[Feniks is a loon multi-edit]
I'll have to browse this thread if I regain some cognitive concentration ability in the coming weeks, as I'm breaking from the illicits for the (22nd?) time, and can already feel the juices of despair floating through my brain ..
I've dealt with depressive periods for literally half my life, and each successive visit to any medical establishment simply sets unprecedented lows in my trust for the field. Nothing but malpractice for myself and my family ....
I have a friend who swears prozac has changed his life, but I see such drugs as equally dangerous as meth/mdma, seeing as how they're doled out via pure guessessments from a 1-hour visit without any brainscans to assess actual neurochemical deficiencies.
Thank the stars I've never dealt with anxiety (except running out of Paxil @ age 14!), I don't know how some of ya'll manage.
Using cannabis as an anti-depressant has been my #1 coping mechanism, but it kills my personality + turns me into an incoherent, paranoid shell. I'm finally deciding its just a bit too negative as a long-term treatment option.
Tho once my system clears out and my quasi-manic depression sets in, I always second-guess my cyclical epiphanies on such matters.
@ least its summer up here!! My mind definately flies South with the geese during Winter. Gonna be a rough season, though, I just keep playing the same games with my sanity, deferring the inevitable meltdown