My wife found Suboxone in which I was using to detox from a brief opiate bender. Full story, I was in a work related accident leaving me with a severe tounge laceration and pain that was very hard to manage. I was in the hospital for 3 days. As I had been clean for 5 plus years, my pride told me that I could handle opiate assisted relief. I was mistaken. It ended with me using Suboxone to curtail my withdrawal from the medication that I was "so confident that I was able to handle". I know that my addiction lied to me but the thought of getting high wasnt even crossing my kind. Despite this, the first sign of discomfort after stoping my medication lead to my decision to start taking Suboxone. Of course my mind had been altered and I used the Suboxone much longer than originally anticipated. This app culminated with my wife finding 2 strips that i left out accidentally. My wife was steadfast throughout our 3 year marriage and 5 year relationship that if I were to use, she would leave. I used this as my excuse to attempt to stop without her knowledge. Being honest with myself at this point, I am not confident that would have ever happened. Now, my wife is trying to decide if she wants to stay with me. I do not blame her in any way for this dilema. I am now rapidly cutting my down down with her complete knowledge, but doing so knowing the limbo I have created for myself is difficult. Any words of encouragement or advice is appreciated. I feel as if I am being honest with myself but my sled confidence to successfully do this is very low. I hope I do not get bumped because of the commonality of my issue, as direct support is what I am seeking. If you've made it this far, thank you for taking the time to read, and please feel free to give any input or criticism. I love my wife with all my heart, so I am willing to let her go because she deserves better. I pray for her support and love, but there is no guarantee. I've ran led sufficiently, so I'll hope for a kind word. Thanks