Didgitals Psychedelic Misadventures Part 3. Accidental Mescaline Consumption

[Didgital]

Ok so fuck. I'm such an idiot guys. Again. This is a lesson in what NOT to do. How you ask, was I able to even pull off something so stupid? I will explain in detail.

Other mods, if you think this deserves to be placed in "Trip Reports" i don't object at all. I just know that people here in PD will be interested in how such a thing could happen.

So lets start with the fact that I have been struggling with benzodiazapenes lately. My work can be extremely stressful and sometimes dangerous. I feel like if I don't get a good sleep, I will be a liability to my own work. I'm not crazy deep into this problem, maybe a month in of daily use at generally 350mcg of clonazolam. However, i woke up one day and decided enough was enough. I flushed all my clonazazolam. However the withdrawls are way more severe then my previous time quitting benzos (which was over a year of daily use FLUALP which was a rough thing to do). I forget where but I believe I have described that experience somewhere on bluelight as well.

I may have tried to taper it a little bit more but the clonazolam i feel is not useful for that in anyway, and it was causing me other life issues. Today I awoke basically twitching, and a strange muscle tension. I knew that I had some phenitbut in a plastic falcon tube with a blue cap. I only have 3 such tubes, and I'm quite aware of their contents. However in my desperation I reach into my stash (which in this case was kind of laid out on my desk, and pull out the tube of phenibut. In the past I have been able to gauge with this particular crystally fluffy crystals that a cap half full usually comes out to 250mg, which i consider an almost imperceptible dose. So I pour in approx that amount into cap and toss and washed it with water. I thought, I don't remember phenibut tasting so bitter. I notice that the cap on this particular falcon tube is green. I think, wait I don't have a tube with a green cap. I rotate the tube and it says "Mescaline S 1g"

I immediately run to the bathroom and induce vomiting. I eat approx 1g of activated carbon that is normally used for cleaning teeth.
Fortunately 250mg of mescaline sulfate is not an insane amount, and I'm sure I somewhat mitigated the dose, so its probably more like 100mg (this is based off of the current level of effects I'm experiencing. However withdrawling on benzos while taking mescaline was not what I planned to do today. Now I don't really feel safe to go to work ironically, and the shame of doing something so stupid (when I'm supposed to be the guy with lot of knowledge consuming drugs safely) is RAINING down on me like firery lava this very second. The irony is not lost.

Fucking sucks but I realize I've only done this to myself. I am more and more concerned with how FREQUENTLY i do stupid shit like this when I oaught to have learned my lesson by now.

"How" did i get this mescaline in a tube with a green top? Well, that can actually be explained in a reasonable manner. I swear, where I live, i have multiple people trying to GIVE me mescaline even though I generally refuse on the hopes that they give it to someone else who has never had the experience. I'm not kidding. Anyway it's possible I either accepted some finally in a black out benzo state, or its equally reasonable that one my friends placed simply placed 1g mescaline sulfate on my desk, thinking I'd appreciate it down the line. It's not my handwriting. Apparently I'd rather share this here, then I am to start calling all of the people that could have given me mescaline. First world problems right?

The other tubes, one of them contained Psilocin hemifumarate, and had I mistakenly taken that, I would legit be pretty fucked.

Key takes aways here.
Weigh your doses out for one, even if it's supposed to be a relatively benign substance.
Properly label all of your drugs.
READ the drug's label (EVERYTIME) before you ingest.
Benzodiazapenes are fucking more dangerous than you might believe.
Taper off benzos to avoid making stupid decisions and manage WDs better.


Feeling extreme anxiety and regret, but I want to share these stories so it doesn't happen to other people. If I suppose, for nothing else find it to be an entertaining, if shocking story. How I am permitted to be a Moderator on an harm reduction forum is beyond me.

What I am confused af about though right now, is I can't seem to find the tube with the actual phenibut in it, though that is truly the least of my worries at the moment.

