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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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I don’t think anyone understands how fucking bad this is. I CAN BARELY STAY OUT OF BED. When I am out of bed, I only think about being in bed because I’m constantly uncomfortable with my horrible attention span and my horrible, horrible, horrible anhedonia. The only escape that I had before the shot — video games — has been robbed from me. And my life before the shot was already horrible with the negative symptoms of schizophrenia!

My illness — schizoaffective disorder— has the highest suicide rate of any illness. No fucking wonder. FUCK
 
Davievargie said:
How can you hold a job??? Since taking Invega, I can’t get out of bed before 1:30 PM. I also struggle getting out of bed because my brain gives me no reward system in hobbies and my attention span is absolutely horrible. I’m basically bed ridden.

Is any one else also bed ridden? Or am I the only one completely fucked by this medicine?
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Oh trust me it’s definitely a struggle workin after being injected FOR SURE!!!
I still dont have any reward system.
Before being injected working was easy and i would always be pumped after work and listening to music and going to gym. I could feel feelings lol. Now its ten times more effort than before being injected. Plus i have no way to cope/vice do to no dopamine. I told them my availability is 10am-10pm, that way i get up at 830.
I fucking hate being alive but i have had progress in my energy levels.
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
It happens to a lot of people. It happened to me too for the first few months and it was a gradual process of doing more to eventually not feeling bed ridden. You won’t feel like this forever and even if you never fully recover you still have a lot of potential to improve from your current situation the longer you’re off
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Hold on how long ago were you injected!
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Oh trust me it’s definitely a struggle workin after being injected FOR SURE!!!
I still dont have any reward system.
Before being injected working was easy and i would always be pumped after work and listening to music and going to gym. I could feel feelings lol. Now its ten times more effort than before being injected. Plus i have no way to cope/vice do to no dopamine. I told them my availability is 10am-10pm, that way i get up at 830.
I fucking hate being alive but i have had progress in my energy levels.
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I can’t wake up before the afternoon. I can’t even enjoy my fucking free time. Seems like you have it way better my guy.

But then again, we all experience our suffering relative to our subjectivity.
 
Davievargie said:
I don’t think anyone understands how fucking bad this is. I CAN BARELY STAY OUT OF BED. When I am out of bed, I only think about being in bed because I’m constantly uncomfortable with my horrible attention span and my horrible, horrible, horrible anhedonia. The only escape that I had before the shot — video games — has been robbed from me. And my life before the shot was already horrible with the negative symptoms of schizophrenia!

My illness — schizoaffective disorder— has the highest suicide rate of any illness. No fucking wonder. FUCK
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That’s how I used to kill my time too, when I went back to play Fortnite i just couldn’t have fun anymore, same with Valorant. The only thing I find interesting now is reading forums about this poisonous crap hoping someone has a miracle cure for it.
 
I read that this Invega releases for up to 126 days so I’m just counting down that hoping something changes. I’m almost there for the first shot and the second shot is still another 2 months. Just wish I could chill like I used to, now everyday I feel compelled to walk around especially to the shops even though I don’t need anything.
 
I've made a decision guys, if I were to go into psychosis again, I've decided that I will take oral medications forever, I've wasted too much time in these years, I've lost a part of myself, I've ended up in the ward many times and I believe that psychosis that I have had have damaged my brain, I am afraid that if I suffer another one it will never be the same, each time I detach myself more from reality, each time I have to look for a new job, my cousin is bipolar, he takes seroquel and lithium , but he can work very well, if he stops taking them, he starts to feel like the best in the world, he spends everything he has on things he doesn't use and then he ends up in the ward and has to start from scratch, I, I have been diagnosed as schizoaffective, but , every time my disorder appears it appears identical to a bipolar disorder, guys I've really wasted too much time in this shit, from 2017 to today, I've only lived well for 2 years, I'm not desperate, but I'm starting to think I have a serious problem
 
I must smoke weed, otherwise I don't eat.
The shots ruined my appetite, which got recovered in my last recovery before I got injected again.
 
