Ok so I have the classic story as you all do, started as a casual oxy user, started using daily, started doing 20-50 oxy 30's a day so I switched to H. Was doing 50-60 bags a day, Bought a house in FL moved and was clean for 9 months, got a job and some dude was doing a bag right in front of me at work, started right back into it, 20-50 bags a day a few months later, I quit a while ago but hopped back in like 5 months ago or so. I was only doing 2-10 bags a day depending on what I had left from previous days, and how much money I had until I got paid.
So I sort of tapered my use down as about a year ago I was put on probation and I was coming up to completion of probation and my uncle said he could get me an amazing job if I was able to get clean and straighten up.
I tapered down to doing just a bag a day, half in the morning half at night. I tried to cold turkey after that but the mental aspect of it just fucked with me to bad so I went back to a bag a day. I picked up about 150 percocet 7.5s and I am attempting to taper with those, I have about 50 left, I am down to 3 pills a day.
I currently don't work, Basically have no friends because I moved to FL and only friends I made here were also users, My dad was diagnosed with cancer 4 months ago so that just compacts it even more making it harder to quit at this moment. I don't want to fuck up this opportunity I have though, it's a job in the hvac union starting at almost 30$ an hour and I would be set for life due to pension and such, I would also be able to take care of my father and nephew for the rest of their lives with this. I am just struggling to get by though.
I have no problem with the physical part of withdrawal it is the mental that gets me each and every time, as my way of life basically can't improve at this moment. I am working on selling my house so I can move back to my home town in NJ for that job, but I want to be 100% clean before I do that as to not fuck up that once in a lifetime opportunity. I have been reading about tianeptine as a possible way to help with the severe depression. It's just really hard to deal with it when you have no job, nothing to really fill your time with. I try to find things but honestly with no money it's hard, I can't drive anywhere because someone ran a red light and totaled my car 2 months ago, So stir craziness sets in really bad. Has anyone tried tinepatine to help get rid of their depression? I still have those 50 percocet so I will be tapering down real low to get rid of physical withdrawals but the PAWS will still come which always does me in. My father lives with me and would be able to ration the tinepatine for me as to not over do it and get high with it, since it is supposed to be similar to opiates in high doses. I want it strictly for the better state of mind. I already work out at home and go outside daily to walk my dogs. Any one have any other suggestions? I have been doing opiates about 10 years now. Turned 30 this year and really want to turn my life around and get back to the way I used to be.
So I sort of tapered my use down as about a year ago I was put on probation and I was coming up to completion of probation and my uncle said he could get me an amazing job if I was able to get clean and straighten up.
I tapered down to doing just a bag a day, half in the morning half at night. I tried to cold turkey after that but the mental aspect of it just fucked with me to bad so I went back to a bag a day. I picked up about 150 percocet 7.5s and I am attempting to taper with those, I have about 50 left, I am down to 3 pills a day.
I currently don't work, Basically have no friends because I moved to FL and only friends I made here were also users, My dad was diagnosed with cancer 4 months ago so that just compacts it even more making it harder to quit at this moment. I don't want to fuck up this opportunity I have though, it's a job in the hvac union starting at almost 30$ an hour and I would be set for life due to pension and such, I would also be able to take care of my father and nephew for the rest of their lives with this. I am just struggling to get by though.
I have no problem with the physical part of withdrawal it is the mental that gets me each and every time, as my way of life basically can't improve at this moment. I am working on selling my house so I can move back to my home town in NJ for that job, but I want to be 100% clean before I do that as to not fuck up that once in a lifetime opportunity. I have been reading about tianeptine as a possible way to help with the severe depression. It's just really hard to deal with it when you have no job, nothing to really fill your time with. I try to find things but honestly with no money it's hard, I can't drive anywhere because someone ran a red light and totaled my car 2 months ago, So stir craziness sets in really bad. Has anyone tried tinepatine to help get rid of their depression? I still have those 50 percocet so I will be tapering down real low to get rid of physical withdrawals but the PAWS will still come which always does me in. My father lives with me and would be able to ration the tinepatine for me as to not over do it and get high with it, since it is supposed to be similar to opiates in high doses. I want it strictly for the better state of mind. I already work out at home and go outside daily to walk my dogs. Any one have any other suggestions? I have been doing opiates about 10 years now. Turned 30 this year and really want to turn my life around and get back to the way I used to be.
