DeathDomokun
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I disagree. Facebook can be good in certain circumstances imo, that being said, I deleted my facebook probably a year ago and haven't looked back.
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cutting ALL ties, and moving to a new place
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Miss Kirsty
Bluelighter
absolutely dude...
please be aware, this is not so much about the drugs as all the other shit in my life - thats what I'm running from... some is a cause of my drug use, some a symptom of my drug use. Sure I hope that moving will have an impact on my drug use, but that is not the first thing I want to deal with..
On another note, I cant see myself leaving this weekend, I just stumbled upon a treasure trove of diazepam... god damnit.
On another note, I cant see myself leaving this weekend, I just stumbled upon a treasure trove of diazepam... god damnit.
If anyone has some final words to boost my confidence, it would be greatly appreciated...
I have to tell my family tonight ( I am staying at their house at the moment) that tomorrow I will be leaving.. Half will act in the venomous way, the other half will act in the deceitful 'how dare you do this to us' secret-venom way that makes me feel bad... and all round i am feeling very scared.
I am tossing up whether to sell the car - its only worth a few hundred dollars, which could be incredibly useful OR keeping it could mean greater chance of job security or a place to sleep if I run out of money before I get work setup.
I also have to tell my current job what is going on - one of them hates me so I dont know if I'll be fired on the spot, or allowed to take personal leave long enough to give an official 2 weeks notice.. on the one hand I could get paid out my saved up leave, on the other hand I could be left with nothing straight away.
There really is no way out of this, its making me feel terrible buy I know I have to do it.... its for the best. the bad feelings are programmed.
I have to tell my family tonight ( I am staying at their house at the moment) that tomorrow I will be leaving.. Half will act in the venomous way, the other half will act in the deceitful 'how dare you do this to us' secret-venom way that makes me feel bad... and all round i am feeling very scared.
I am tossing up whether to sell the car - its only worth a few hundred dollars, which could be incredibly useful OR keeping it could mean greater chance of job security or a place to sleep if I run out of money before I get work setup.
I also have to tell my current job what is going on - one of them hates me so I dont know if I'll be fired on the spot, or allowed to take personal leave long enough to give an official 2 weeks notice.. on the one hand I could get paid out my saved up leave, on the other hand I could be left with nothing straight away.
There really is no way out of this, its making me feel terrible buy I know I have to do it.... its for the best. the bad feelings are programmed.
Mugz
Bluelighter
have considered this myself many times, especially after watching Into The Wild. I will get away someday but as others have said, I need to fix myself a here first or any troubles will just follow me around too.
herbavore
Bluelight Crew
Mugz, I watched that movie 4 times. Saw it myself, then dragged one son to see it but his brother couldn't go. The next day, I convinced the other son to go and finally I took a friend. When he cuts up his ID and gets rid of all his money and his car I get chills thinking of the freedom in that.
My newest plan is to plant myself in a South American city where I know no one and to just think my thoughts and practice Spanish.