I am past the 60 year old age mark. and I have had chronic anxiety all of my life. I can share my experience in this
perspective. I started going to Psychiatrists in the year 1969, and continue to do so, this year 2013.
I have taken 75% of all of the ethical pharmaceutical SSRI's SNRI's, Tri-Cycle old school anti-depressants, nearly all of
the benzodiazepines ever released, many barbituates, in my youth in the 1960's and 1970's, and, many non-barbiturate
hypnotics, from the 1980's, to ease my high wired persona, from the notorious Methaqualone, to Glutethimide (Doriden in the USA) to Abbott Pharmaceutical Placidyl, to anti-hypertensives, old school, like Inderal (propranolol) or Corgard (Nadolol) to
the tranquilizer-antihistamine "hydroxyzine" a/k/a Vistaril/Atarax, to the "major tranquilizers a/k/a anti psychotics, such as
the new generation atypical anti-psychotics, "Seroquel" (quetiapine fumarate) to Lamictal (lamotrigine) to old school
phenothiazines, and more, Bipolar agents, like Abilify (aripiprazole), Risperdal (respiridone) to mood stabilizers, the gold
standard (lithium from 300mg per day to 1,200 mg per day) to Tegretol (carbamazepine) Trileptal (Oxcarbazepine) to
Calan (calcium channel blockers) to old school, long acting phenobarbital, and, out of desperation, the past 7 years, using
controlled doses, of the narcotic agonist-antagonist, European KrKa Fortral (Pentazocine Hydrochloride) tablets, and, in the
past 2 years, even USA Oxycodone, a/k/a "Percocet" (never, ever more than two tablets of the 5mg oxycodone with 325mg
of Acetaminophen daily) as a combo to ease depression to add to my high lifetime anxiety. Unorthadox, yes,
absolutely. But the only thing left, in my world view, is ECT, "Electro-convulsive therapy" and I have personally seen the aftereffects of what I considered two brilliant males, have their brains destroyed from all of the electricity, from this technique, that scares the H..l out of me. I know of one female, that survived the ECT, and, she does live a balanced life, with no serious side effects long term, but 2 bad cases out of three is not good enough for me.
I married into the medical model health profession, thus, I have had more psychoanalysis, than anyone, I have ever met in
my travels all over the USA, years of Cognitive-Behavioral therapy, to practitioners of Aaron Beck's Cognitive Theory, to
Rational Emotive Therapy, to Cognitive Restructuring (Remapping) to the late Dr. Victor Frankl's Logotherapy, to "Guru
Addiction" (following charismatic speakers all over the USA, to get re-charged, with the likes of John Bradshaw, on any
subject he speaks of, to Anthony Robins "Unleash the Power Within" to Nick Hall Ph.D's Change Your Beliefs, Change Your
Life" seminars, and lots more on Dr. Hall, to large hotel group awareness "transformation" seminars that last 3 to 5 days..
such as Werner Erhard's 1980's EST, later, the spinoff, "Forum" via Landmark Education, to "LifeSpring" by founder
John Handley........................................
To 3 years of "A Course In Miracles" deep metaphysical reading and classes, more Guru's like Brian Tracy (Canada) to
Stephen Covey to Zig Ziglar books, tapes, and seminars, later Emotion Freedom Techniques, (EFT) ................................
even I sought out the most radical form of AA, the so-called Nazi AA groups to later, Alanon, Co-Dependants, to ACOA 12 Step groups, to burning myself, completely out....................................yet, in spite of all of this, plus geographic re-
locations all over the USA, I carry me with me, and my high anxieties.
I do not have the authority to write prescriptions.....................I can share two experiences with you concerning two
benzodiazepines.....................Valium helped me out initially, by a quantrum leap, but taking it daily, I personally built
up a tolerance from 3 x 5mg per day, to 4 x 10mg per day: by the 5th year, I was up to 80 mg per day, and the magic was
gone. I was hospitalized "once" to withdraw off of alcohol and particularly Roche Valium, and, that was at age 33. It took me
6 months to feel half way normal, and 10 days to detox with supervision, taking 1st cousin Roche Librium.
At age 45, I began Upjohn/ (now) Pfizer Xanax, and it, like Valium, worked miracles for my high anxiety, but in my case,
within 18 months of taking Xanax/Tafil daily, I was on 6 milligrams per day. It turned on me, a horror story. I got panic
attacks, when, the alprazolam started wearing off, extreme tightness in the chest, wide mood swings, and hot and cold flashes.
I spent US $5,000.00 to enter a clinic to withdraw off of alprazolam, from 6 mg to zero, it took me 90 days to just do that,
and, I did not really feel normal for nearly one year. "I am afraid of Xanax personally". "Alprazolam"
The safest benzo, I have ever taken is Roche Rivotril or Roche Klonopin (both Clonazepam) which comes on very, very
gradually. "Not my favorite benzo at all, but the only safe one so far, that I can manage". " a anti-seizure med as well".
I wish you good luck in your endeavors. sorry for my "wall of text" I just did not know how to summarize my story, any
shorter. I still struggle, presently, trying to abstain, from my venture, of playing around with Oxycodone, felt great at the
beginning, but, I fear it now, and, my sources are drying up, so I am forced to change again, in my search for serenity!!!!