Guys, took an uncomfortable dose of crystal, it would really make me feel better to write a report about my general meth experiences to distract me from the overstimulation. Hope it makes sense. Be warned, its long and awesome. Oh and unlike every other meth user, I know how to use paragraphs. Granted i had to rem to put them in after.
I have been taking quite a bit of good crystal meth recently, prob once a week over weekends for 2-3 day binge for about 3 months.
Used to do methcath instead knowing i could get meth cause of the shorter duration and cause meth scares me, but the fact that its almost the same price made me change over, prob not the best idea though. Its pretty good quality, ive gone 6 days with 1g never feeling like i need more during that time.
These days im doing that same g in 2 days. I found that if you take larger doses = more fun! Currently doing fat lines like i would do with really shitty coke. Am I wasting? Danger? Just a note, meth is odd with dosage, i can take tiny line and it will equal a fat line another time, or more often, big or small they seem to have the exact same effect, like you need exponentially greater dose to notice any different. Oral though, careful.
I would like to post some observations, questions, perhaps somebody come comment and advise what i might be doing wrong, the rest is hopefully entertaining experiences you may relate with.
1. A big annoyance, multiple times now including right now i have taken an oral dose double the size of a nasal dose and each time it kicks my ass where the nasal dose wont. My experience doesnt match with the 50-60% bioavailability info. It feels as if the double oral dose is at least as or more powerful then a half nasal dose.
2. Something that keeps catching me is the fact that the symptoms of taking a bit to much feel very similar to the beginnings of the comedown and ensuing panic attacks (for me at least). So i take to much oral dose start to feel comedown symptoms and think i need more, then get even more blasted.
3. Im guessing I should be fine, took prob 1/4 of the g in this oral dose. I am more fucked then i have ever been, confusion, very bright vision, confusing sounds, voices etc. Inability to keep any part of the body still, im forced to move or flex all muscles constantly, chest tightness, fast heartbeat, extreme hypervigilance/expectations of something to happen (im at family right now unfortunately) but not heavy anxiety. Worst my pupils are my complete iris, ive never seen them this bad before. Hope i can hide this shit. And i feel tired type confused which i should not after only 1 night, maybe this is coming down, ffs im never sure if i need more or took 2 much?
Can I ask what would be the symptom to watch out for that would indicate danger? It is my understanding that psychosis happens before any physical toxic OD. Fortunately im not there but definitely enough audio crap to not trust anything i hear.
4. Meth doesn't make me social, it makes me want to hide in my room and mess around on the net etc. I found this surprising. I saw somebody who smoked mention this happens and that smoking is not very social, so perhaps i am taking to much to equal strong smoking doses. In any cause, I am not using it socially and dont wish to.
5. It does not make me want to do any work or anything constructive contrary to what is said about it. Usually im obsessed with my work but cant even think about it on meth.
6. Energy on meth, digging holes and shit. Hell no. I thought moving house would work on meth. After almost passing out multiple times and numerous heart attacks i survived. Even walking about when decently high caused breathlessness. I am unfit though so, could be me but it makes me worse.
7. Not confident around people like with coke/cat. Im always concerned about saying something wrong and specifically with me about misinterpreting something said or something that happens and saying the wrong thing,eg, family member makes sound, i think its directed at me when in fact its not or there was no sound to begin with. The bad audio hallucinations are always there with me, from day 1 hour 1, enough for me to basically ignore any sounds because i cannot trust them unless i can see a person talking directly at me, is this perhaps a sign that i take to much? Earlier i was standing by my refrigerator and for 5 minutes it was literally moaning like a sick or dying cat, and it doesn't usually make any sounds that could of been warped. Due to previous experiences, by this point I have learnt NOT to ask nearby family member why said fridge is crying like a wounded animal. I could tell they couldnt hear shit.
What I do enjoy though, when you combine the audio stuff with the meth amped mind are the hectic assumptions or understandings of whats going on around you / concerns about family members or stuff you think is happening in your household, for example, that have in fact not happened at all.