Also ironic because at pretty much the exact moment this occurred, i was supposed to be on a call with a life coach to try and figure out what my deeper issues. I feel too mentally and physically unwell to even attempt to talk to her

 

[smokeymcpot42088]

Woww lol you may have too much access for your own good. (been there, not the worst place to be honestly).

That that that, flushing that, drug abuse lol.... that is a little over 1/4 mg a day, that is good. Oddly enough I seem to read more about benzos for phenibut w/d but from what i read, yea find that ish. The good news is on the very high side that is still only like 2mg of cPam or alp per day. (meaning you are in good company). That said there is still a significant risk of seizure if cut cold turkey. Especially if you have seized before. If you can Reup to taper; definitely do that. (you will likely find other benzos don't seem to cover C-Lam withdrawals completely) ex. Went from 4 mg CLAM to 20mg CPAM and still was feeling not so great. Somethin about this one seems "special"....mainly the buzz lol.

1. any benzos you can acquire to taper. 2. phenibut 3. Benadryl/clonodine. 4. Nyquil, or just dxm low dose if you have access. (as nyquil contains tylenol and benadryl). Feel free to message me about anything if you would like.

Benadryl and opis probably helped the tapering process the most. Obviously dont get addicted to opis (I was already on sub so I leaned on that).

Damn mescaline is right under DMT on the rare and exotic list for me. My mother spoke very highly of mescaline. May I ask how it compares to a traditional LSD trip
(and I aint eatin half a cactus to trip, I cannot believe it is significantly different enough to do my body like that lol)

 

[Electrum1]

At this rate he should keep all the cleaning chemicals away from the kitchen so he doesn't accidentally drink bleach one day

 

[Didgital]

At this rate he should keep all the cleaning chemicals away from the kitchen so he doesn't accidentally drink bleach one day

your not wrong. Once i accidentally ingested some LYE. thats a whole nother story

 

[foodcrisis]

i had about 7 or 8 tabs of lsd one time.. i took a half tab and was lightly drinking beer all day during the trip.... i was going to a club to see some bands in my town later that night, so i got paranoid about the tabs and put them in a bottle of beer that i thought was empty... i went to the club and drank a few more beers... came home and realized i really messed up the lsd cause there was still liquid at the bottom of the bottle... i panicked that it would get moldy if i didn't eat it right away, so i dumped all the liquid in my hands and licked it all up and ate the tabs thinking it was a good way not to waste the trips.... even just a day of drinking left me feeling terrible while tripping when the booze started wearing off, lots of sweaty and shakey body, and no cool visuals except my dark room was lit yellow most of the time... i imagine a month worse of benzo is pretty bad.... i really don't recommend withdrawing while tripping unless a person is a rock star and has to play a show or something where being strung out can be useful.

 

[someguyontheinternet]

Y'all alright over here in PD?

 

[Didgital]

Y'all alright over here in PD?

not so great. feeling all over the place regarding benzo withdrawl im seriously considering going to a hospiral but they will allmost certainly throw me in a psyche ward, which i probably need, but cant affford. The WD's were unreal. I'm pretty sure I had a seizure while i was alseep and there were times when I was incapable of walking, and maybe even talking. There were a lot of very surprising symptoms that had never experience during benzo WD's (this isn't my first time battling them), at times i was starting to suspect I had covid at the same time, was having chest pains, trouble breathing. fever's that would come and go. then there was extreme vomiting/diareagh etc. Was very scary. The vomiting, might be because of the activated carbon. My body didn't seem to love that stuff. Um fortunately I was able to source a few diazepam and klonopin, and that has eased the worst of the symptoms. but this clon stuff is no joke. I really under estimated how bad the WD's would be, because I have had to go through this before with FLUALP and this was 10x more intense, I really didn't expect them to be so severe, seeing as i haven't been using them

thanks for all the support/kind words. I don't think being overly critical will be very helpful this point, so please be gentle. The mescaline dose was very mild, but I do not think it helped in this case at all. I was actually hallucinating pretty strongly at moments, but that could have easily been because of the WD's.

i really don't recommend withdrawing while tripping unless a person is a rock star

Actually my first time going through this I was eating a lot of mushrooms and they seemed to actually help, tho this time not so much.

