Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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I was terrified as well before I noticed improvements. I was desperate for relief and thought about drugs and alc 24/7.

I kinda feel nicotine and coffee in the mornings now, and was able to take a nap today.

I think hard exercise is the only way that maybe speeds up recovery. You can use it to measure progress and stay healthy during recovery. It has so many benefits. Better than waiting around for a miracle.
Working out hasn’t helped me much. I feel a little better after I workout. But it hasn’t helped me in the long run. It has just increased my strength. I’ve been working out for 3 months now.
 
How did you lose your friends? You mean you’re no longer social?
Between psychosis and being anti social. I texted friends odd things during psychosis so I lost friends there from word of mouth spreading. Then my true friends, the ones who don’t care about psychosis, I haven’t seen in a year due to invega. I have texted them but I can’t talk on the phone or see them in person. I am unable to socialize in person.

I shouldn’t say I lost them as we still communicate. But seeing each other in person is a big part of it. And if I don’t see them soon, I’m worried I we will grow more and more apart.
 
Between psychosis and being anti social. I texted friends odd things during psychosis so I lost friends there from word of mouth spreading. Then my true friends, the ones who don’t care about psychosis, I haven’t seen in a year due to invega. I have texted them but I can’t talk on the phone or see them in person. I am unable to socialize in person.

I shouldn’t say I lost them as we still communicate. But seeing each other in person is a big part of it. And if I don’t see them soon, I’m worried I we will grow more and more apart.
I also ranted to some of my friends and relatives during psychosis. But all is forgiven and they know I was going through some shit.

My advice would be to take initiative and arrange meetings with your friends. Try meeting one at the time it’s easier. Then you can talk about what you’re going through and get some support.

Friendships need to be nurtured from time to time. Stay in touch with your childhood friends. They are the lifelong ones. If you lose them, you’re fucked because it’s really hard to make close friends as an adult

I find some strange relief from watching true crime, police interrogations, prison docs, people with rare diseases. My troubles seem so trivial compared to them.
 
Aim for recovery, but at some point we kind of need to start questioning is this sort of life is still worth living, taking (gradual) improvements we are still having or not having into calculation. And if one's life is just full of sorrow and suffering would (legal) euthanasia be a viable option? If your country doesn't offer it as a controlled legalized service then you could travel to another one where it's legalized but process would be longer and at a more cost. You might not get approved of it in some countries even where it's legalized and controlled.

@Senior Moderator now you can't warn and temp-ban me for this because I clearly said legal euthanasia and explained properly.
Dude this is such a crazily negative post to people recovering, I think this kind of post shouldn’t be on here personally
 
Dude this is such a crazily negative post to people recovering, I think this kind of post shouldn’t be on here personally
He hasn’t recovered in close to 2 years. It would be hard to remain positive.

I find some strange relief from watching true crime, police interrogations, prison docs, people with rare diseases. My troubles seem so trivial compared to them.
I used to watch videos of people in solitary confinement in prison. Those people who are in there 20+ years have it way worse than us.
 
I found someone on youtube who managed to recover from APs. Maybe his experience can help someone.




Xeplione 150 mg + 100 + 100 + 100, last in March. I am currently taking Xanax for 2 months, Zoloft for 5 years, Quetiapine 200 mg for 6 months, Aripiprazol 10 mg for 2 months.
 
@Kiaf85 For some odd reason I can't reply directly at the moment hence why I'm using @ instead but anyways I felt exactly what you said, while I obviously do appreciate the several people that responded by saying happy birthday to me here, and while I did mostly enjoy the time I spent with family and friends today, in the end I still unfortunately didn't feel as excited and content as I usually would've. It's most likely due to two reasons, one being because my emotions were dulled by Invega, with the second being that I quite literally can never go more than a few minutes without constantly worrying if I'll ever fully recover. I can't even get temporarily relief during sleep. Every single night I always dream about being severely disabled and nearly dying from Invega, very different to what I dreamed about over 6 months ago before I ever got injected.

I'm pretty sure I read at least one or two comments talking about the same problem, but is anyone else experiencing issues with hair thinning/loss? Beforehand I would typically grow hair quickly and evenly, basically throughout my entire body but most notably my head and facial hair. I recently started to notice that a concerningly significant amount of hair falls from my head head whevever I comb it, including my beard which I use a seperate brush for. Just a few days ago I recieved a haircut from my stepmother since she is also a barber, and for the first time mentioned that there's certain patches in the back of my head where the scalp is more visible. Could this be a direct cause of Invega or is it due to the fact that I keep worrying/stressing about side effects?
 
@Kiaf85 For some odd reason I can't reply directly at the moment hence why I'm using @ instead but anyways I felt exactly what you said, while I obviously do appreciate the several people that responded by saying happy birthday to me here, and while I did mostly enjoy the time I spent with family and friends today, in the end I still unfortunately didn't feel as excited and content as I usually would've. It's most likely due to two reasons, one being because my emotions were dulled by Invega, with the second being that I quite literally can never go more than a few minutes without constantly worrying if I'll ever fully recover. I can't even get temporarily relief during sleep. Every single night I always dream about being severely disabled and nearly dying from Invega, very different to what I dreamed about over 6 months ago before I ever got injected.
I’m disabled in my dreams as well
 
Would we even fit the criteria for assisted suicide?
No.