For example in 1 afternoon. I saw my mom walking in the corner of the garden talking on the phone, which is weird (dont know if this happened or not) mind then decides that she needs privacy so the person on the phone with mom is giving bad news, somebody has died, wonder who died, later back in house mishear step dad asking where mom is, he didnt really, mind decides they must be having a fight, tell him mom is in garden, he is surprised since he didnt ask where she was (damn it forgot not to engage!), check garden again, mom not there, not in house, mind decides has been abducted by robbers (one of my ptsd issues) (with meth though you may believe it but you dont care, not a very compassionate drug to be honest), now see her in house, swear she wasnt there before, apparently she is sick in bedroom lying down (was she even outside at all, was she in the room i checked earlier all this time), mind decides she is making excuses to avoid step dad since they are fighting or she doesnt want to talk about the family member who died. I find its easy to go with one of these delusions, incorporate it into your day and then get really confused or confuse others later. I make sure to kill them dead as they spawn. You have to pretty much either get yourself to not care about what you truly think may be happening and choose to not believe it and forget it. Basically everything around me that "happens" and is sensed by my "ears" in some way leading to consideration, (vision is ok), is simply ignored and considered not to matter, i shall simply reconcile reality at a later date.
Fortunately you know not to trust anything and I have since learnt not to say a fucking word, basically stick to grunts to communicate lest you give away that you have gone mad. BTW is this the start of psychosis or just the usual meth mind? This doesnt feel near real psychosis at all as it can all be easily identified when it might be false, shit, but most of the time om not SURE if it is, meaning it could in fact be MILD psychosis? Awesome.
Went 6 days to see shadow people another time as i enjoyed the stories on here, never happened, its my understanding its a combo of lack of sleep and high doses, i was simply maintaining at that point.
8. Try to remember to eat, reasons are clear and obvious in mind, MR Meth says fuk it, who needs food, why does it matter, nothing matters, doesnt help that you want to loose weight and Mr Meth can justify himself! Ahh the core of meth, nothing matters for the duration, not a care in the world, no worries, no responsibilities!. This food thing results in one of my biggest hates for a trip, when you start salivating and swallowing hectically due to hunger. 1, eventually filling your empty stomach with so much saliva your gonna vomit at some point, 2, blisters on tongue due to swallowing action.
9. No motivation to change anything about a current situation. EG. Starting at wall in room, movie ended an hour back, wall seemed interesting. Must fight mind to get up and do something else. Sit outside to have smoke, smoke finished, starting at tree, must fight mind to return to room, forgot drink in kitchen, fuck, kick in 8 minute process of convincing mind to stand up again. Makes the trip very tiresome when required to do multiple things. Is this trancelike behavior normal? Clean House, perform complicated tasks? I do not understand how this can be a thing that happens on meth. Though im a lazy bastard, i have others clean for me ;-)
10. Smell of food/cooking food. Taste of food. OMG smells of cooking, not pleasent, all smells seem to be magnified a shit ton, but not only that, they also now include some other strong sickening sweet smell of death and decay, run, avoid! I would literally be standing in my home and have no capability of determining what may be cooking in the kitchen, nor do i wish to. If i had to guess what was cooking by the smell id have to say it was the stewed souls of small children with an extra dash of torment for added sorrow.
Nasty but relevant. After decent dosages I cant take a shit that smells like a tasty dinner. This freaked me the fuk out though.
Eating is ok, stuff tastes mostly normal. Be careful of the dry mouth,throat and getting shit stuck resulting in coughing it into your nose. Big issue i had with mdma, eating impossible, not simply unwanted.
11. PLEASE tell me why i cannot take a shit at all, i shit when arranging product before collecting, in anticipation (I understand this is anxiety correct), but cannot shit while high, even if in pain, 4 days of this, the next sober day my gut will punish my ass.
12. Bad obvious sweat, piss odor always makes me fear discovery, why the smell, its everywhere.
13. Avoid quiet areas, eg, garden at night, the silence always seems sinister, like there are natural sounds missing that where always there before, missing sounds indicative of some intelligent evil force working within the area slowly and diligently corrupting nature itself, just out of sight. Additionally you really dont want to leave your mind un-busy. Peacefulness = bad, noise, distractions = good, lest you realise how badly your brain is misfiring.
