Concerned about my health

[ThisIsKitty]

Hey guys, ive been thinking about my health lately. Let me give you a little review on it.

Im currently unemployed and spend 90% of my day sitting around on my computer. The other 10% of my day consists of me walking from my room to the kitchen or the bathroom. I party a few times a month and get completely wasted to the point of blacking out. Recently got into codeine and have been pulling all nighters doing cwes to get a high (btw just finished my last batch of pills and I wont be touching codeine after tonight) and I smoke half a pack of cigarettes a day. I do try to eat healthy, but ill enjoy a nice bacon and eggs on toast like once a month.

Im 20 years old, 200lbs 5 foot 10.

How bad does this sound to you? Im sitting here jacked up on caffeine from the tylenol 1s thinking about WHAT IF I were to be diagnosed with a terminal illness or something serious.. I cant get it out of my head. I know, I need to shape the fuck up but what if its too late? Am I just overthinking? I self diagnosed myself with anxiety and paranoia.. so yeah im probably just overthinking.

I dont get how some rednecks who are morbidly obese go through life sitting on a couch live to see 60 when I hear of people around me dying young because of cancer or something else.. High blood pressure runs on my dads side of the family and so does cancer (Because of smoking) I recently lost my 70 year old uncle to lung cancer. Ive been smoking for 2 years now and im about ready to quit. I think I just need to visit the doctors and get tested.. I mean its Canada after all. Free health care.

 

[quaff]

What you're self diagnosing as anxiety and paranoia could be depression or side effects from drug use, caffeine, lack of sleep, etc. I think you know you're living an unhealthy lifestyle, but it's not too late to make changes.

Definitely get to the doctor, see about sorting some counseling as well, and maybe a nutritionist. Think about making some small steps, getting out for a walk once or twice a week, cut your cigarettes back by one every two weeks, and build on that. Make an almost stupidly easy schedule for yourself to follow that still includes plenty of time to do the things you find yourself doing now (computer time), but has you doing a couple of other things and interacting with someone every day. When you're feeling good about being able to do that add another thing or two to the schedule, work up to looking for a part time job or exercising more. You can PM me if need any help with that.

The thing about those 60 year old rednecks who are morbidly obese sitting on the couch all day is that they may have made it to 60, but what kind of life are they living? Don't let yourself get there. A good quality of life beats the hell out of a lifetime sitting around and feeling like shit.

 

[LOGan1314]

I know it's probably been said but eat healthy and exercise, this does wonders for me. However, you need to exercise pretty hard, you can't just go walk for five minutes and expect to feel alot better. I know people would probably disagree, but lift weights or run or whatever until you are sweating bullets and seriously sore/tired. When I lift for 30 minutes because I don't have time due to work/school, I don't feel NEARLY as good as when I lift for close to an hour and then bust out an hour of cardio after. If it is too hard to eat healthy every meal, just make sure you get your daily value of fruits in the morning and try to take a multi-vitamin. Also, get busy! I know these things are easier said than done but they help me alot (as a recovering addict). Good luck man.

 

[Polluted_Mind]

Start exercising now or you will probably die.

 

[DOB]

your pretty fat bastard for your height,also stop smoking cigs and doing drugs

you made good first step with facing the truth that your lifestyle is very wrong,I hope you loose weight and bad habits,stay strong mate

 

[moonyham]

You are still young. Under 25 for the majority of the population is about as invincible and healthy as you will ever be, so dont waste any part of those years worrying about cancer or serious terminal illness unless you are really really unhealthy.

Because you are young it is definitely not too late to do some change that will stop you from dying young. Move more. Do that for a month, along with reducing your drug use and alcohol use and you should be feeling and looking alot healthier. Anyway, lose the weight, thats the main problem. Then from there reduce negatives like drugs and cigarettes etc and improve diet.

 

[DOB]

You are still young. Under 25 for the majority of the population is about as invincible and healthy as you will ever be, so dont waste any part of those years worrying about cancer or serious terminal illness unless you are really really unhealthy.

Because you are young it is definitely not too late to do some change that will stop you from dying young. Move more. Do that for a month, along with reducing your drug use and alcohol use and you should be feeling and looking alot healthier. Anyway, lose the weight, thats the main problem. Then from there reduce negatives like drugs and cigarettes etc and improve diet.

this,OP can get fit n sexy and have so much fun and good times that no combination of codeine,PC and burgers could ever touch it

 

[Tude]

It just sounds like your mind trying to do something since you're unemployed. It can't focus on work, so it focuses on all the things that are "wrong" with you. Brush up your interview skills and hit the circuit!

 

[danibud]

i am sorry that you are feeling shitty. its already been said but the drugs and getting wasted to the point of blacking out is only going to aggrivate the sitution even if your not consciously aware that it is.
Obviously its easier said than done because you are going to want to let your hair down and escape all the exhausting thoughts, but you should think about not getting high until youve started to sort out your problems.

I have had anxiety and panic disorder for about 6 years now. orignally i used to panic about dying. i was convinced i had some terrible illness or that i was soo unhealthy i was definately going to die. i thought i got better but it comes back alot when im stressed and now its turned into something else.

One thing that really helped me was someone fully explained what anxiety disorder was and showed me articles and sites with a lot of information. it was such a relief to see all the symptoms were exactly what i had and i blatantly wasnt ill or going nuts. ( even though once you know this logically, your paranoid brain will still try and convince you the facts are wrong)

also just getting outside in the fresh air and out of your comfort zone will really help. i know it probably sounds like a massive mental effort because your indoors all the time but i can say for definate that taking an easy stroll round the block every day or just going to the local shop or something WILL make you feel alot better and more positive and better able to deal with things.

i hope these sites help just a little bit. also feel free to PM if it helps talking to someone or if you got any questions

hope you start feeling better soon.

http://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/about-anxiety/anxiety-disorders/health-anxiety/

http://www.patient.co.uk/health/Anxiety-Disorders.htm