Depressing shit

[Keepit Chill]

I am just gonna freestyle write some stuff, not sure how it will turn out but im gonna post it for feedback .


My mind is slowly consuming itself with racing thoughts
Sweet relief would come in the form of a couple shots
But im too curious to know how my life will go
Its delerious I know

Im not suicidal but i don't want to live
I'm not selfish but i don't want to give
Im not a drug addict but im always high
I tell the truth but its just a lie

Life is full of contradiction and disapointment
Dull like an addiction treatment appointment
I know I have a problem but its worth it to me
My families not blind but they can't see
Maybe they just dont understand?
Maybe all of this was planned

Probabaly not, We're alone on this planet
I wake up in the morning and I can't fucking stand it
I get out of bed with all the wrong thoughts in my head
I was supposed to go to rehab but got high instead

I have come so close to death, I feel unafraid
An old useless toy never played
I know im not invinicible but it almost seems that way
Most people want to go but i'd rather stay

All of these words, and yet nothing has changed
The thoughts in my mind slightly rearranged
So i hit submit and go back to a useless exsistence
Fucking depression, relentless persistence

 

[Mjäll]

You've really got talent with rhymes!

 

[New]

Like I've said...I remember being here. It IS a rather depressing place to be. It can get better.

 

[Keepit Chill]

Thank you Mjall, and I know Samael . It just never feels like it will get better at the time.