14.Curse (and Bless) You Guy on this forum who mentioned masturbating on stims. Cat was ok, managable, few hours, 1 night , fine, meth, days, are you kidding me? You can damage yourself.
BTW those with stim dick complaints, shit works a bit differently on stims, whereas normally you flex that muscle to move things along (you know which one), on stims complete relaxation is required. Its like reversed for some reason. You then have 2 options for fun, you can either extend the physical sensation pretty much indefinitely, the sensation just before orgasm, you do this by make sure you dont clench or flex that muscle boys! This can get more difficult after a few days as your tormented mind begins shutting down and making up weird symbols and associations for some of the tricks you need to remember. I remember one day deep in trance in the area near climax, my brain decided to name and associate one of the techniques i was using at the time to "Facebook", oh yeah, to the point where the Facebook logo would logically and completely naturally flash through my mind as a reminder to implement the technique at the time. This all seems perfectly normal at the time, other weird associations start to happen, lol. I think im going to select and associate a symbol to them before anymore weirdness happens. Oh, spent the day at your moms yesterday, ah well ok, time to implement your mother now, you know how good it makes you feel! Anyways at that point, put the dick away.
2 days later when you are tired of that or you are starting to bleed, you can multiorgasm as much as you want as per above except you will eventually clench right at the end to end it. Warning an orgasm on meth is pretty intense and sometimes slightly unpleasant even, think almost passing out, pain, gallons of sweat and exhaustion after, i can prob do 3 before i begin to worry that the physical tol on the body cant be good. Literally have to change clothes and bedding, sweat! I always stress about meth blood pressure combined with orgasm = death, so far though ive always woken up after passing out. Yes, they can get so damn good you pass the fuk out for a bit, though thats with prob 2 days of foreplay. Worth it!
A related annoyance. Im temp at my parents place meaning i need to monitor the door for knocks or unexpected openings, lest extreme embarrassment ensue. Man, this shit can get intense while already doing something rather intense.
Eventually im so focused on the fucking door CONVINCED its about to open and nothing else is happening, i realise i have been staring at the door for 1.5 hours doing nothing else just waiting for it to open and confirm certainty of the inevitable. This intense focus was scary, felt like a few minutes, this is when i realised i had dosed a bit to much. Ahh and of course what else does my brain do to piss me off. Constant fuking knocking coming from the door not real of course but still causes stress and the requirement to reposition oneself. BUT, i did figure out that for some reason the fake knocks where always 1 knock! While real knocks are always more. Me 1 : Brain 0. And no, i didnt get into intense contemplation as to why the fake knocks where always only 1 as if some force or being had actually decided that while controlling my mind and slowly chipping away at my sanity, the decision has been made to standardise on 1 knock for all so named "fake knocks", lest corporate starts to whine about processes and procedures again. Pfft
15. Question. Why do my ears always seem to be slightly blocked on meth?
16. Another annoyance, i used to enjoy drinking on coke, to take the edge off, would in fact not enjoy coke clean at all due to the anxiety type side effects. (Thank god for this though as now my addiction/cravings are only when drunk, surely saved my ass.
I find meth far more pleasant clean, but this could be due to shit cut in shit coke i was having. Anyways id still like to drink or smoke, but omg the intense focus on meth literally results in an untouched beer and full box of smokes to be sitting there like 12 hours later I have tried everything but still that beer, at most gets 1/4 drunk up to even a night/day later. You also really don't feel like alcohol at all either, where as a cold soft drink is heaven especially after point 14 above.
17. This is the first time i have felt any NEED to write on meth, having taken an uncomfortable amount. Usually it feels like something constructive so my meth brain says hell no! This time it was the only option for distraction! As mentioned right now, its either starting at the door or operating hand, cant do both, to intense.
