I abused Adderall for about 5-6 years. I would always run out of my script early, and basically stayed up all night playing video games and doing other random crap.
I smoked pot almost daily for 7 years, Cigarettes for about 6 on and off. Been off the smokes for about 2 years.
Now, I've been on Benzos for about 3 years. I abused Xanax originally, that's what got me on them. I've come all the way down to 8mg of Valium a day, which makes me proud, but I've got to keep going. I was once on the equivalent of 60mg Diazepam a day.
I've also taken SSRIs for about 8 years. Almost every one of them, though I'm on 10mg Lexapro right now.
I have really bad anxiety. I don't drink, because I'm trying to get off benzos, so being social is hard.
Sometimes I feel like my brain is permanently fucked up. I keep going down the path of smoking weed, but they almost always cause me anxiety/panic attacks now.
As I type this, I'm on 20mg of Hydro, which has me feeling nice. This is the most I take, and I take around every 5-6 days or so, sometimes longer.
I think both Adderall and Benzos have had a profound effect on my brain. I feel like life isn't real sometimes, or that I'm just trapped inside my head. It sucks, I feel like no one else can relate, but I know that's not true.
Any advice any of you guys could give me? Sorry for the long post, I'm feeling great from this Hydro, and felt like talking about this.
I smoked pot almost daily for 7 years, Cigarettes for about 6 on and off. Been off the smokes for about 2 years.
Now, I've been on Benzos for about 3 years. I abused Xanax originally, that's what got me on them. I've come all the way down to 8mg of Valium a day, which makes me proud, but I've got to keep going. I was once on the equivalent of 60mg Diazepam a day.
I've also taken SSRIs for about 8 years. Almost every one of them, though I'm on 10mg Lexapro right now.
I have really bad anxiety. I don't drink, because I'm trying to get off benzos, so being social is hard.
Sometimes I feel like my brain is permanently fucked up. I keep going down the path of smoking weed, but they almost always cause me anxiety/panic attacks now.
As I type this, I'm on 20mg of Hydro, which has me feeling nice. This is the most I take, and I take around every 5-6 days or so, sometimes longer.
I think both Adderall and Benzos have had a profound effect on my brain. I feel like life isn't real sometimes, or that I'm just trapped inside my head. It sucks, I feel like no one else can relate, but I know that's not true.
Any advice any of you guys could give me? Sorry for the long post, I'm feeling great from this Hydro, and felt like talking about this.