Maryann told me how proud she is of me when I came home from work this morning. It's always great to hear that, although I only hope that when my shipment of iboga comes in, bless my baby's lovely Aryan heart, I end up detoxed from this goddamned tramadol for good. Even though I'm tapering VERY slowly this time around, I find it MOST unpleasant particularly 6 hrs before my next dose is due and I hate how these w/d's make me feel. I had been down to 1/2 pill a day + supplements to cut the w/d's, but even with the supplements I felt intense lower back and bone pain. So one day I took 2 or 3 pills, the pain went away almost immediately, then got hooked right back into this damned dance. The funny thing is I don't remember my REAL Rx painkillers being this bad most of the time.
I guess there's different types of iboga, some worthless, others strong, but I won't find out until I get it. Fingers crossed that it works for me. I so want to be done with the tramadol and the fucked up dance with food and weight. So, I've chalked it up to if it's meant to work out for me it will and if the stuff turns out to be bogus, then I'll have to suffer detoxing the slow way.
. As for the food, I don't know. If this doesn't work, I'm very tempted to do something drastic, but for now all I can do is wait. As for my sweet Kupid, I hope God blesses him with freedom from this horrible methadone. I pray that it will. I still have intense emotions tied up with my drug of choice I haven't touched in over 2 years. From reports that I've read, iboga helps free people from intense, stored up emotions. I can only go by how LSD and mushrooms were, and shrooms could be very intense and take me to a deeper levels of conscienceness. I want to be rid of my demons once and for all.
I guess there's different types of iboga, some worthless, others strong, but I won't find out until I get it. Fingers crossed that it works for me. I so want to be done with the tramadol and the fucked up dance with food and weight. So, I've chalked it up to if it's meant to work out for me it will and if the stuff turns out to be bogus, then I'll have to suffer detoxing the slow way.
. As for the food, I don't know. If this doesn't work, I'm very tempted to do something drastic, but for now all I can do is wait. As for my sweet Kupid, I hope God blesses him with freedom from this horrible methadone. I pray that it will. I still have intense emotions tied up with my drug of choice I haven't touched in over 2 years. From reports that I've read, iboga helps free people from intense, stored up emotions. I can only go by how LSD and mushrooms were, and shrooms could be very intense and take me to a deeper levels of conscienceness. I want to be rid of my demons once and for all.