This is a really brief (actually reading back, it's not so brief - perhaps I'd better put 'breifly considered') opinion of mine which I am working on fleshing out, but here is the skeleton of it. I think that this 'scene' is generally one in which the people who populate it just 'want to be left alone to do what makes them happy'.
The problem is one with public perception, because to be left to our own devices, we need to appear harmless to ourselves and to others. It seems to me that the public perception of ravers and raves is one of overriding suspicion, and that raves and drugs are interconnected in many peoples minds is of no aid to us (true or not). I imagine someone who went to a rave for the first time, 'to see what it's all about', who saw a group of happy party people grinning at one another, trying to eke out every enjoyable second from their youth and putting out a peaceful fun vibe. That would be one less person who had an unfounded mental picture of a rave being a dirty warehouse full of drug addicts. However, on the other side of the coin, I can equally imagine someone who came to a rave for the first time, and saw heaps of people wearing shirts with slogans advertising and advocating drug use, mashing around trying to leave reality in one way or another, and generally being self-focussed and introspective. It would leave them with an entirely different perspective of the 'scene'.
Of course, it is absolutely possible to enjoy drugs without the music, and the music without drugs. It is also possible to enjoy both at once without detracting from anyone elses enjoyment. Personally I can't think of any better sight than seeing a person at a rave who is having the time of their life, dancing away with a euphoric grin on their face and experiencing their own personal little nirvana inside their head. They notice you looking and give you a big thumbs-up, and ask the inevitable question, "Are you having a good night?" - when they really want to say "I really hope that you're having as much fun as I am, because where I am right now is
heaven".
How do I see myself? Am I a different person when I'm at a rave? Does it matter how other people see me, if I'm happy within myself? If I am a different person, does taking drugs change the person I am, or is it the way other people would react if they knew I am an 'illegal drug user' that changes who I am?
(Is this making sense?)
The experiences we all have at raves are what we make of them. If you're there for the drugs, and you have fun without taking away anyone elses fun, good. If you're there for the music, and you enjoy the music without taking part in any drugs, good. If you just plain love being around a huge mass of people who share a common interest, good. But, if you realise that you're not having fun because something detracts from your enjoyment, it might be time to reassess why it is that you go.
BigTrancer
*I think this train of thought posting is dangerous to my health*