Don't know where to go from here

[sailor bugg]

So to sum up my life in a sentence, I feel like the momentum of my past is what is pushing me forward and I can't stop or use the brakes. My life is at the point where I'm not even suicidal (to a point ), I just don't know what the fuck to do, I'm so lost. I just cut my wrists apart and to be honest that made me feel good because it psychically let something out, but I know that's not good. I'm all alone, I have a half bottle of cider and I'm so lost, not even depressed, just fucking so confused and lost. Anyone ever feel like this and have tips?

 

[Runtoparadise]

Sailor bug, I'm really sorry to hear you feel that way. I know I've had times that I've felt that way so I can empathise,- as I'm sure many on BL can.

What's been going on, why are you feeling this way? Any info you can give us will help with our support.

Rtp

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

Absolutely can relate. Don't take this the wrong way, but let me guess...you have no hobbies or interests and don't do any exercise?

If I'm wrong then forgive me please, if I am right then that's your answer right there. Get a hobby you can do with other people and make friends with. Even better, get a hobby doing something physical where you can make friends. For me martial arts is the best, for you it could be something very different.

I also find a lot of comfort in visiting this section and sharing my experiences. I knoow internet friends are not really friends as such but it helps you feel less isolated, and when I share my experience and someone says wow that's actually really helpful it boosts my self-esteem. I've made someone else's life better and in doing so I feel better myself. You don't need loads of knowledge, just your experiences and when you share them someone might relate and we both grow together.

Volunteer work is also a great way of boosting self esteem and meeting new people, and again, you're making the world a better place. Hard to feel shit about yourself when you know your own existence is improving the lives of others.