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Coming off Amphethamines

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sierrajayne

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I have developed a bit of a speed problem...

This is my third time trying to get clean because I just can't deal anymore, when I withdraw I end up sleeping all day and wake up multiple times because of such shitty dreams. Or sometimes I wake up just crying for no reason. Then I get irritable, depressed, miserable and everything pisses me off. So I use again.

I was a depressive before using, I just don't know what to do anymore. I've changed so much, even when I'm sober. It's too much to explain; but I was just wondering if anyone has experienced similar withdrawals and has gotten through this hell?

I know I just have to get through it and stop all together. So I'm not trying to bitch or be whiney, just curious. :)
 
I don't remember exactly how I felt, but when I stopped using speed I went to rehab. I was pretty tired, I would often fall asleep in the group therapy sessions and have trouble focusing.

Although I didn't really get depressed, I started feeling all my insecurities and doubts and self-consciousness return with a vengeance. I guess being in the rehab was helpful because I was surrounded by other people going through something similar, but it also made some of the anxieties worse because I didn't feel comfortable living with a big group of people like that.

Amphetamines are pretty harsh on the body so it's important to eat well and take good care of yourself. If you need to sleep and are able to, then sleep. If you need to cry, cry. It's normal to have a period of physical and emotional turmoil after putting your body through so much stress.

If you can find a good therapist to work with you on your depression that can also be very helpful. It doesn't necessarily mean you need medication, but talking and changing your perceptions is important.

Be patient with yourself and let yourself heal. If you can make up your mind 100% that this is what you want, you will be able to handle whatever difficulties come your way. Make the decision and don't question it <3
 
It just takes a long long time to get back to anything resembling normalcy. I don't know the science, but amphet abuse really screws with the happy receptors of your brain. Tiredness & depression is normal. The trick is to refrain without developing a dependency on benzo's or alcohol. I'd say try & stay busy, eat well, find something else to distract you and be prepared to dig deep on your reserves of determination. Good luck, friend.
 
It gets easier as time goes by. And the more time away from speed, the better you DO eventually feel. But it takes a long, long fucking time. Don't give up. <3
 
one day at a time man!
I used amphetamines for 16/17 years with varying degrees of enthusiasm, so I know what your going through!

first step is acknowledgment of problem so well done there!

Next step is physical rest and replenishment.

Final and most challenging step is re-learning how to achieve natural, socially acceptable elation, satisfaction and self-worth through your own achievements.
Blanketed by the blissful, synthetic, psuedo-euphoric chemical stimulation, you will become endorphine-lazy effectively.
Gaining your pleasures and rewards through the chemical annihilation of self makes you forget how to create lasting happiness. Or at least it did for me.
This was the toughest thing for me.
Life was just dull, so I'd get fed up and relapse.

I realise i'm only speaking for myself here to some extent.
And i'm no doctor.
I count myself lucky that I didn't do any major damage.
I'm also very fortunate that I've never extensively suffered from depression, having suffered only through amphetamine-induced anxiety.

Still, i know a lot of people who have and haven't got through what your going through man.
Hang in there.
If you can distance yourself from your immeadiate temptation it will help enormously.
Get away from the scene.
Ditch the paraphenalia.
Ditch the contacts.
Ditch the city or even the country if needs be.
I did. And you'll be glad you did if it stops you relapsing.
Personally I was fine until I drank. After a couple of bottles of wine I would've considered almost anything to get my hands on some gear at one stage. But luckily it was just not readily available as i'd made it that way.

Chin up man. things could always be worse, remember that. Imagine if you were born with testicles on your forehead and Simon Cowell as your father.

good luck

DJ

PM me if you need help or advice man. I'm no professional, but i know what your dealing with to some degree!
 
yup im dealin with that now. tryin to kick this meth addiction. i feel like shit, but im not gonna use. it does take time to get back to "normal." so you just gotta be patient, i know its hard...but you will feel better eventually. your mind and body have to recover. when im recovering from a meth binge, i sleep ALOT, eat and drink alot, have crazy fuckin nightmares, feel weak, depressed, angry, irritable, etc....just know that all of this, it will pass. just give it time.
 
the first few days were the worst. i've never gotten past the third day, now i'm trying again -- on day four! thanks everyone, taking it one day at a time i guess... :)
 
its not pesonnaly that i have a prob whit drugs themself but i have a problem whit doing other stuff i try to play cod all day but i feel like i got no life and u cant fuck whit girls all day and my friends well the fun one all does drugs the other only play cod what the fuck you whant me to do go outside play in the park im 15 fuck.... i got noth to do xD i do snow sometime but i cant go everyday... i use to skate but fuck xD cant skate high and i have 4 season here ... i use to play runescape before i started all these drug stuff but fuck they removed pking (player killing) i just got a problem whit life itself right??
 
Being hooked up amphetamines was one of the worst experiences of my life. The worst part was not the withdrawals. The worst part was taking so much speed, being up for days without eating, and feeling like I'm going insane. It's indescribable.
 
I stopped using heroin and meth at the same the last time I went to rehab (last MARCH). I've relapsed on heroin but I did a line of meth once afterwards and have been clean from it for eight months. I've come off meth alone as well and I know how hard it is. I had body aches, was severely depressed, couldn't get out of bed, couldn't sleep and then couldn't wake up, was ravenously hungry. It really sucks but the best thing is to wash your sheets, have some good movies, have some sleeping pills if you can, and a full fridge.

I honestly have no cravings or desires to use meth again, I'm done. I don't want to go through the hell that I was in for almost six years of using daily. I feel so much better and I don't have to go through the horrible withdrawls or worry about having it with me to function. I don't have any advice because for me I just did it enough that I became sick of it and didn't want to anymore. But I promise it is SO much better on the other side, just get through that first week and you're life with vastly improve.

Feel free to PM me if you want help/advice/support/someone to whine to :)
 
i've been abusing meth the past few months, ramping up my dosage/frequency the past few weeks, and im finally starting to realize what everyone else describes

it's just not worth it, and for one main reason (so far): tolerance

tolerance is a bitch and does not go away easily. id been confused, because in the past i'd been v v careful with my usage, as i was taking great care to avoid tolerance. so most of my meth experiences have been close to as good as my first couple ones.

i havent been sober more than a week or two recently, so i imagine the withdrawal is gonna kick my ass. one thing thats always been a must tho: work out. if u dont work out ur done.
 
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