18. Comedown. My first time a few months back, we where drunk and hit crystal like it was shitty coke, not good. Trip was fun, forgot it was meth, when to lie down at friends house 1 hour after the last line (what a waste) expecting to come off Coke, just lay there awake, which i hate, daylight arrives, i go home, thinking im past the comedown! Sweet Jesus, nothing I have read prepared me for this, i mean coke, you get mif, antisocial, cant sleep, fuking piss. You dont literally feel like you are going to die. Honestly, i have anxiety issues from past mdma misuse so I know what a bad panic attack feels like, otherwise i would think i had OD'ED or broken myself. Unable to breath (this shit was the worst, feeling like its my last breath and then somehow god grants you only 1 more, suffocating, racing heart, pulputations, pins and needles in extremities, not the fun ones, hectic sweating, is it hot or cold, im sweating and shivering wtf, and of course, the "Are you certain its a panic attack, what if you are really poisoned or something. That nagging doubt building more panic.
Interestingly my mate at his own home was experiencing psychosis related to people outside his house / windows wispering, talking and trying to break in. Ofcourse his poor GF and brother who doesnt know where freaking out at his hours of screaming and talking to windows and doors.
This is actually a big part of my ptsd due to an incident that occurred while in a weakened state due to mdma abuse. So im glad i didnt get this comedown, would have been to much.
I usually use seroquel, but had run out on that day, waited for friend to get home, admitted transgressions, pleaded for mercy, get lift to hospital and get serouqel.
Advice. Take seroquel before a comedown if possible, it will not mask the bad shit, it will make you pass out, but remember, feeling like you are falling unconscious while at the same time feeling like you are dying is not a good combination. You freak out and fight the sleep.
Take before comedown but still remember, the serouqel will shut down the meth which means at some point suddenly you revert back to a malnourished, weak person who hasnt slept in 3 days, no super juice to hide those facts.
Additionally seruoquel can drastically drop blood pressure, trying to get some food after it hits, you will likely collapse, i have many times, be in bed when it hits, no, you wont be able to function for the next 8 hours. This doesnt mean comedown though, for some reason the seruqoeul will cancel the meth without inducing a comedown, not sure how, its like they developed it specifically for stim users, stop drug, sleep, fukin magic. Anyways, you will fall unconscious, is what it feels like, not pleasant, there is a desire to fight it, but dont, go with it and hours later you will awake, good as new.
I honestly dont recommend you get any seroquel, i believe there needs to be a down side to using this stuff, keep you under some control.
Though I will say i consider it far better then benzos, id rather simply cancel a drug i no longer want and sleep naturally (antihistamine only make your drowsy) after then disguise a hard comedown thats probably torture on the body with more drugs and then attempt to sleep over that, naa, that's SO last year.
19. What else, hmm, I have found that meth, orally and nasally will provide a noticeable mood lift making it worth it, for day 1, day 2 and some day 3, after that its just avoiding the inevitable and a waste, stop and save it (easy to say with serouqel though)
20. What other things are fun on meth, or does this depend on the person?
21. My last 3 day binge a week back changed the taste of my cigarettes drastically for at least 4 sober days after. This was really wierd. The smell was not identifiable and carred over to new purchased boxes.
22. One more story, my last binge im at my parents place, high, been awake 2 nights already, in in the kitchen area and my mother tells me her police officer detective friend who just arrived to visit, (i dont know this guy) found an empty methcat packet in the driveway, is it mine. Fark! Firstly, omg is it my meth, no thats still there, ahh, it was packets that i tore up and discarded the day before, blasted bin robbers must have taken it out of deep in the bin and dropped in the driveway, no more donations for those assholes. Fuck now so this copper is here, has just found drug packaging and wants to meet me, eyes big as fuck, unclean, messy and sweating. I fukin vanished, took a "shit" for as long as it took for him to leave, stressful. Fortunately as mentioned previously, staring at the wall for however long it took, wasn't going to be a problem.
Ok this time i made sure not to do another read through (so sorry for any likely mistakes) cause the last one resulted in probably doubling the post and another hour or 2. Additionally like the household delusions mentioned earlier i really hope this post isn't randomly hit keys typed while shitting and drooling all over myself thinking im writing a masterpiece. Man thats gonna worry me now as im quite fooked. I am currently analyzing my speech to family to determine if it makes sense and was the word i intended, which is rather pointless since i cant trust my hearing. Im screwed.
Ok, im feeling a bit better, physical symptoms have alleviated somewhat, beer prob helped, though confusion has increase. Guess what i have to do now,fuking cook food for family, oh yes, currently the olfactory equivalent carefully roasting and preparing my own crap, while others watch apparently ignorant of whats cooking.