I’ve never been more suicidal in my life. I feel like my life is over. I am almost certain I’ve been damaged beyond repair and I see so many people not recovering their former selves. This shit is hell on earth. Can someone please give me some words of encouragement. Thanks
I have moderated these Invega threads for years now and I have seen SO MANY people recover. It just takes time for the poison to leave your body, and unfortunately you are right in the thick of the most excruciating time. Please just stick it out, as others have said. Time and living healthily will heal you. And please, be brave and courageous, and that does not mean to just suck it up and put on a happy face. Not at all. Remember that the definition of brave and courageous is to face something threatening and foreboding despite knowing how scary it is. That shows true strength in my opinion, and I love the concept of courage and being brave <3

In America it is legal in some states. However, “access to the procedure is generally restricted to people with a terminal illness and less than six months to live. Patients are generally required to be mentally healthy, to get approval from multiple doctors, and to affirm the request multiple times.”

Switzerland is where you wanna go:

1. The Swiss Penal Code allows for assisted suicide, as long as the motive of those assisting is not selfish.

2. Those assisting the person to die need not be a doctor. Anyone can assist as long as their motive is altruistic

It just costs $12,500 in Switzerland.
Hence, for the vast majority of people in this thread (nay, for most people in the entire world) IT IS NOT A VIABLE OPTION.

Let's forget about the assisted euthanasia thing and move on from it please. I deleted it when it was initially suggested because it is a silly thing to say in a thread like this, it is a bad concept to put in to people's minds and it is disruptive to the discussion at hand, i.e. RECOVERY from Invega. No more talk of assisted euthanasia, please. It is not relevant to this thread.

Today I'm 100 weeks off.
That is awesome!! Keep it up!

I find some strange relief from watching true crime, police interrogations, prison docs, people with rare diseases. My troubles seem so trivial compared to them.
You know what? This may or may not bring you some consolation, but many MANY people, even those without any kind of psychiatric issues whatsoever love watching those types of shows for the exact same reason :) That's why they are so fucking popular! Precisely as you said, it makes your own troubles seem trivial, which gives some kind of relief to your personal plight, huh. I personally love watching true crime docos. My penchant is docos that involve psychopathic serial killers, because I majored in "The Dark Personality Types" in my Psychology degree, and also studied psychopaths in-depth in my Forensic Psychology degree. I find psychopaths infinitely fascinating, as they are so alien to me........Anyway lol

Dude this is such a crazily negative post to people recovering, I think this kind of post shouldn’t be on here personally
I completely agree, which is why I deleted it. Just ignore it and move on <3


@CrimsonThornX HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :cheer: I am so glad you had a nice day with your family and friends <3 I know you're still not feeling good, but for this coming year I wish for you a huge improvement in your recovery <3 <3 <3
 
@Kiaf85 For some odd reason I can't reply directly at the moment hence why I'm using @ instead but anyways I felt exactly what you said, while I obviously do appreciate the several people that responded by saying happy birthday to me here, and while I did mostly enjoy the time I spent with family and friends today, in the end I still unfortunately didn't feel as excited and content as I usually would've. It's most likely due to two reasons, one being because my emotions were dulled by Invega, with the second being that I quite literally can never go more than a few minutes without constantly worrying if I'll ever fully recover. I can't even get temporarily relief during sleep. Every single night I always dream about being severely disabled and nearly dying from Invega, very different to what I dreamed about over 6 months ago before I ever got injected.

I'm pretty sure I read at least one or two comments talking about the same problem, but is anyone else experiencing issues with hair thinning/loss? Beforehand I would typically grow hair quickly and evenly, basically throughout my entire body but most notably my head and facial hair. I recently started to notice that a concerningly significant amount of hair falls from my head head whevever I comb it, including my beard which I use a seperate brush for. Just a few days ago I recieved a haircut from my stepmother since she is also a barber, and for the first time mentioned that there's certain patches in the back of my head where the scalp is more visible. Could this be a direct cause of Invega or is it due to the fact that I keep worrying/stressing about side effects?
I have the same problem everyday I just worry it really sucks. It’s 5:47 and I just woke up first thing I do is hop on here and read. Hate this shit I just want me back. I dream about the old me and wake up to this hard reality. I was losing an insane amount of hair every time I took a shower until recently it has stopped. I’m 2 months off the injection how about you
 
I have the same problem everyday I just worry it really sucks. It’s 5:47 and I just woke up first thing I do is hop on here and read. Hate this shit I just want me back. I dream about the old me and wake up to this hard reality. I was losing an insane amount of hair every time I took a shower until recently it has stopped. I’m 2 months off the injection how about you
Same as me. When we get our old selves back we’ll appreciate life that much more.
 
Same as me. When we get our old selves back we’ll appreciate life that much more.
Hell ya man I will do all the things I hesitated to do. Such as music I was really talented at rapping and everyone told me to release my music but I never did. I pray I get all my abilities back so I can do what my former self was going to do. You’re lucky bro you have just over 200mg that was injected in you. I had over 1000mg and I’m 19. Life feels like it has ended right after high school. So fucked I just wanted to succeed and now I get no joy from the things I do. I miss all my old feelings.
 
I do but it is not near as bad. I can go to the gym and shower every day. I still don’t have the motivation to do some things so it is not fully back. I’m Probably at 65-70% healed overall.


I agree. Like you said, I would rather do 12 months in prison than have to take invega again.
Is your personality coming back?
 
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