Depression the day after first trip?

[nearjat]

It's temporary. You learn to fight it. Trust me, I was going through full-blown battles in my own head trying to fight off the shitty feeling. You gotta REALLY believe in yourself and the reality of your own brain processing. Acid turned me into a lame-ass awkward boring loser, because it amplified my insecurities. I've finally shot it all down and now I've found who I really am. A fucking dick who doesn't let any fucking thing stand in the way of his conscience. Do what I want, say what I want, disregard the result of my actions, I don't give a flying fuck!


I don't know about you, obviously you're different, everybody is. You still remember who you are, and how you used to think, the thinking that kept you sane in your own head. Re-visit it. Call it for help. It'll come back, it's not like it ever wanted to leave, it LOVES you and never wants to let go of you.

Good luck to you, fellow severe anxiety freedom fighter =)

Lol just wanted to point out that SOMEONE here will likely think everything you just said was kinda...poor guidance

I definitely do, if LSD "turned you in to" an awkward boring loser, YOU did something wrong. Maybe those amplified insecurities should've been looked into and solved. Instead of denying them and turning into an asshole.

Just sayin'

 

[DiaLæT]

What I did wrong was I tried acid for the first time at a rave. Everyone told me it would be great.

Instead I left with a very negative view on ravers.

All of my friends at the time, best friends, closest friends, were ravers.

Go ahead and imagine how that feels.



You don't know me or the way my brain works. At heart, I've always been psychologically fucked. It ain't obvious to anyone on the outside, and that's why my dad never let me see a psychologist.
A lot of it is psychology I just can't express outright. It's almost impossible. But if a psychologist were to analyze it he'd come to the conclusion that I'm an asshole. I dunno for sure, though, I've never spoken to a psychologist.

My prick side is the side of me I get along with best. Nothing makes me feel more alive than when I tell someone off to their face, and get spit a giant fucking loogey in their eye.
Sounds asinine, yeah? Well, that's me. And that's the shit I did to help myself recover from the acid. Nobody can change me, only drugs can change me.

So fuck you and your poor guidance bullshit. I don't fall for standards. I am what I am, and I don't change. Unless I'm on something. Then I change. What else can I tell you? Nothing, really, I told it all, so I'll click the button now.

 

[Pacism]

I had the same thing when i first tried acid. The day after the trip I just had this terrible looming anxiety, and i felt like i never wanted to do acid or any drug for that matter ever again, in fact, I felt like i never wanted to do anything at all ever again, it was terrible. But after around 2 weeks i made my way to a positive headspace and things seemed better than ever before. After the 2 weeks, I started remembering parts of the trip, and realizing that it was actually an extremely positive and beneficial experience. The first trip springs you into this new life and it can be very scary but trust me when I say it will subside. Don't superimpose the anxiety onto your thoughts and opinions because that will just cause contradictions in a week or so when you start realizing that it wasnt that bad. The first trip is a rebirth experience and definitely has some terrible anxiety afterwards but its definitely worth it once the anxiety subsides. Just give it a while and soon enough things will get even better than before the trip

Thanks for that I don't think this trip will give me any revelations though. I was home the whole time and didn't really do a lot.

 

[nearjat]

You'd be surprised. When I woke up the morning after my trip with the anxiety and all and even shortly after the anxiety I felt like the trip had no real psychological,philosophical, or spiritual value. The trip in itself was fun and enlightening, but it's what came after that caused the major revelations for me. One of my friends tried to convince me of the same thing i'm trying to convince you of now, and i didnt believe him completely. But believe me, Once you get back out in the real world after a week or two, you're gonna realize how positively and drastically your perspective has changed.

Who ya talkin 'bout?

 

[MasterSplinter]

Naw that's unlikely/impossible. But an intense experience (positive or negative) CAN profoundly effect you for the rest of your life. My first LSD trip changed the way I saw the world forever, very much for the better. I find it easier to appreciate the connections we all have to each other, and everything else in the universe. Essentially I "learned" that we are all infinite, and that we are all One.

Others may have a terrible, terrible trip and get seriously shaken up for as long as YEARS afterwords. Lucy aint no joke

Aint no Joke but its not like your gonna have a bad trip if your already tripping after you didnt have one in the first place. And yeah we are the infinite one.

