Hello, long time reader, decided to make an account. I lost a friend to suicide. She used heroin to do it. My one and only experience with it, was with her. She suckered me into the encounter, while we were in a group home. She showed me everything prior, how to be safe, including filter wheels, then said IM was “safe” for me. She OD’d that night. I think she wanted to pass then and there, but I woke up from my comfortable slumber for some reason as she was turning a deep purple. We both left that home, she went back to live with her parents and I tried to put my own relationship back together. She called and asked me for a donut one day out of the blue, and drew me a little portrait. I didn’t know she was saying goodbye then, but a week later, she made her mom find her body. Had I known that’s what she really wanted, I’d have held her hand and let her pass with me. Mom shouldn’t have had to do that. I carry that now. I just, life is hard and it’s good to have places to relate to others with similar crap going on.
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Welcome to bluelight! I'm so sorry to hear about your friend, she sounds like an amazing friend to you though, and she's still with ya in your heart
As they say, immortalized through spirit in heart.
If you ever need to talk about it or just would like some support, TDS would be an amazing place for support.