Depressed people using drugs to cope

[Dirtywings]

This really resonates with me. I was always shy, anxious...it was never a real big problem with friends, but to my mother it shows you are a coward. I have almost no relationship with my family. The depression came later, and now it seems I'm happy only when I'm scoring. Lots of physical problems and prescriptions..mom told me I had Borderline Personality Disorder haha...flavor of the month. What I have is PTSD, chronic pain and a mother who hates me. I know-get over it, right? I've been researching RCs for my anxiety and was doing really well until one vendor fucked me over big time. I don't know if I'm allowed to mention the name. But I'm out a lot of money, he was a pain in the ass, kept telling me he was giving me such a great deal when the shit was bunk and bought for pennies in China. Yeah anti depressants don't work for me either-I even got Serotonin Syndrome and nearly died. It's really important to me to have anti anxiety meds, and the idea of legal ones sounds great. Two dumb Youtube videos later, I'm out over $200. I'd love to warn people about this jerk but not sure if it's allowed. I know what you mean-I feel without my workouts I'm just in a cage, in bed..day after day.

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

We're not allowed to name sources here, but have you gone to a doctor to get legitimate benzos? You sound like you should. I take legitimate benzos and RC's I order online. At least with a legitimate one, there isn't a big risk of getting super addicted. I guess you can get addicted to anything, but since I've been taking RC's, my Klonopin has been disappearing just as fast. Maybe the RC's raised my tolerance to Klonopin too much, but it's still no reason to go through them so fast.

Anyway seek real help for an anti-anxiety medicine. At least you'll have a doctor to depend on. I have a great source for an RC, but who knows when that will dry up? It's just riskier when you take that chance.