ILikeSub
Bluelighter
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- Sep 5, 2010
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I've been contemplating suicide and been having powerful urges of self harming. I used to be a cutter and I haven't been cutting for six or seven years except for three or four relapses.2 or 3 of them in the last 6 months.one not all that long ago. My last relapse,about a month and a half ago. I recently quit heroin 2 and a half months ago. I've had 4 relapses. One of which was my first ever overdose. I've been using heroin on and off for ten years. When not on h I'm taking sub as a better alternative cost wise and it gives me an effect that is not too powerful making me useless like h does plus your lifestyle changes in general after switching but at the same time I often get pretty decently off of my sub when I am done with my day and just chilling... I digress.I am 26. I overdosed in my room mates bathroom. I had dropped some liquid methadone and slammed some fire h an hour after taking the done and hadn't done any sub for two days and I only take a quarter a day iv since quitting h. I have never overdosed before on opiTeate and that's because I never slam all of the shot I loaded right away.two thirds and then wait seven seconds or so and if I know I can handle rest I slam it.im sorry I'm rambling. I am so damn fucked up inside...maybe if I had died when I fell out in my best friend aka room mates bathroom,it would have been for the best...the reasons for these feelings I'll say if anyone replies but I don't think anyone will because I sound pathetic.. I just..I am hurting bad if anyone is out there
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