Recovery Detoxed/stooped my stimulant and gabapentinoid usage all the way thru April relapsed and almost killed myself/got arrested and now going again

[soulwentmia]

All the month of April, I stopped using/abusing stimulants, ketamine and gabapentin. I stabilised on codeine and 5htp + L-Tyrosine plus weed. Things were alright until I decided to relapse on gabapentinoids, got a box 60*400MG gabapentin and then 50*25mg baclofen. Used 4*20mg diazepam then stole 6*1mg lorazepam. Used all of those plus 4 grams of amphetamine paste and lots and lots of zolpidem and zopiclone. A miracle i didn't get arrested or hit my head deadly.

Last thursday I took my last dosage of gabapentin. Today is tuesday and let me tell you how much it sucks. Today I took my last codeine dose and I will go down cold turkey or with loperamide from here. Starting Monday, I experience huge improvements in my opioid withrawal symtpoms but the worse of gabapentin is yet to come. I'm paying the tariff caused by overstimulation of Gaba A and B receptors, the Gaba A and B rebounds are close to over, leaving me in the arms of gabapentin withdrawal which codeine barely touches, making it bearable but also making me angrier than usual.

I have a strip of clonidine left, will start using it later tomorrow. I would love if someone could lend me 20 bucks so I can get nasal drops and paracetamol + H1 antagonist and lope strips.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

That sounds awful. Keep fighting the good fight! How can we help?