it's okay, i just want to be able to
function . . . ☹.
well i am not good and now i'm never going to be able to function.
and the depression. omg. i would rather die.
but every day i get up and say, today,is the day that i am going to do good. again. ☺
and then i am not. soooo. f'argetta bout it and try try try again.

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i have been getting outside alot, but maybe something is wrong with the air.
the dogs breath it too.
we could get pinged with the meteor anyday.
so i'm waiting.
it's so gloomy and doomy when i wake up
and still can't do this anymore.
i think i will try to go get some eggnog at a store where no one is shooting or. . allegedly.
well,
G od hit me with your best shot cause i'm tired of this darn world. jk
luuuuuuulz.
i mean, i even smoke medicine for depression, c'mon now, why can"t i. why why why, do i have to look at tomarrow.
i mean, i said i was going to quit optics no opioids and i did. but so i guess i will soon enough be NORMAL again 
someone popped something in the store but no fireworks or casings were found.
Jikes
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omg.
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not killed yet.