Woww lol you may have too much access for your own good. (been there, not the worst place to be honestly).

May I ask how it compares to a traditional LSD trip
(and I aint eatin half a cactus to trip, I cannot believe it is significantly different enough to do my body like that lol)

Youre probably right about too much access for my own good. Mescaline and LSD are kind of worlds apart IME, I would generally discribe it being like a less pushy, more visual MDA.

 

[iom]

Benzo withdraw + mescaline (even low dose) sounds like it could be a rough combo, but I don't know. I don't know how many people have done this sort of thing or maybe tried to use mescaline to go cold turkey from alcohol. Hopefully the intensity of things is starting to ease up a bit by now?

Anyway, you'll get through this and then tell your life coach that you decided to rely on mescaline as your life coach instead. Haha! Seriously, it is a very strong medicine but demands patience. I wish you to come out of this better.

 

[JackARoe]

Hey is this an excerpt from the book?

Eh just a simple mistake if you ask me.. Could happen to anyone. But it does say to you be present and pay attention. We already know that but being tired and overworked and throws us off center. I blame work.

Since I am so late to this I imagine the mescaline wore off by now. And I am relieved at the amount of benzo and time. Just a month in. So hopefully today you do feel better Digital. Thanks for the adventure. Not enough fear and loathing anymore. Never had synthetic mescaline. But have had plenty of potent cactus.

 

[Didgital]

Hey is this an excerpt from the book?

Eh just a simple mistake if you ask me.. Could happen to anyone.

I don't plan on writing a book, i write here. The mescaline was never the huge issue, but it was just a potentially huge fuck up. Not nearly as bad as some of my previous ones. But I was definitely trying to stay calm and withdrawl from benzos without external accentuation. Could have have been seriously worse though as i mentioned. What if I took 250mg of Psilocin hemifumarate, I mighta needed medical attention just on that. Something I didn't mention, is I pretty sure I had a seizure from benzo withdrawl as I slept. So coming to and then accidentally ingesting mescaline is still pretty serious fuck up within harm reduction space.

I was able to avoid hospital and subsequent psych ward (thats related but not explained)

Synthetic Mescaline is great! You just need to plan for it.

Was just highlighting one way someone could fuck up. This was a fuck up. And, while I'm not the best at explaining how to do things safely,, I'm pretty experienced in how NOT to do things safely. That's mainly what I report about.

Just because I'm experienced, doesn't mean I do everything correctly from a HR perspective.

i still feel quite ashamed, I'm just happy to share my (mostly stupid) experiences, because I don't wish what I went through on most of my reports here on anyone. This was truly terrifying. Besides the seizure from benzo withdrawl the same day, I had many other terrible symptoms. puking, shitting, couldn't walk, anxiety, muscle tensions.... the list goes on. I just don't want anyone else to mistakenly grab the wrong vial out of stupidity.

 

[50shadesofDave]

Hi folks, o/p your thread sounds very similar to what i'm experiencing over the last couple of months, i had a 30mg daily diaz habit that came to an abrupt end when my plug sent dodgy pills, the dodgy pills had a few results on wedinos and showing as positive for metonitezenes + Bromazolam.
I spoke to my plug who sent me samples of all the other benzos he had, all dodgy in one way or another, such as results showing another brand as Bromazolam and others as alprazolam, initialy i only had 8 10mg diaz which i broke into quarters and tried a really harsh taper as i did'nt want to use the pills with 'zenes' in.

