Depersonalization and Derealization

[if3v3rzxd]

I understand that depersonalization and derealization is a serious condition and I do not mean to trivialize it but my vyvanse fueled curiosity has gotten the better of me.

Does anyone ever find these effects desirable on occasion? I thoroughly enjoy (on very very spaced out occasions) taking ~1000mg of DXM and smoking some nice bud and not knowing, who the hell I am, where the hell I am, or what the hell is going on.

I may be completely wrong and these two don't relate at all but from what Ive read it sounds like they have similarities on atleast a very fundamental level.

Sidenote: I haven't noticed this in a while now but reading about this jogged my memory. Everyone once and a while I would randomly sort of pause very briefly and feel a wave of energy come over me and I would feel light/floaty and zoned out (This whole ordeal would only be a few seconds but always seemed much longer). I attribute it to the side effect of some drug or another I've consumed but it never seemed like a big deal. I always just thought of it as a brief and free buzz. Should I be worried if it ever returns and does that sound like derealization or depersonalization?

Ps: You can make of me for using/liking DXM but when used properly and with an open mindset it is a very strong dissociative and can have extremely profound effects. It has greatly aided me in self-realization even more so than more popular drugs like LSD.

Also, if this is in the wrong place I'll gladly move it, just let me know where!

 

[neurotic]

what the fuck, i swear i answered this exact thread over in DC, but it disappeared, anyway

well i can enjoy not knowing wtf is happening - that is one fun aspect of marijuana -, i guess that's one of the reasons people get fucked up

but i still despise DP/DR. accepting the condition and focusing on other stuff didn't make it any less ANNOYING either...

guess what i mean is... feeling acutely dumb is different from every day things feeling dull/distant/unreal. i can enjoy the former but not the latter

 

[mmmbeer]

With me depersonlization isn't not knowing whats happening....I think it's more of a sense of knowing too much thats happening and it freaks you out.

 

[sam05]

i dont find it enjoyable whatsoever, esp when you have shit to do and have to be able to function.

 

[XANAX XR]

I would consider that a form of voluntary DP... maybe not even DP.

I have been experiencing DP on and off for roughly... 5-6 years, about 4 years I ago, I experienced it for a whole entire year.

It's hell, I hate it, I hate it along with my anxiety, bpd, and depression..

 

[newportnews]

Mental illness is no joke, and it's not something to be sought for recreation. I can understand that you have an interest in the topic, but please be aware that you are treading a very narrow edge.

During periods of mania, I have experienced both depersonalization and derealization for days on end. It is not pleasant, and in all cases resulted in hospitalization for performing actions that even I cannot understand. There's nothing quite like waking up after days of "living the dream," in a containment room, soaking in your own urine while you babble in tongues to the trained gorilla watching you from the other side of the door.

Your moments of clarity (for lack of a better term,) are not all that uncommon, and are experienced often by people involved in alternative health practices, including meditation, yoga, tai chi, etc.

Be safe, have fun.

 

[TheSacredTree]

I had my first episode of derealization about two months ago after being prescribed a rather odd combination of stimulants (Ritalin with Wellbutrin, and then added a whole bunch of caffeine into the mix) and i can honestly say it was THE WORST!!! I felt closer to dying that day than i ever have before in my entire life, and that's saying a lot coming from a diabetic with horrible blood sugar control and a history of pancreatitis.