Peace.
I have been taking quite a bit of good crystal meth recently, prob once a week over weekends for 2-3 day binge for about 3 months.
Used to do methcath instead knowing i could get meth cause of the shorter duration and cause meth scares me, but the fact that its almost the same price made me change over, prob not the best idea though. Its pretty good quality, ive gone 6 days with 1g never feeling like i need more during that time.
These days im doing that same g in 2 days. I found that if you take larger doses = more fun! Currently doing fat lines like i would do with really shitty coke. Am I wasting? Danger? Just a note, meth is odd with dosage, i can take tiny line and it will equal a fat line another time, or more often, big or small they seem to have the exact same effect, like you need exponentially greater dose to notice any different. Oral though, careful.
I would like to post some observations, questions, perhaps somebody come comment and advise what i might be doing wrong, the rest is hopefully entertaining experiences you may relate with.
1. A big annoyance, multiple times now including right now i have taken an oral dose double the size of a nasal dose and each time it kicks my ass where the nasal dose wont. My experience doesnt match with the 50-60% bioavailability info. It feels as if the double oral dose is at least as or more powerful then a half nasal dose.
2. Something that keeps catching me is the fact that the symptoms of taking a bit to much feel very similar to the beginnings of the comedown and ensuing panic attacks (for me at least). So i take to much oral dose start to feel comedown symptoms and think i need more, then get even more blasted.
3. Im guessing I should be fine, took prob 1/4 of the g in this oral dose. I am more fucked then i have ever been, confusion, very bright vision, confusing sounds, voices etc. Inability to keep any part of the body still, im forced to move or flex all muscles constantly, chest tightness, fast heartbeat, extreme hypervigilance/expectations of something to happen (im at family right now unfortunately) but not heavy anxiety. Worst my pupils are my complete iris, ive never seen them this bad before. Hope i can hide this shit. And i feel tired type confused which i should not after only 1 night, maybe this is coming down, ffs im never sure if i need more or took 2 much?
Can I ask what would be the symptom to watch out for that would indicate danger? It is my understanding that psychosis happens before any physical toxic OD. Fortunately im not there but definitely enough audio crap to not trust anything i hear.
4. Meth doesn't make me social, it makes me want to hide in my room and mess around on the net etc. I found this surprising. I saw somebody who smoked mention this happens and that smoking is not very social, so perhaps i am taking to much to equal strong smoking doses. In any cause, I am not using it socially and dont wish to.
5. It does not make me want to do any work or anything constructive contrary to what is said about it. Usually im obsessed with my work but cant even think about it on meth.
6. Energy on meth, digging holes and shit. Hell no. I thought moving house would work on meth. After almost passing out multiple times and numerous heart attacks i survived. Even walking about when decently high caused breathlessness. I am unfit though so, could be me but it makes me worse.
7. Not confident around people like with coke/cat. Im always concerned about saying something wrong and specifically with me about misinterpreting something said or something that happens and saying the wrong thing,eg, family member makes sound, i think its directed at me when in fact its not or there was no sound to begin with. The bad audio hallucinations are always there with me, from day 1 hour 1, enough for me to basically ignore any sounds because i cannot trust them unless i can see a person talking directly at me, is this perhaps a sign that i take to much? Earlier i was standing by my refrigerator and for 5 minutes it was literally moaning like a sick or dying cat, and it doesn't usually make any sounds that could of been warped. Due to previous experiences, by this point I have learnt NOT to ask nearby family member why said fridge is crying like a wounded animal. I could tell they couldnt hear shit.
What I do enjoy though, when you combine the audio stuff with the meth amped mind are the hectic assumptions or understandings of whats going on around you / concerns about family members or stuff you think is happening in your household, for example, that have in fact not happened at all.
