Depressions

[lars90]

I dont know why but latly i have been having allot of depressions and mood swings randomly apear over the day.

While I have them i just feel horrible and when im with my friends i cant even hide then i just become quit boring and im in a bad mood.
dont get me wrong its not because of the wether ( its really gret right now been getting more than enough sun) or because of drug use because i dont use them anymore exsept for alcohol.

i just dont know what to do they've been goin on for a while now and its just not stopping i tryied self medication with weed since it worked for me the last time, but it just isent working this time.

Even though these are quit minor oposed though drug realted depressions they are quit hard to deal with for me and i just dont know what to do anymore.

Any ideas?

thanks in advance for any kind of advice or support.

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey lars90, sorry you are feeling down.. I would look at why you are choosing focussing on negative thought and then alter your thinking to induce the way you want to feel.

Managing Depressive Thinking

 

[missmeyet?]

Maybe since you are not able to relate it to anything in particular you have developed some chemical imbalances? Do you have other symptoms of clinical depression?

 

[Bill Idjerint]

I have schizoaffective disorder, which means I can have manic or depressive or both episodes and suffer from auditory hallucinations. I tend to get more depressive than anything, and I can somehow relate to what you're going through, since even though i take like 14 meds the thing won't go away.....unless i focus on what makes me happy OUTSIDE of drugs. watch a marathon session of new girl episodes, write a song. talk with other people in the internet...just trying to dissociate from the whole negative thing. I mean there's GOTTA be something that can make you happy. If not, go to a shrink; marijuana won''t solve anything.

 

[lars90]

Hey lars90, sorry you are feeling down.. I would look at why you are choosing focussing on negative thought and then alter your thinking to induce the way you want to feel.

Managing Depressive Thinking

i like that though ita just i have to find out what it is first. im cure tly trying to get an pychiatrist but thatll take a nother few weeks.

Hey lars90, sorry you are feeling down.. I would look at why you are choosing focussing on negative thought and then alter your thinking to induce the way you want to feel.

Managing Depressive Thinking

Maybe since you are not able to relate it to anything in particular you have developed some chemical imbalances? Do you have other symptoms of clinical depression?

what exsacly are we looking for now?

Hey lars90, sorry you are feeling down.. I would look at why you are choosing focussing on negative thought and then alter your thinking to induce the way you want to feel.

Managing Depressive Thinking

I have schizoaffective disorder, which means I can have manic or depressive or both episodes and suffer from auditory hallucinations. I tend to get more depressive than anything, and I can somehow relate to what you're going through, since even though i take like 14 meds the thing won't go away.....unless i focus on what makes me happy OUTSIDE of drugs. watch a marathon session of new girl episodes, write a song. talk with other people in the internet...just trying to dissociate from the whole negative thing. I mean there's GOTTA be something that can make you happy. If not, go to a shrink; marijuana won''t solve anything.

im very sorry about that and i hope you wont feel offended when i say im glad i doont have it that bad.

its not like i have them all the time. i just have them when someonr gives me a bad message says something bad about me or just in randome Situations.

these depressions are not 1/4th as bad as the ones i experinced coming of dxm. but theire still really annoying and they hold me back from living my life setting out all free potintiol i have and just bening my self.

 

[Bill Idjerint]

that's what i'm saying. you don't have it as bad as me for sure, but a psychiatrist AND a psychologist - perhaps a cognitive therapist would help a lot

 

[PortalFloyd]

In my experience depression is not something that just goes away in time. Self-medicating with weed may only suppress those depressive thoughts temporarily too. Do you have someone you could talk to about this? Look into CBT.

 

[Bill Idjerint]

weed has tendency to bring alight psychotic tendencies for those who have the inclination to have em. . be careful with tnat.

 

[lars90]

weed has tendency to bring alight psychotic tendencies for those who have the inclination to have em. . be careful with tnat.

thats wierd i always though weed was pretty much the least harmfull drug.

ive never liked it because i sted of feeling good i felt bad while on it because of all the thinking i did. i offtenly found myself thining bad thoughts. everything would have 2 sides a normal one and a bad one.
an exsample. Some one texted m3 on facehook the day i was having a haousparty at my place, right away i told him that there were to many people coming and he coulnt com3.


the body high felt more like a feeling that was pulling me down a pain. every other pain on my body became more intence.

this will happen like 3 quarters of the time i smoke weed depending on if i drunk alcohol or not. i just tend to get really anxietious. iv3 had a few nice highs though but only a few like 5-10 times out of 30-40 times.

the time i felt better after smoking was not actually a good high every time. and it only worked until the depressions left and than came again later.

to the people obove you i 5hink i know where most of my depressions are coming from or atleast think i know it.

my brother use to be an real asshole, i admit was a bit of a pest to him allot but the way he treated me was just wrong he made me cry allot told me i had no friends and nobody liked me.

a nother ractor would be that i use to be bullied. (always mentally, i al2ays took it real hard but somehow i use to b3 able to stanr up to it every day)

also maybe the time i fame down on dxm.
long story short i have no idea how it happend to take a low dose and it never kicked in all the way. i felt it over the next few weeks. i was high every day without taking it which scar3d me to death and in that time caused the most horrie depressions i have ever had.


and both combinded were horrible i use to think of comitting suiside. Only reason i diddnt do it was b3caus3 i know my mom would have had so much pain b3cause the has always b3en there for me and a loving mother.


but i dont get bullied anymore and i get allong quit good with my brother now. But still the depressions remain. ane exsept for the snowy vision and a little bit of my memory i am totally back to normal since dxm it quit a while back now to.

i just dont know what to do. i wish i could self treat my self in some way and i know the medicine is not the right way because it only makes it better for a while so thats not really an option.

i just dont wanna do it anymore i need help.