal after a few months?

 

[tribal girl]

Seven day benzo break currently in progress. Two days down.

11 days down and feeling much more clear headed. I'm sailing towards a definite 15 days off period (the longest in God knows when), and just need to keep myself in check from this point on.

 

[koneko]

Well done m'dear excellent stuff, I'm really pleased for you, getting this far off the benzos!

 

[Riklet]

I wasn't taking them every day, but probably often enough for me to want to work on it, had 2 weeks no-benzos until last night (n today, ha) as I was doing speed and boozing, so...

GOna try and keep them less regular from now on, especially short acting ones like xanax, and go for having a few every now and then rather than low-dose regularly.

Been drinking and doing K a bit more regularly but doesn't feel too bad, tbh I feel quite controlled with all my drug use atm, been doing CBT and drug stuff works into that a bit with what i'm doing. Quite helpful I guess I'm lucky to have good willpower I guess, but I always like to recognise it's temporary, n it's quite easy to go a bit overboard and then groan at yourself for a few days or worse blehh

Well done sabbatical peeps

 

[B9]

Sowing & reaping in the garden of pharmacological delights

edit: depressed rant, pulling socks up, sorting self out, nothing to see here

Beautifully put - frequently sums my feelings up



Aye a wee bit of a break sounds good to me - my comedown from hell with bells on it ( this actually feels like an understatement ) seems to be calming down - dunnno if it was the mixture of entactogens/empathogens or what, but wow that was miserable to a factor of infinity for a while - note to self - take note to remember this one


Gloom whine whinge wail woe is me - fly too high you get your wings burned someone probably said once - I think it's time to become Baudelaire or Brian from east 17 ( I have no fucking clue who he is really :D ) & go apeshit on only psychs once every 6 weeks or so - this sounds familiar- a sense of deja vu passed by me - from whence it came I could not know too buried in indulgences you know.


Tea & telly will do nicely for now thanks


Have fun crazy people

 

[fastandbulbous]

Have this feeling a long drug sabbatical will be on the cards after tonight's bullet train wreck of an experience...