DMT (40-50mg) - inexperienced - The end of the Universe

[Sega420]

This report is made up of posts i made in the PD and CD social threads tonight very soon after this experience. i was still in shock and shaking from the sheer intensity. i had no idea just how powerful dmt could be. anyway, i hope you enjoy reading this.
i wont be doing it again.

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OMFG. measured less than 51mg dmt an loaded slightly less, about 2-4mg left in the measuring dish- melted over a half bowl of bud. screens id been using to smoke the dmt with on top, soaked and shining with residue (so at this point i dont know how much in total) but fucking hell.. NEVER again. im still in shock.


Love.

i feel born again.

the most important thing ever is LOVE.

i love each and every one of you.

unfortunately my window was wide open to hear rain, so my whole block has DEFINITELY heard some very, VERY crazy shit.
i am seriously considering moving a lot sooner than my intended date at the beginning of next summer.








holy fuck....


i most certainly will never forget that for the rest of my life.
just... wow. i definitely do not want to do that again any time soon. i have had some very intense experiences in my career of consciousness but nothing could have prepared me for that.

i was listening to a live techno set by richie hawtin as i took the rip. i didnt even inhale the full hit or hold it all in for long at all. reality immediately started spiralling away from me as i exhaled. the music overcame my entire being as my whole being shook and vibrated. my limbs flailed wildy, clawing violently at my face, my head, trying in vain to get away from the effects enveloping me.

imagine a dog thats been sprayed in the face by some poisonous animal, trying to get away from whats on his face and up his nose and in his eyes.

my vision became a multicoloured soup of fractalling, spiralling matter. it was as if my room became a black hole and all the light and matter was ripped and spun around at high velocity.
i remember thinking things like "oh fuck ive done it, ive found the door out of the universe or something, this is it i am no more." and an indescribably strong sorrow at the prospect of never being able to see my family or friends ever again, never being able to tell them one last time that i love them.
i felt that i had somehow unravelled the universe. that this was it, game over, theres no going back. do not pass go, do not collect $200.
it just kept getting worse and worse, every cell, every atom and subsequent particle was simultaneously melted down and ripped into infinite pieces. there was nothing i could do to stop it.
the universe was ending and i had done it to myself. so much fear and sorrow.
i closed my eyes for this ordeal as with them open the sensory overload was just way too much for my brain to deal with while this shit was going on.
halfway through this i remember hearing the music through the intense WOOSHING rushes of energy and uncontrollably grabbing my sheets and humping my hips up n down off the bed to the beat. wether or not that has something to do with the message to follow i dont know, but what was to follow next was incredible.

i cannot describe it. those who have been through it will understand, but unless you have, there is no possible way i could do it justice.
i was shown the pure inherent love of the universe. i will never forget that for as long as i live.

as reality came back piece by piece i became "unblind" slowly, but my vision was still massively buzzing and shaking, my body and mind were in shock.
never in my life have i experienced anything like that and nor do i have any desire to repeat it.
i feel reborn and rejuvenated. i have found what i have been looking for my entire life without knowing i was looking for it. love. love within myself.

i definitely want to start living better than i have been, and not taking life for granted.
i guess having reality and the universe torn from under my feet has shown me a much deeper appreciation for my existence and the people in it.

im still in total awe and just thinking "holy fuck". in all reality my dose was probably between 40-50mg. the screens on top had a LOT of residue. in hindsight what the fuck was i thinking?!?
i definitely have a huge amount of respect for this tryptamine after all this.
upon reality coming back i have NEVER EVER in my life felt relief as strong as that. IT IS TRULY AMAZING TO BE ALIVE!




words cannot describe how grateful i am to have been given the gift of life back.


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[QuasiModo]

Sounds incredible

 

[kingme]

thank you for the report!

how long would you say your trip lasted? subjectively and objectively?

 

[Sega420]

subjectively i dont know. felt like too long anyway. at the same time though time seemed to pass normally.
all in all it FELT like it lasted a good ten minutes at least. when i came to i threw myself out my bed, into my bongs, laptop etc, to shut my window.
i was still fresh from being plugged back into the matrix and in complete shock and confusion, so i made a mighty crash and mess as i tried to fuck with the window blinds.
ran downstairs as i "NEEDed to see the moon outside". got to the door, crawling on my knees in hysterics, and when i got to the handle i realized i am in far too much of a state to be going outside where people could see/hear me.
it seems when reality came back my fight or flight response kicked in automatically and i guess i chose flight eh?


incredible is an understatement.

 

[BishopsBishop]

Sounds phenomenal, nice to hear that even though you were so overwhelmed for the most part you still came back having found some beaming positives in your experience. Can't wait to experience this.

 

[TangerinO]

Man I just don't know what's wrong with me, I smoked 40mg and barely had effects. I have smoked DMT three times now and I'm still waiting to truly hallucinate.
However, one thing I will say is this little trip report has definitely made me rethink dosing the 60mg I have left in one big hit.

 

[Sega420]

make sure you dont let the flame directly touch the dmt or you destroy much of it. the aim is to vape it to get the most out of it.

 

[Seattle_Stranger]

Crazy experience man. Reminds me of a mushroom experience I had, especially this:

my vision became a multicoloured soup of fractalling, spiralling matter. it was as if my room became a black hole and all the light and matter was ripped and spun around at high velocity.
i remember thinking things like "oh fuck ive done it, ive found the door out of the universe or something, this is it i am no more." and an indescribably strong sorrow at the prospect of never being able to see my family or friends ever again, never being able to tell them one last time that i love them.
i felt that i had somehow unravelled the universe. that this was it, game over, theres no going back. do not pass go, do not collect $200.
it just kept getting worse and worse, every cell, every atom and subsequent particle was simultaneously melted down and ripped into infinite pieces. there was nothing i could do to stop it.
the universe was ending and i had done it to myself. so much fear and sorrow.

To make a long story short, I passed out on shrooms once, and when I came to, this quote describes the experience pretty well. I totally understand that "I've been given another chance at life" feeling when you come back to reality.

Glad you're back too! Also good to hear you pulled a lot of positive out of it. I giggled when I read about you leaving the window open and your neighbors probably hearing your shreeks about the end of the universe LOL. If someone asks I suppose you could say you were watching a loud movie?

 

[TangerinO]

make sure you dont let the flame directly touch the dmt or you destroy much of it. the aim is to vape it to get the most out of it.

Yeah that's the thing. I vaped it through "the machine" and got a lot of smoke and I'm almost certain I didn't touch the actual crystals. Don't get me wrong it definitely did something, but not even close to what I expected from the dose.