@shadypenguin God gave us this life as a gift to live it full of happiness with everything that surrounds us in this world. There are some very hard times along the way. But god has made us strong and your soul can never be taken away from you! Please don't give up on your dreams! You are only two months off, don't expect the changes to be that fast. I'm almost 5 months off and I don't see huge improvements either. But the body has an enormous capacity to heal if you treat it right. There is nothing in this life that will stay forever. Acceptation may sound like something wise. But it can also be an expression of giving up. Keep on fighting. If you have a goal, and a will, there will always be a way. God would never put us in such a place to make us suffer our whole lifes. It depends on your choices. If you chose to be this way for the rest of your life, well then it's a different story. But if you chose to fight and get your body, mind and soul back, you will get everything you need to achieve that! But it may take some changes to be made along the way. Such as lifestyle changes, changes in eating habits etc. If you fight, you will win. If you agree to be in this place, you accept losing the fight. I know it seems like you don't have much control over this, but that is just an illusion. Because deep inside of you there will always be that voice that tells you, that this is not how you are supposed to be. This is not how god made you. This is what a poison made out of you, some man-made crap. Your inner power will always remain within you. Try to resonate with that every moment. It is leading the way. Don't give up! Your true self is within you all the time. And it is fighting for you every day to get comfortable in your body again. Even if you don't realize it. But it's there and when you chose to get it back, you will no matter what it takes. I chose to never give up on myself! Because i deserve much better than that! And so do you! And you were not schizophrenic, you were just having a spiritual experience. Never ever believe that you were sick in the first place. People have know idea how to define such things as schizophrenic, because there is no exact definition of that. Which means that it doesn't exist. Because it varies from person to person. We are individuals with a soul and sometimes there are things we don't understand. But just because we cannot understand it, doesn't mean that it is a sickness! We put everything in boxes and everything that doesn't fit in this box is defined as abnormal. But as long as it's there it is something that belongs to us humans as well. Otherwise it wouldn't be there. There is much more to that than meets the eye or understanding. I would rather die than giving up on my wholeness as a creature. And this is what keeps me going. There are many many days where i just want to give up, but my true self within me won't let me. It keeps telling me that better days are ahead. Don't compare yourself to anyone in here, we all have different stories. It takes time to heal, but we DO heal if we chose the way of god. And believe me, choosing any kind of drugs is NOT choosing god, because anything artificial is not natural and not what belongs in your body. Chose nature. Chose whole foods. Stay in touch with your true self and never give up! That is the way of god.