about a year and a half ago i made the dumbest descision in my life and tried crack. i just want this hell to be over and i dont know how to stop it. the only thing thats keeping me going is this fading hope that somehow someday life could be normal again. idont know if i can handle my family finding out ive become a copy of my biological mom. no real point here. i just needed to get this out of my head somewhere
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missmegandelaney
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Go to Narcotics Anonoymous.
Fuck the rehab bullshit, waste of money. All rehab did for me was show me the rooms of NA an NA is free. There is also Cocaine Anonoymous meetings.
If you have to, use in between meetings.
Use before meetings. Use after meetings.
As long as your in a meeting, you're making progress.
I heard in a meeting once, "i'd rather be in the rooms of narcotics anonoymus wishing i was high, then high and wishing i was in the rooms of narcotics anonoymus."
Fuck the rehab bullshit, waste of money. All rehab did for me was show me the rooms of NA an NA is free. There is also Cocaine Anonoymous meetings.
If you have to, use in between meetings.
Use before meetings. Use after meetings.
As long as your in a meeting, you're making progress.
I heard in a meeting once, "i'd rather be in the rooms of narcotics anonoymus wishing i was high, then high and wishing i was in the rooms of narcotics anonoymus."
zaracatani
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I suggest, you consult the experts on this matter, but don't only go to one expert. You need more than 2 experts to help you understand the situation.
dogsoldier
Bluelighter
Agreed NA is awesome im on my second meeting so far. Sure i was a bit nervous my first meeting but everyone was really friendly and i got heaps of peoples numbers if i ever needed to talk..
Ack.
Sounds like you're in quite some trouble; how long have you been using, and do you frequently use anything else?
Stimulants are very addictive and damaging to the brain, which is a shame because they're occasionally useful.
What about just heading out for a jog and spending the whole day running?
I like to think that if I were in your position, I'd leave my house in a pair of running shoes and just keep going for a week or so.
The endorphins might just give me a little bit of help as I kept on going and going.
Before heading off, I'd first head to the pawn shop or take as much money as I could from wherever I could get it.
Then I'd eat cheap fast-food meals and, well, sleep would likely be impossible and thus not worth worrying about.
After a sufficient amount of time, the running (or jogging) - and not so fast that my heart would give up - would have me in the middle of nowhere, but at least I'd be over the physical element.
Do you have anyone depending upon you?
Do you work?
You mentioned your parents and thus I'm going to presume that they're involved with your life in some way: maybe you live with them...
Being able to run away from my troubles just sounds perfect, though instead of metaphorically through drugs, it would be literal.
How bold!
xA meetings are interesting, in that people become so devoted to them that they blot out all other reasons to carry on living, and well, spending every few days sitting in a circle with a group of strangers and discussing what a failure you are (by some arbitrary moral standard) as they smile and comfort you probably isn't the worst way to spend what life remains you before you inevitably die and are forgotten, for that happens to us all.
So, perhaps give it a go?
There was a guy I was friends with who had some trouble with stimulants and he found the people at NA (or AA, GA, BA, C&A, M&S, Tesco etc.) to be incredibly friendly and entirely non-threatening, which seems perfect for anyone suffering the side-effects of stimulant-induced-psychosis; your paranoia will slowly wane to nothing and you'll be fine, ah, I swear to you that this guy said these exact words.
"All I need is NA!"
I'm not quite sure why going over one's past "mistakes" or enjoyable evenings with strangers is so appealing to so many, but it's harmless if a little like a cult full of liars.
And God.
But what do you have to lose?
If you're willing to blow a stranger to fill your crackpipe come breakfast time, I dare say it's the lesser evil, though evil nonetheless, passive-aggressively evil.
Good luck! %)
Sounds like you're in quite some trouble; how long have you been using, and do you frequently use anything else?
Stimulants are very addictive and damaging to the brain, which is a shame because they're occasionally useful.
What about just heading out for a jog and spending the whole day running?
I like to think that if I were in your position, I'd leave my house in a pair of running shoes and just keep going for a week or so.
The endorphins might just give me a little bit of help as I kept on going and going.
Before heading off, I'd first head to the pawn shop or take as much money as I could from wherever I could get it.
Then I'd eat cheap fast-food meals and, well, sleep would likely be impossible and thus not worth worrying about.
After a sufficient amount of time, the running (or jogging) - and not so fast that my heart would give up - would have me in the middle of nowhere, but at least I'd be over the physical element.
Do you have anyone depending upon you?
Do you work?
You mentioned your parents and thus I'm going to presume that they're involved with your life in some way: maybe you live with them...
Being able to run away from my troubles just sounds perfect, though instead of metaphorically through drugs, it would be literal.
How bold!
xA meetings are interesting, in that people become so devoted to them that they blot out all other reasons to carry on living, and well, spending every few days sitting in a circle with a group of strangers and discussing what a failure you are (by some arbitrary moral standard) as they smile and comfort you probably isn't the worst way to spend what life remains you before you inevitably die and are forgotten, for that happens to us all.
So, perhaps give it a go?
There was a guy I was friends with who had some trouble with stimulants and he found the people at NA (or AA, GA, BA, C&A, M&S, Tesco etc.) to be incredibly friendly and entirely non-threatening, which seems perfect for anyone suffering the side-effects of stimulant-induced-psychosis; your paranoia will slowly wane to nothing and you'll be fine, ah, I swear to you that this guy said these exact words.
"All I need is NA!"
I'm not quite sure why going over one's past "mistakes" or enjoyable evenings with strangers is so appealing to so many, but it's harmless if a little like a cult full of liars.
And God.
But what do you have to lose?
If you're willing to blow a stranger to fill your crackpipe come breakfast time, I dare say it's the lesser evil, though evil nonetheless, passive-aggressively evil.
Good luck! %)