I have some stupid drama that I unwillingly was dragged into the middle of. One best friend is at war with another for something so trivial I can't believe they're even making an issue out of it. She kept the stuff he lent her and wouldn't give it back, he put me in the position of trying to get it back. I could have said no, but then I would be a "bad friend". Finally tonight I just let him in and helped him steal it back, since it's rightfully his. I feel better now that everyone has their items back, but I feel worse knowing that one of them is lying to me about the other, and that it's being made into my problem too. I feel shocked to realize that friends I really look up to and trust turned out to be petty and cruel people, just pretending to be nice people. How long is it until they turn against me for some silly mistake I make in the future? Who knows?
I can't trust anyone, humanity is fucked, life is a sham, I wish I was dead, etc... you see where this goes. I feel like I'm on shaky ground.
Well at least I am planting some trees tomorrow, I'm doing something meaningful and useful towards my future and the future of the planet. And it will be fun, too (albeit cold). I'm staying up all night studying, then doing the tree planting in a few hours, then more studying.. At least I got a ton of sleep Thursday so I am all set for a few days.
I can't trust anyone, humanity is fucked, life is a sham, I wish I was dead, etc... you see where this goes. I feel like I'm on shaky ground.
Well at least I am planting some trees tomorrow, I'm doing something meaningful and useful towards my future and the future of the planet. And it will be fun, too (albeit cold). I'm staying up all night studying, then doing the tree planting in a few hours, then more studying.. At least I got a ton of sleep Thursday so I am all set for a few days.