For example in 1 afternoon. I saw my mom walking in the corner of the garden talking on the phone, which is weird (dont know if this happened or not) mind then decides that she needs privacy so the person on the phone with mom is giving bad news, somebody has died, wonder who died, later back in house mishear step dad asking where mom is, he didnt really, mind decides they must be having a fight, tell him mom is in garden, he is surprised since he didnt ask where she was (damn it forgot not to engage!), check garden again, mom not there, not in house, mind decides has been abducted by robbers (one of my ptsd issues) (with meth though you may believe it but you dont care, not a very compassionate drug to be honest), now see her in house, swear she wasnt there before, apparently she is sick in bedroom lying down (was she even outside at all, was she in the room i checked earlier all this time), mind decides she is making excuses to avoid step dad since they are fighting or she doesnt want to talk about the family member who died. I find its easy to go with one of these delusions, incorporate it into your day and then get really confused or confuse others later. I make sure to kill them dead as they spawn. You have to pretty much either get yourself to not care about what you truly think may be happening and choose to not believe it and forget it. Basically everything around me that "happens" and is sensed by my "ears" in some way leading to consideration, (vision is ok), is simply ignored and considered not to matter, i shall simply reconcile reality at a later date.
Fortunately you know not to trust anything and I have since learnt not to say a fucking word, basically stick to grunts to communicate lest you give away that you have gone mad. BTW is this the start of psychosis or just the usual meth mind? This doesnt feel near real psychosis at all as it can all be easily identified when it might be false, shit, but most of the time om not SURE if it is, meaning it could in fact be MILD psychosis? Awesome.
Went 6 days to see shadow people another time as i enjoyed the stories on here, never happened, its my understanding its a combo of lack of sleep and high doses, i was simply maintaining at that point.
8. Try to remember to eat, reasons are clear and obvious in mind, MR Meth says fuk it, who needs food, why does it matter, nothing matters, doesnt help that you want to loose weight and Mr Meth can justify himself! Ahh the core of meth, nothing matters for the duration, not a care in the world, no worries, no responsibilities!. This food thing results in one of my biggest hates for a trip, when you start salivating and swallowing hectically due to hunger. 1, eventually filling your empty stomach with so much saliva your gonna vomit at some point, 2, blisters on tongue due to swallowing action.
9. No motivation to change anything about a current situation. EG. Starting at wall in room, movie ended an hour back, wall seemed interesting. Must fight mind to get up and do something else. Sit outside to have smoke, smoke finished, starting at tree, must fight mind to return to room, forgot drink in kitchen, fuck, kick in 8 minute process of convincing mind to stand up again. Makes the trip very tiresome when required to do multiple things. Is this trancelike behavior normal? Clean House, perform complicated tasks? I do not understand how this can be a thing that happens on meth. Though im a lazy bastard, i have others clean for me ;-)
10. Smell of food/cooking food. Taste of food. OMG smells of cooking, not pleasent, all smells seem to be magnified a shit ton, but not only that, they also now include some other strong sickening sweet smell of death and decay, run, avoid! I would literally be standing in my home and have no capability of determining what may be cooking in the kitchen, nor do i wish to. If i had to guess what was cooking by the smell id have to say it was the stewed souls of small children with an extra dash of torment for added sorrow.
Nasty but relevant. After decent dosages I cant take a shit that smells like a tasty dinner. This freaked me the fuk out though.
Eating is ok, stuff tastes mostly normal. Be careful of the dry mouth,throat and getting shit stuck resulting in coughing it into your nose. Big issue i had with mdma, eating impossible, not simply unwanted.
11. PLEASE tell me why i cannot take a shit at all, i shit when arranging product before collecting, in anticipation (I understand this is anxiety correct), but cannot shit while high, even if in pain, 4 days of this, the next sober day my gut will punish my ass.
12. Bad obvious sweat, piss odor always makes me fear discovery, why the smell, its everywhere.
13. Avoid quiet areas, eg, garden at night, the silence always seems sinister, like there are natural sounds missing that where always there before, missing sounds indicative of some intelligent evil force working within the area slowly and diligently corrupting nature itself, just out of sight. Additionally you really dont want to leave your mind un-busy. Peacefulness = bad, noise, distractions = good, lest you realise how badly your brain is misfiring.
14.Curse (and Bless) You Guy on this forum who mentioned masturbating on stims. Cat was ok, managable, few hours, 1 night , fine, meth, days, are you kidding me? You can damage yourself.