My wd's started pretty much instantly with the panic of knowing i could'nt get more legit to taper, and true to the saying it was three days after my last quarter diaz, it was a sunday and i live very close to a church and the fucking bells would'nt stop (auditory hallucinations) four days those bells lasted , i had been awake for around 6-7 days at this point and was properly psycotic, my vision was strobing and i was having really bad jolts and spasms, i don't drink alcohol but had some in the fridge since xmas and found 2-3 beers would take the edge off after hearing alcohol acts on the same receptors, it worked for me but even then i fucked up by going to the shop for more beers when my fridge was empty, i bought twelve pint cans thinking i would maybe need two a day just to keep the edge off, got home and drank the lot, so after 11-12 years of no booze you can imagine the outcome, i felt back to normal whilst drinking them and they gave me some sleep but next morning was fubar.

A day or so later i decided to try the pills that had shown to be Bromaz and zenes but this was also a big mistake, i was nailed to the sofa grinding my teeth and sweating buckets, with no let up in wd's and chipped two teeth, my skin was pale and clamy, felt and looked a right mess.

A couple of days later i received the pills that had shown as Bromaz only and it was at this point i felt slight relief, i could'nt use many at a time as i only had a few but it kept me from a full on grand mal, as i could feel my symptoms were building to this.

Next up i bought the pills that were tested as alprazolam and this is where i am up to currently, these are dodgy fakes though, just pressed with alpraz, the actual pills are badly pressed, different sizes etc but any port in a storm eh, thing is i am out of work at the moment and live alone so i am responsible for all the bills and my savings have gone so i've got interviews lined up, i did interview earlier on in this but they were bad interviews from myself and unsurprisingly never heard back.

I feel i'm on a knife edge at the moment, need to find work to fund a dodgy alpraz taper + bills. But i suppose i was able to arrest the initial situation and prevent being sectioned, which just can't happen for different reasons.

So i will carry on trying to fake it till i make it.

Oh, and to answer a question you asked about alcohol, it should help take the edge off, DON'T drink enough for a hangover and only as a last resort.

Thoughts and best wishes from a fellow idiot. x

 

[50shadesofDave]

And a question from myself, i have a 30ml bottle of Flubrotizolam, this is something i can't find much info on, i don't want to use it at this point as i have some alpraz left, i don't want my tolerance to be even worse as i know i'll use it all and be unable to get more, have you used it? i'm just after knowing if it lingers in the system etc or how would you use it for wd's?
Thank you

 

[smokeymcpot42088]

your not wrong. Once i accidentally ingested some LYE. thats a whole nother story

^ I hear you, I once put PH up into my nose as a roomate who was growing it kept it in a dang nasal spray bottle. Be careful with the seizures after you have one it is alot easier to seize again. (or so I have been taught)

he tells me "dont worry I put a giant UP arrow across it". .... "ok must not be this one, ahh fuck' *sees up arrow written on the damn thin side of the nasal spray. SMH

50-- You got no relief at all from other bromaz? Did you take enough to counteract the possibility of them being low dosage?

 

[50shadesofDave]

Hi Smokey, the Bromaz pills definatley took the edge off, thing is i did'nt have many at hand and did'nt fancy buying them as at the time i was scouring the clearweb for legit diaz with no joy, so i settled on the alpraz ones, which i know for sure there were no 'zenes' mixed in.

 

[smokeymcpot42088]

Sounds like a solid choice. word to the wise, try and get ahead of buying them in pill form. It will be quite the quest but if you succeed it makes this a non monetary issue. (or close to it)

 

[Didgital]

I feel i'm on a knife edge at the moment, need to find work to fund a dodgy alpraz taper + bills. But i suppose i was able to arrest the initial situation and prevent being sectioned, which just can't happen for different reasons.

So i will carry on trying to fake it till i make it.

Oh, and to answer a question you asked about alcohol, it should help take the edge off, DON'T drink enough for a hangover and only as a last resort.
Thoughts and best wishes from a fellow idiot. x

Hey man somehow I missed this post. I can super relate. I do think aprazolam isn't the best choice to taper on, but it's better than nothing. I went from the clonaz to diazepam (after a seizure all alone/very scary) and since then I've only been able to find aprazolam. It's a 1000x better than detoxing from clonazepam, but it still sucks balls.

