Nicocastillo7
Bluelighter
Hello everyone, I have posted here before, now with a different question.
I have stopped taking opiates many times and have relapsed after a while, the last time I took an opiate it was 2 weeks ago, my last dose of methadone (I had relapsed on oxy, morphine and tramadol after 2 weeks clean, long history) and my Doctor gave me methadone for a little over a month, after that he decided to add Venlafaxine, carisoprodol (today was my last dose, this was only temporary) I think I will be fine, I not feel the withdrawal that I felt the first week that I left methadone I just have cravings, I want to take morphine or codeine (tramadol would be a bad idea) but I don't want to go back.
Now i have a new problem, after 2 weeks since I started taking venlafaxine, i don't know if it is really working, lately I feel emotionally "neutral", but with many suicidal thoughts, I've thought of thousands of ways to kill myself, I've been smoking weed to distract me, even so, I feel that at some point I will end my life, because everything is becoming increasingly difficult to bear, I have a son (I am 21 years old) and I worried that these thoughts will come true, I was thinking of speaking with my doctor about this, because I literally see only 2 options, either commit suicide or relapse so as not to commit suicide, I am scared, very scared ..
Has anyone had a similar experience? Do you think I shouldn't keep taking that?
sorry for my bad english
I have stopped taking opiates many times and have relapsed after a while, the last time I took an opiate it was 2 weeks ago, my last dose of methadone (I had relapsed on oxy, morphine and tramadol after 2 weeks clean, long history) and my Doctor gave me methadone for a little over a month, after that he decided to add Venlafaxine, carisoprodol (today was my last dose, this was only temporary) I think I will be fine, I not feel the withdrawal that I felt the first week that I left methadone I just have cravings, I want to take morphine or codeine (tramadol would be a bad idea) but I don't want to go back.
Now i have a new problem, after 2 weeks since I started taking venlafaxine, i don't know if it is really working, lately I feel emotionally "neutral", but with many suicidal thoughts, I've thought of thousands of ways to kill myself, I've been smoking weed to distract me, even so, I feel that at some point I will end my life, because everything is becoming increasingly difficult to bear, I have a son (I am 21 years old) and I worried that these thoughts will come true, I was thinking of speaking with my doctor about this, because I literally see only 2 options, either commit suicide or relapse so as not to commit suicide, I am scared, very scared ..
Has anyone had a similar experience? Do you think I shouldn't keep taking that?
sorry for my bad english
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