BTW those with stim dick complaints, shit works a bit differently on stims, whereas normally you flex that muscle to move things along (you know which one), on stims complete relaxation is required. Its like reversed for some reason. You then have 2 options for fun, you can either extend the physical sensation pretty much indefinitely, the sensation just before orgasm, you do this by make sure you dont clench or flex that muscle boys! This can get more difficult after a few days as your tormented mind begins shutting down and making up weird symbols and associations for some of the tricks you need to remember. I remember one day deep in trance in the area near climax, my brain decided to name and associate one of the techniques i was using at the time to "Facebook", oh yeah, to the point where the Facebook logo would logically and completely naturally flash through my mind as a reminder to implement the technique at the time. This all seems perfectly normal at the time, other weird associations start to happen, lol. I think im going to select and associate a symbol to them before anymore weirdness happens. Oh, spent the day at your moms yesterday, ah well ok, time to implement your mother now, you know how good it makes you feel! Anyways at that point, put the dick away.
2 days later when you are tired of that or you are starting to bleed, you can multiorgasm as much as you want as per above except you will eventually clench right at the end to end it. Warning an orgasm on meth is pretty intense and sometimes slightly unpleasant even, think almost passing out, pain, gallons of sweat and exhaustion after, i can prob do 3 before i begin to worry that the physical tol on the body cant be good. Literally have to change clothes and bedding, sweat! I always stress about meth blood pressure combined with orgasm = death, so far though ive always woken up after passing out. Yes, they can get so damn good you pass the fuk out for a bit, though thats with prob 2 days of foreplay. Worth it!
A related annoyance. Im temp at my parents place meaning i need to monitor the door for knocks or unexpected openings, lest extreme embarrassment ensue. Man, this shit can get intense while already doing something rather intense.
Eventually im so focused on the fucking door CONVINCED its about to open and nothing else is happening, i realise i have been staring at the door for 1.5 hours doing nothing else just waiting for it to open and confirm certainty of the inevitable. This intense focus was scary, felt like a few minutes, this is when i realised i had dosed a bit to much. Ahh and of course what else does my brain do to piss me off. Constant fuking knocking coming from the door not real of course but still causes stress and the requirement to reposition oneself. BUT, i did figure out that for some reason the fake knocks where always 1 knock! While real knocks are always more. Me 1 : Brain 0. And no, i didnt get into intense contemplation as to why the fake knocks where always only 1 as if some force or being had actually decided that while controlling my mind and slowly chipping away at my sanity, the decision has been made to standardise on 1 knock for all so named "fake knocks", lest corporate starts to whine about processes and procedures again. Pfft
15. Question. Why do my ears always seem to be slightly blocked on meth?
16. Another annoyance, i used to enjoy drinking on coke, to take the edge off, would in fact not enjoy coke clean at all due to the anxiety type side effects. (Thank god for this though as now my addiction/cravings are only when drunk, surely saved my ass.
I find meth far more pleasant clean, but this could be due to shit cut in shit coke i was having. Anyways id still like to drink or smoke, but omg the intense focus on meth literally results in an untouched beer and full box of smokes to be sitting there like 12 hours later I have tried everything but still that beer, at most gets 1/4 drunk up to even a night/day later. You also really don't feel like alcohol at all either, where as a cold soft drink is heaven especially after point 14 above.
17. This is the first time i have felt any NEED to write on meth, having taken an uncomfortable amount. Usually it feels like something constructive so my meth brain says hell no! This time it was the only option for distraction! As mentioned right now, its either starting at the door or operating hand, cant do both, to intense.
18. Comedown. My first time a few months back, we where drunk and hit crystal like it was shitty coke, not good. Trip was fun, forgot it was meth, when to lie down at friends house 1 hour after the last line (what a waste) expecting to come off Coke, just lay there awake, which i hate, daylight arrives, i go home, thinking im past the comedown! Sweet Jesus, nothing I have read prepared me for this, i mean coke, you get mif, antisocial, cant sleep, fuking piss. You dont literally feel like you are going to die. Honestly, i have anxiety issues from past mdma misuse so I know what a bad panic attack feels like, otherwise i would think i had OD'ED or broken myself. Unable to breath (this shit was the worst, feeling like its my last breath and then somehow god grants you only 1 more, suffocating, racing heart, pulputations, pins and needles in extremities, not the fun ones, hectic sweating, is it hot or cold, im sweating and shivering wtf, and of course, the "Are you certain its a panic attack, what if you are really poisoned or something. That nagging doubt building more panic.
