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Confessions-who are you really?

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PoetessAurora

PoetessAurora

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I have never taken the time to think about who I am, what I want or where I'm going before. I finally decided to write down everything I am. Here goes:

I am...

a ex-alcoholic
a minimalist rx abuser
an idiot ex-drug user
a manic depressive
a writer
a musican
a good yet cynical (at times) friend
an isolationist
a critique
a hypocrite
a really good cook
a caring childcare provider
a bad driver
a quiet lover
lacking common sense at times
constantly lonely
always out with someone, doing something, somewhere
a non-materialistic person
a simplistic home dweller
a decent sister
a talented academic team player
a gossip
a awesome oboest
a shitty flute/piccolo player
a horrible ex-best friend
a horrible best friend because I'm so self involved with my own problems


What are you?
 
A grudge-free, optomistic, religious, addiction-free, successful writer with a sane mind, an integrated psyche, a college education, a good attitude and no creative talent who knows eactly where he's going in life. And damn am I good looking. And I get laid a lot.

Well, no, not exactly.

The opposite of all that, really.
 
I am very scared about how little I know myself.

If I look hard in the mirror I don't recognise who I see, and it makes me feel kinda lonely.

I just don't give myself enough introspection.
 
good question, I'll have to give it some serious thought tonight then give ya an answer tomorrow
 
I am me - I let other people worry about the labels.

No dis-respect to the thread, just my honest opnion :)
 
no, I get the point - I just didn't word it correctly - I guess what I was saying is that I'm just me, I have trouble picking out things and making a list as the above. Maybe I don't know myself?

There's definately nothing wrong with doing either :)

p.s - I apologise if I offended anyone, I'm still a little sketchy from three solid days of severe anxeity and panic attacks.

carry on..
 
hmm ok ill give this a shot...
ok :
i am a writer
i am a poet
i am an ex-cutter
i am a clingy girlfriend
i am a submissive
i am ex-anorexic
i am a failure at school
i am liked by teachers, disliked by peers
i am a giver
i am a hopeless romantic
i am battling and now winning over depression
i am good at cooking mashed potatos
i am a puzzle-solver
i am sometimes too emotional
i am devoted to my lovers
i am passionate
i am stubborn
i am messy
i am determined when i have goals
i am a creative soul
i am a peace-lover
i am a good sister
i am a bad daughter
i am a good organiser
i am an animal lover
i am a sexual creature
i am eager to please
i am enjoying a stupid sense of humor
i am a dreamer
 
haste said:
no, I get the point - I just didn't word it correctly - I guess what I was saying is that I'm just me, I have trouble picking out things and making a list as the above. Maybe I don't know myself?

There's definately nothing wrong with doing either :)

p.s - I apologise if I offended anyone, I'm still a little sketchy from three solid days of severe anxeity and panic attacks.

carry on..
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Fair enough. :)

None Taken. Hope you're feeling a bit better.
 
i am:

a smart guy
quiet usually
capable of anything i put my mind to
tall
judgemental more often than i like
an infrequent drinker that doesn't know when to stop
ex-addict
an avid internalist
perfectly content with going to the movies and a restaraunt alone
too picky when i comes to women
over-analytical of everything
passive-aggressive

and of course:

trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obediant, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent.
 
I am...


never happy unless I am doing something
very smart, but very stupid sometimes
always walking around with my head in the clouds
a hopeless romantic
always getting attatched to who I shouldn't
ex alcoholic/stupid drug addict
constantly misunderstood
a great friend to talk to
a good listener
someone who thinks to much
someone who is very inwardly emotional
willing to give everything for someone I care about
very sensual in a relationship
someone who can't stand being by myself for long periods of time
an amateur psychologist to alot of my friends
always trying to be friends with everyone


oh yea...

and I am horribly addicted to music
 
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I am

a work in progress
a nailbiter
a feeler
a thinker
a giver
an addict at times
a quick learner
a wine guzzler
a hardworker who doesnt have
enough motivation
inspired by love
an avid reader
a comedian
a child's voice
a crazy masturbator with a personal
sex life thats out of control but hot as fuck
a writer
a sister
a daughter
somtimes a nervous habited
self concious child
Rooter of the underdog
bitch to the bitches
smile inducer
somtimes chain smoker
tough girl who wont give in unless
you know me well enough to
have me break down in your arms type
wipe snot on your shoulder type
frank sinatra lover who can be called chemically imbalanced
Sometimes flaky
Genuine
Passionate
Temper flammable
Sensitive
Fun chaser

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I am...

forever changing
experimental
a careful thinker
a master of masks
egocentric
strong willed
unpredictable
compassionate
playful
unsure
a soul reader
manipulative
untrusting
a day dreamer
honourable
perseptive
intelligent
wise
sadistic
adventurous
a pothead
original
an unexpected poet
determined
neither a leader or a follower
a teaser
spiritual
someone who must have alone time
a pill popper
fast to understand
a gamer
a realist
comfortable with who I am
 
I'm an asshole
I'm a pothead
I'm mildy depressed
I'm poetic
I'm a triphead
I'm a meditator
I'm uncomfortable
I'm insecure
I'm a cynical bastard
I'm an information storer
I'm a student
I'm a deadhead
I'm a poor conversationalist
I'm a daydreamer
I'm an insomniac
I'm an over-thinker
I'm a worry-wort
I'm laidback
I'm a user. Generally.

I'm just not very well together :)....:(
 
I'm a drummer
I'm a lesbian
I'm a person who drinks till I blackout
I'm a very loving person
I'm creative
I throw my whole heart into a relationship
I'm passionate
I'm a big fan of hugs
I take medicine for depression and OCD
I take pills for fun
I'm a drug addict
I'm a smoker
I'm into a lot of kinky stuff when it comes to sex
I'm the biggest fan of fawn colored pugs
I drop everything when a friend needs me
I'm the one who pays for my date
 
Hmm this is hard to do... I am
An athlete
A really nice guy
depressed way to much
giddilly happy the rest of the time
An ex druggie and sometimes pothead
a good listener
a terrible talker
learning that I have an adrenaline imbalance, which makes me crazy if I can't release it (doing something scary)
A great friend
A lame boyfriend
still figuring out what the important questions are, not even close to the answers.
Most importantly I am alive, moving to a new town, and starting another chapter in my life. So in a year I might be something totally different.
 
am funny.
an ass at times.
a quiet person.
a very shy person.
a lost person.
a lover of alcohol and marijuana.
a computer nerd.
a bit too afraid to really take a big step and do anything major.
am excited for Friday.
a little too sensitive for my own good.
a bit too unsocial.
a bit too open with those who i finally become close with.
a lush ;)
a bluelighter.
 
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