 

[ABDF]

Ego death is not the destruction of your self confidence. It simply shows your mind that no one is better than you and you are better than no one. Equality my friends, is what I've come to learn from trips. I no longer see myself as better than those I used to find to be less intelligent than myself. And I no longer think others are better for the unique traits they possess.

And remember LSD is a tool, how you chose to use that tool can make it good or bad. It is always the user who is solely responsible for the trips they have because it is their own mind creating the experience.

 

[Xorkoth]

Pacism, I think it might help you to read a bit about ego death... your perception of what it is seems quite skewed. Please read this thread: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=222634

Psychedelic experiences are nothing to fear, though they are certainly to be respected. They can definitely make you feel uncomfortable, but if you can face the feelings they bring, you can learn a lot about yourself. The key is to not deny what you're experiencing, but to open yourself to it. No experience is inherently "bad". Difficult, yes. But plenty of difficult experiences end up being good for you in the long run, and sometimes an experience begins difficult, and becomes wonderful, provided you can leave yourself open to seeing it that way.

May I ask how old you are? Sometimes if you're too young, it's really not a good time to use psychedelics, since your brain and your personal identity are not fully developed yet. Personally I would wait until at least 18.

 

[Pacism]

Pacism, I think it might help you to read a bit about ego death... your perception of what it is seems quite skewed. Please read this thread: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=222634

Psychedelic experiences are nothing to fear, though they are certainly to be respected. They can definitely make you feel uncomfortable, but if you can face the feelings they bring, you can learn a lot about yourself. The key is to not deny what you're experiencing, but to open yourself to it. No experience is inherently "bad". Difficult, yes. But plenty of difficult experiences end up being good for you in the long run, and sometimes an experience begins difficult, and becomes wonderful, provided you can leave yourself open to seeing it that way.

May I ask how old you are? Sometimes if you're too young, it's really not a good time to use psychedelics, since your brain and your personal identity are not fully developed yet. Personally I would wait until at least 18.

I probably am too young to regularly take psychedelics, I'm only 16. But I don't plan on making this a regular thing. After my next trip (which will probably be one tab) I won't have any left and I don't plan on buying any more.

 

[jamaica0535]

on your next trip, if it turns outs you experience LSD in a positive light, you might change your mind.

 

[Roger&Me]

Like I'd be watching TV and I'd be overthinking every ad I see and it'd make me feel crap for some reason, like I have to find something negative with everything.

Television advertising is purposefully designed to be psychologically manipulative. When you're in a sensitive state like tripping, watching television advertising can really be psychologically harmful IMO. Television isn't good for you, its a weapon of manipulation essentially, find something better for you to do while tripping (like listen to music) and you won't feel like that again.

 

[Solipsis]

Hmm I have heard other people say that when they come down from acid everythings just so... gray...

But despite the contrast with the trip experience I never really felt bad. Yeah okay when it was really super late and other substances were used but then its no wonder is it?

 

[frogman84]

Hey all, just wanted to add some of my own advice for Pacism, and other people that might be in a similar spot.

Being 16, i really think any next trip should still be a low dose - if you do decide to go again. I know many will disagree and hope that a slightly larger dose trip could get to the place that is simply amazing and will show you the universe, however there are a few things that need to be learned if one is to try and stay in a good tripping state.

For instance, something as simple as a small understanding between friends, can be awkward when sober, but trigger some intense bad feelings when tripping. When taking a low dose, those bad feelings will become more apparent and set a mind racing with possibly higher levels of anxiety that when sober, but what is nice about the low dose however, is that when something like that happens, you still have enough of your faculties to remember that there are often times people will misunderstand one another - and you simply get over it, have a laugh and move on.

When you can begin to learn simple things like that on low doses, it sort of allows you to develop a set of tools for staying in a nice spot when you do indeed start taking higher doses. Things in your environment when sober can be alot different to things in your environment when tripping, and discovering and how to deal with them can be a bit less taxing on smaller doses.

LSD is something that can be as useful at 90 as it can at 19, so you have many many many years to explore it... You don't have to jump straight in straight away.

My thoughts anyway, and i only included this because that is how i have liked to do things. I respect a great deal people that have started their experiences on high doses, but it felt a bit better for me working up.

Also, 5-HTP is great for the day after a session. It can lessen that worn out dull feeling.