Interestingly my mate at his own home was experiencing psychosis related to people outside his house / windows wispering, talking and trying to break in. Ofcourse his poor GF and brother who doesnt know where freaking out at his hours of screaming and talking to windows and doors.
This is actually a big part of my ptsd due to an incident that occurred while in a weakened state due to mdma abuse. So im glad i didnt get this comedown, would have been to much.
I usually use seroquel, but had run out on that day, waited for friend to get home, admitted transgressions, pleaded for mercy, get lift to hospital and get serouqel.
Advice. Take seroquel before a comedown if possible, it will not mask the bad shit, it will make you pass out, but remember, feeling like you are falling unconscious while at the same time feeling like you are dying is not a good combination. You freak out and fight the sleep.
Take before comedown but still remember, the serouqel will shut down the meth which means at some point suddenly you revert back to a malnourished, weak person who hasnt slept in 3 days, no super juice to hide those facts.
Additionally seruoquel can drastically drop blood pressure, trying to get some food after it hits, you will likely collapse, i have many times, be in bed when it hits, no, you wont be able to function for the next 8 hours. This doesnt mean comedown though, for some reason the seruqoeul will cancel the meth without inducing a comedown, not sure how, its like they developed it specifically for stim users, stop drug, sleep, fukin magic. Anyways, you will fall unconscious, is what it feels like, not pleasant, there is a desire to fight it, but dont, go with it and hours later you will awake, good as new.
I honestly dont recommend you get any seroquel, i believe there needs to be a down side to using this stuff, keep you under some control.
Though I will say i consider it far better then benzos, id rather simply cancel a drug i no longer want and sleep naturally (antihistamine only make your drowsy) after then disguise a hard comedown thats probably torture on the body with more drugs and then attempt to sleep over that, naa, that's SO last year.
19. What else, hmm, I have found that meth, orally and nasally will provide a noticeable mood lift making it worth it, for day 1, day 2 and some day 3, after that its just avoiding the inevitable and a waste, stop and save it (easy to say with serouqel though)
20. What other things are fun on meth, or does this depend on the person?
21. My last 3 day binge a week back changed the taste of my cigarettes drastically for at least 4 sober days after. This was really wierd. The smell was not identifiable and carred over to new purchased boxes.
22. One more story, my last binge im at my parents place, high, been awake 2 nights already, in in the kitchen area and my mother tells me her police officer detective friend who just arrived to visit, (i dont know this guy) found an empty methcat packet in the driveway, is it mine. Fark! Firstly, omg is it my meth, no thats still there, ahh, it was packets that i tore up and discarded the day before, blasted bin robbers must have taken it out of deep in the bin and dropped in the driveway, no more donations for those assholes. Fuck now so this copper is here, has just found drug packaging and wants to meet me, eyes big as fuck, unclean, messy and sweating. I fukin vanished, took a "shit" for as long as it took for him to leave, stressful. Fortunately as mentioned previously, staring at the wall for however long it took, wasn't going to be a problem.
Ok this time i made sure not to do another read through (so sorry for any likely mistakes) cause the last one resulted in probably doubling the post and another hour or 2. Additionally like the household delusions mentioned earlier i really hope this post isn't randomly hit keys typed while shitting and drooling all over myself thinking im writing a masterpiece. Man thats gonna worry me now as im quite fooked. I am currently analyzing my speech to family to determine if it makes sense and was the word i intended, which is rather pointless since i cant trust my hearing. Im screwed.
Ok, im feeling a bit better, physical symptoms have alleviated somewhat, beer prob helped, though confusion has increase. Guess what i have to do now,fuking cook food for family, oh yes, currently the olfactory equivalent carefully roasting and preparing my own crap, while others watch apparently ignorant of whats cooking.
Peace.
