Many people describe a steadily increasing level of anxiety and panic reactions to cannabis. I am curious if anyone shares an experience similar to mine where, after 9 months of almost daily use of edibles or vaporized cannabis, with no paranoia or anxiety as a result and definite positive psychological and insightful effects, something changed very suddenly. If anyone has familiarity with eternalism, the block universe theory, a sense of loss of free will, this is a starting point for what I experienced. I became completely depersonalized afterward and remain in that state still. This was on October 15 2010. So I'm not talking a short term reaction, although I did have a massive panic attack, it was in reaction to the previous experience I described. I felt I was brain damaged or had had a stroke etc. in the following months, also my time perception was strobing, hence it was difficult to read. I had the dolly zoom visual distortion classic to DP DR also. My main question, and observation, is that this was not a slow build up. It was a single discrete experience followed by a seemingly permanent perceptual shift that was also the most traumatic event of my life. There were other contributing factors in the preceding months and I am sure there is PTSD involvement. Just wanted to put this out there. It's been 2 1/2 years.
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Depersonalization especially from edibles
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Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
Most psychedelics I use can cause derealization/depersonalization, oral cannabis being one of them.
buffalosoldier
Bluelighter
Do not blame the holly weed mate, try to figure out why did you have that massive panic attack, remember it is all in your head after all
Bagseed
Bluelighter
^Cannabis is not the harmless medicine you want it to be. While I agree that there are probably other issues which triggered his condition, 9 months of edibles (which are imo more psychedelic than vaped/smoked) played definetely a role. I go through a similar thing right now, but I was lucky that the worst was over within 1,5 months (but I seeked medication and psychotherapy immediately).
OP: Since you carry this with you for this long time, I have to ask: what did you do to deal with these issues? Did you seek therapy? I'm asking because I think that fast intervention is key to get better as soon as possible. That doesn't mean that it is too late for you, I'm just curious. A friend of mine suffered from DR longtime after a horror-trip on a synthetic cannabinoid blend, and it took him over a year too to get better and even now (6 years later) he says he still feels it but now can live with it.
OP: Since you carry this with you for this long time, I have to ask: what did you do to deal with these issues? Did you seek therapy? I'm asking because I think that fast intervention is key to get better as soon as possible. That doesn't mean that it is too late for you, I'm just curious. A friend of mine suffered from DR longtime after a horror-trip on a synthetic cannabinoid blend, and it took him over a year too to get better and even now (6 years later) he says he still feels it but now can live with it.
laugh
Ex-Bluelighter
if you are looking for a problem you will probably find one. you sound like a clever dude op. instead of spending your time researching obscure and negative mental health phenomenons why not spend that time on something a little more positive and beneficial to you. think and act positive mate.
just a thought, i mean no offence and i hope you feel better soonest!
'you are what you think'
just a thought, i mean no offence and i hope you feel better soonest!
'you are what you think'
Bagseed
Bluelighter
^ I agree with you that the OP should not obsess with his problems because that only makes it worse. But nonetheless he should face his problems and try to integrate it and finally get better long-term instead of hiding the thing under a blanket. Just like integrating a bad trip.
I experienced Derealization myself and I can tell you that it is a very real thing and, unfortunately, even less understood by medical professionals than other psychological conditions. You start to question your reality, you stand next to your own mother talking to her but you are not sure if this isn't just a big joke. For me it got so bad the first few weeks that i seriously considered killing myself because the depression caused by it became unbearable. I felt like I could never enjoy life anymore, because reality wasn't real after all. I'm happy that I am already over the worst part of it, now 6 months later and I hope that it never gets this bad again. Without my family and close friends who carried me through this, I would not be alive right now to type this post.
I experienced Derealization myself and I can tell you that it is a very real thing and, unfortunately, even less understood by medical professionals than other psychological conditions. You start to question your reality, you stand next to your own mother talking to her but you are not sure if this isn't just a big joke. For me it got so bad the first few weeks that i seriously considered killing myself because the depression caused by it became unbearable. I felt like I could never enjoy life anymore, because reality wasn't real after all. I'm happy that I am already over the worst part of it, now 6 months later and I hope that it never gets this bad again. Without my family and close friends who carried me through this, I would not be alive right now to type this post.
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buffalosoldier
Bluelighter
if you are looking for a problem you will probably find one. you sound like a clever dude op. instead of spending your time researching obscure and negative mental health phenomenons why not spend that time on something a little more positive and beneficial to you. think and act positive mate.
just a thought, i mean no offence and i hope you feel better soonest!
'you are what you think'
totally agreed
Artificial Emotion
Bluelighter
I couldn't agree more too! Well said.