And yeah i've drank alcohol (i drink frequently anyway), along with other non benzo substances such as kratom, ketamine, MDA, and smoked cannabis. Oral cannabis seems to just shoot my anxiety up. Anyway, most of these substances only masked my symptoms at best. At worst it accentuated them. Surprisingly I can do a few bumps of cocaine without making things worse, but I've noticed even 2 cups of coffee will have me regretful.

just went about 3 days without dosing but I caved in today, and took about .75mg, just enough to stave off the withdrawls. I hope this works.

Much love and best wishes as well.

 

[Pfafffed]

GABAergics are insidious, eh? I can't wait for better sleep meds to become widely available.

I aint eatin half a cactus to trip, I cannot believe it is significantly different enough to do my body like that

Mescaline is in my top 3 favorite/most-useful psychedelics and the only one of those three that I still take semi regularly. It actually feels healthy. LSD is nice, but it isn't even in my personal top 10.

 

[Didgital]

GABAergics are insidious, eh? I can't wait for better sleep meds to become widely available.

Mescaline is in my top 3 favorite/most-useful psychedelics and the only one of those three that I still take semi regularly. It actually feels healthy. LSD is nice, but it isn't even in my personal top 10.

Definitely insidious and I'll get back to that. Mescaline can be a pretty wild substance for sure. Very healing. In this case I didn't feel very healthy, but benzo withdrawl will do that.

I've a few other mesc trips I've never wrote about that probably deserve their own reports. One of them is pretty short and could be considered a Didgital's Psychedelic Misadventure. I ate 50g of Peyote, 28g of Peruvian Torch, and then thought what the hell, lets toss in 330mg of the HCL. I completely dissolved into my bed and the universe and you could maybe say I blacked out. It was just a bit too much :D When I finally recovered from that, I had to relearn who I was, what the objects around me were, and how to use them . Taking a selfie on my phone was wildly entertaining I knew I'd be ok after that... I really should take the time to write up a few of my other trips. I've seen both beautiful and terrible things with mescaline actually. I have so many trip reports, so little time.

**To kind of end my OP story. I've finally found my phenibut after totally organizing my entire house and life, though I haven't needed to take it. The last benzo I took was over 5 days ago, so it appears I've successfully tapered off. It was 100% for sure mescaline that I took, and I'm still not sure where I got that vial :D

 

[smokeymcpot42088]

GABAergics are insidious, eh? I can't wait for better sleep meds to become widely available.

Mescaline is in my top 3 favorite/most-useful psychedelics and the only one of those three that I still take semi regularly. It actually feels healthy. LSD is nice, but it isn't even in my personal top 10.

I have heard nothing but good things about mesc. Do you think it would be worth all of the trouble dealing with san pedro etc; sounds kind of like adding the toxic/nausea back it? Any experience with "non synthed" mesc and if so had did that go?

CONGRATS DIDGITAL, I was a bit worried about ya. You want to put them all in a book and collab with all us other nuts. You just figure out how to keep us anonymous lol

 

[Didgital]

I have heard nothing but good things about mesc. Do you think it would be worth all of the trouble dealing with san pedro etc; sounds kind of like adding the toxic/nausea back it? Any experience with "non synthed" mesc and if so had did that go?

CONGRATS DIDGITAL, I was a bit worried about ya. You want to put them all in a book and collab with all us other nuts. You just figure out how to keep us anonymous lol

No one buys books anymore so why bother? My experiences are almost always reported for free somewhere.

I'm still worried but, doing so much better.

Yes I think working with cactus itself is quite rewarding if messy. You can do a dirty sanchez or bring it to pure mesc. I think there's become an easy way to get pure mescaline citrate via simple cacti extraction if you want to avoid any GI issues.

The Kichwa told me that purging is the point though. I still prefer to make my own (they very practical but they don't know everything).