I have made several attempts to socialize recently. I seem to fail at every one. Of the 3 recent attempts to talk to 'friends' only one of them I have actually enjoyed.
The other two left me feeling claustrophobic and with little to say without it feeling stiff and forced. This led to awkward silences, something that would never have happened a month or two ago.
I have recently started spending quite a lot of time alone indoors cause i didn't have much money. This has brought me to the conclusion that trying to get on with everybody isn't what I want, as pretty much everyone I know bores the living shit out of me and therefore I would much rather be alone enjoying my own company.
It seems I am finally learning who I am, instead of trying to be everyones friend.
The other two left me feeling claustrophobic and with little to say without it feeling stiff and forced. This led to awkward silences, something that would never have happened a month or two ago.
I have recently started spending quite a lot of time alone indoors cause i didn't have much money. This has brought me to the conclusion that trying to get on with everybody isn't what I want, as pretty much everyone I know bores the living shit out of me and therefore I would much rather be alone enjoying my own company.
It seems I am finally learning who I am, instead of trying to be everyones friend.