I wasn’t even having a psychotic episode or anything when I got injected I think that’s why I got so fucked up from it. I’m better than I was 2 months ago but this depression seems like it’ll last forever. How can I go on with life now when everything feels pointless? I used to enjoy everything and find stuff to do, now it’s an uphill battle just to get out of bed. I left 1* bad reviews for the Hospital and the Clinic and the dogs get them deleted, how is that fair?
 
So i made a desicion. Its been a year since injection, no real improvements.. Im suffering from fist Trinza so 19mnth, but dr told me depression is from divorce not injection so they truly gaslighted me its my depression not medicine and i should wprk on my self and make effort. Dr was a friend who knew me, so i believed i have to try harder. They really killed everything in me and about me, im different person who suffers enormasly every day. I juste believed medical doctros and their knowledge. Im out in june. 99,9 precent. Only God can save me now, and if i start improving by then. My kids are the one who keeps me alive, but mother is no mother if she cant feel her kids. This forum saved my life so far, i have read all versions and threads like 10 times and i can say that from what i have seen 85 precent of people recover so you guys should keep the faith. I dont accept undignefied life, i was mother, jurnalist, tv host, happiest women ever who adored life, kids, family, friends. Everything is gone. Everything. Somehow deep in my heart i have small hope of being my self again, its just that i am tiered and i had way to much suffering. Life is not worth living anymore, and i cant allowe everybody around me to suffer with me. Id rather be dead, than be this person who i have become.
 
As I am getting more and more clarity into recovery I am getting reaaaaaallly fucking more and more pissed off at what this doctor did to me.Enraged is more like the word.
 
I was speaking with my daugter, she is 15 and she understand and knows situatuon. She doesnt want me to suffer this way, but she wants me to give my self more time.We agreed one and a half more yrs if i dont improve i can go. What a sickest meducine what a sick sutuatione and what a misery for family. I still cant believe this shit. I decided not to come to BL no more, only if i improve to give people hope. I wish you all good luck❤🙏
 
So I tried St John‘s Wort along with a mixture of lions mane, saffron and something else. I wasn’t feeling too bad but then an even worse depression hit me. The info thing said it’s an inducer so I think that means it activates the paliperidone. I think as long as you don’t feel life is pointless you can heal, because once you realize that there’s no going back unfortunately, unless you have plenty of things to distract you or already felt that way.
 
know it's hard to do but, you have to stay positive, it's been studied that more than 30 minutes a day of complaining, in the long run, shrinks the brain and makes you go into depression, I advise you to find something to do in the months too long down, because otherwise you lose all your muscles and then it's even harder to start working again and do everything, today I'm going to talk to go back to the kitchen to work, I'm a little scared, in the last two years I've been a waiter because I no longer felt like myself, strong, decisive, now I intend to try to go back to the kitchen again, another piece of advice, be careful when the emotions come back because they will be very strong, if you are sad you will be more sad, angry? you will also be happier too, be careful because everything will come back
 
SkavrsXeplion said:
know it's hard to do but, you have to stay positive, it's been studied that more than 30 minutes a day of complaining, in the long run, shrinks the brain and makes you go into depression, I advise you to find something to do in the months too long down, because otherwise you lose all your muscles and then it's even harder to start working again and do everything, today I'm going to talk to go back to the kitchen to work, I'm a little scared, in the last two years I've been a waiter because I no longer felt like myself, strong, decisive, now I intend to try to go back to the kitchen again, another piece of advice, be careful when the emotions come back because they will be very strong, if you are sad you will be more sad, angry? you will also be happier too, be careful because everything will come back
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I could not even be a waitress after the Paliperidona damage. I also have a lot of problems to talk. Many of you became quiet?
 
SkavrsXeplion said:
know it's hard to do but, you have to stay positive, it's been studied that more than 30 minutes a day of complaining, in the long run, shrinks the brain and makes you go into depression, I advise you to find something to do in the months too long down, because otherwise you lose all your muscles and then it's even harder to start working again and do everything, today I'm going to talk to go back to the kitchen to work, I'm a little scared, in the last two years I've been a waiter because I no longer felt like myself, strong, decisive, now I intend to try to go back to the kitchen again, another piece of advice, be careful when the emotions come back because they will be very strong, if you are sad you will be more sad, angry? you will also be happier too, be careful because everything will come back
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I believe a positive mindset is needed in recovery.
 
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