FayeHarderway
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Hi all. So I've been on a cocaine bender for about a month now, shooting up about a ball in one sitting spread out over several shots. I've never weighed out doses since I started shooting coke about 5 years ago, typically Ill pull the plunger on a 3cc syringe and just load my cocaine through the top, put the very top of the plunger back over the syringe, flip the syringe up so all the coke is now on the plunger and push the plunger in till right before the coke hits the top of the syringe/needle. Then i draw in my water and voila.
I know what I described must have the harm reduction gods going crazy... I know, i know. But that's kinda how I introduced myself to IV cocaine use and I like it better than the 'proper' way. I gauge the dose by how much dry coke is in the syringe and then usually draw up a little over 1cc of water, if I went too heavy on the coke I'll draw closer to 1.5 and do it in 2 shots

Let me tell you, I've had some zingers. But in 5 years of experimenting this way (on and off over the years) the thought lingering in the back of my head every time is that one day I'm gonna get too excited and do a too heavy shot and there will be no coming back. Well I think I'm gonna cool it because I'm getting close. The other day, I saw how loaded the syringe was and I'm like fuck yeah send it. Because my dose has slowly increased over the years as I tip toe it past the previous largest dose, but I think in the back of my head I knew that was gonna be too much even for a split dose. Well there I went... poke, flash, draw....breathe......plunge.......oooohhhh shiiiiiit.......
....anyone who has iv coke before knows that taste of gasoline that hits your tongue, the smell fills your nostrils and your face goes numb....Well I instantly knew I fucked up and shot too much because those 3 things were over the top. I froze and felt my eyes get wide open... and then, here it comes...
I had read that typically what happens when someone ODs on coke, is that they become unable to breathe. Something about their brain being unable to control the breathing muscles and you just stop breathing....well I definitely felt that coming on. So, scared shitless for my life I take the deepest breath I can and right about at the same time as that, I started to shake violently out of control. This wasn't like an epileptic seizure type of shake.... I remember as I felt it coming on I jumped from my bed and tried to make it out my door and to the living room where there was someone who could have tried to call for help (even though I know there is no helping a cocaine OD). But I never even made it out my room. I was jerking my head, arms, legs so violently I knocked down everything in my room. So there I was on the floor of my bedroom by my door, flopping around violently out of control...picture a fish out of water...very much so...struggling to breathe as well. Thinking is this it??! I remember feeling my little gasps for air getting shorter and shorter and more labored...those lasting 2 breaths took everything I had, all my strength, to inhale and exhale. And after that 2nd breath, I felt like it was wearing off and inch my way back to life. Slowly the violent shaking stopped and I was able to recover my breath.
I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced anything like this before and was this technically an OD.
I wish I could say that that experience scared some sense into me, but it didn't

A week later it happened again. This time I ended up on the floor banging my head violently against it and grunting/yelling. It was ugly. I ended up with an orbital fracture and my right eye was swollen shut..
Ok now I think I'll cool it for a while.
I know what I described must have the harm reduction gods going crazy... I know, i know. But that's kinda how I introduced myself to IV cocaine use and I like it better than the 'proper' way. I gauge the dose by how much dry coke is in the syringe and then usually draw up a little over 1cc of water, if I went too heavy on the coke I'll draw closer to 1.5 and do it in 2 shots


Let me tell you, I've had some zingers. But in 5 years of experimenting this way (on and off over the years) the thought lingering in the back of my head every time is that one day I'm gonna get too excited and do a too heavy shot and there will be no coming back. Well I think I'm gonna cool it because I'm getting close. The other day, I saw how loaded the syringe was and I'm like fuck yeah send it. Because my dose has slowly increased over the years as I tip toe it past the previous largest dose, but I think in the back of my head I knew that was gonna be too much even for a split dose. Well there I went... poke, flash, draw....breathe......plunge.......oooohhhh shiiiiiit.......
....anyone who has iv coke before knows that taste of gasoline that hits your tongue, the smell fills your nostrils and your face goes numb....Well I instantly knew I fucked up and shot too much because those 3 things were over the top. I froze and felt my eyes get wide open... and then, here it comes...
I had read that typically what happens when someone ODs on coke, is that they become unable to breathe. Something about their brain being unable to control the breathing muscles and you just stop breathing....well I definitely felt that coming on. So, scared shitless for my life I take the deepest breath I can and right about at the same time as that, I started to shake violently out of control. This wasn't like an epileptic seizure type of shake.... I remember as I felt it coming on I jumped from my bed and tried to make it out my door and to the living room where there was someone who could have tried to call for help (even though I know there is no helping a cocaine OD). But I never even made it out my room. I was jerking my head, arms, legs so violently I knocked down everything in my room. So there I was on the floor of my bedroom by my door, flopping around violently out of control...picture a fish out of water...very much so...struggling to breathe as well. Thinking is this it??! I remember feeling my little gasps for air getting shorter and shorter and more labored...those lasting 2 breaths took everything I had, all my strength, to inhale and exhale. And after that 2nd breath, I felt like it was wearing off and inch my way back to life. Slowly the violent shaking stopped and I was able to recover my breath.
I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced anything like this before and was this technically an OD.
I wish I could say that that experience scared some sense into me, but it didn't


A week later it happened again. This time I ended up on the floor banging my head violently against it and grunting/yelling. It was ugly. I ended up with an orbital fracture and my right eye was swollen shut..
Ok now I think I'll cool it for a while.