I had done a lot of drugs before, lots of mcat, pills, mdma, etc but the only feeling I got when coming off them was feeling a bit depressed. But this time was different. I had taken a pill with loads of mdma in and quite a few (cant remember how many) pills with a small amount of mdma and lots of speed in.
Here is very roughly what happened in my comedown.
Felt weird, scared, didn’t know what was happening to me and I was really paranoid. People faces melting and changing shape. I saw my feet changing colour and then disappeared. At points I felt like I could cry. Heard people talking and laugh when apparently they weren’t. When trying to get to sleep my head was full of voices, my head was going mental and all I could think is that I wanted to get out of it. I was banging my head and screaming out in frustration, I felt like something wanted me to just give in and I was fighting against it. I then realised why you hear of people killing themselves on drugs, to get out of the comedown (that’s what I think anyway). It felt like it lasted hours but was probably only about an hour.
As I was coming out of it I was reflecting on my life and felt like everything was going into perspective, I felt that everything I had been doing (partying and drugs) wasn’t important anymore, and felt that what was important where my family, my good mates and doing something with my life (in my case going to uni then getting a job).
That’s not everything that happened but I find it hard to explain as some of the experience was so weird and I cant put it into words. I now still feel that was the worst experience of my life and never want it to happen again. Thinking and writing about it now makes me feel weird and still scares me. I haven’t done any drug apart from ket since.
As you can tell I’m not good with words, but any comments would be good. What I wanted to know was, if this was a particularly bad comedown or whether lots of people get them like this? Also what are the chances of this happening again? As I want to try mdma again.
All this may sound stupid, I just don’t know a lot about comedowns and not loads about drugs.
cheers
Here is very roughly what happened in my comedown.
Felt weird, scared, didn’t know what was happening to me and I was really paranoid. People faces melting and changing shape. I saw my feet changing colour and then disappeared. At points I felt like I could cry. Heard people talking and laugh when apparently they weren’t. When trying to get to sleep my head was full of voices, my head was going mental and all I could think is that I wanted to get out of it. I was banging my head and screaming out in frustration, I felt like something wanted me to just give in and I was fighting against it. I then realised why you hear of people killing themselves on drugs, to get out of the comedown (that’s what I think anyway). It felt like it lasted hours but was probably only about an hour.
As I was coming out of it I was reflecting on my life and felt like everything was going into perspective, I felt that everything I had been doing (partying and drugs) wasn’t important anymore, and felt that what was important where my family, my good mates and doing something with my life (in my case going to uni then getting a job).
That’s not everything that happened but I find it hard to explain as some of the experience was so weird and I cant put it into words. I now still feel that was the worst experience of my life and never want it to happen again. Thinking and writing about it now makes me feel weird and still scares me. I haven’t done any drug apart from ket since.
As you can tell I’m not good with words, but any comments would be good. What I wanted to know was, if this was a particularly bad comedown or whether lots of people get them like this? Also what are the chances of this happening again? As I want to try mdma again.
All this may sound stupid, I just don’t know a lot about comedowns and not loads about drugs.
cheers
