Even though Im not proud of ever having tried cocaine, im going to descrive my experience with it because i'll admit, it was very exciting. I've only done coke 4 or 5 times and i don't plan on doing it again. It seriously fucked with me. Probably because i already have psychosis in the first place.
The first time was the best. For the first few minutes, i felt very cold and nervous and paranoid. Then i felt amazing. I remember sitting on the floor for at least an hour just watching my two bunny rabbits play and my dog chewing her bone. My bunnies looked 10 times as cute . I was especially amazed by watching my dog's jaws move and her teeth chew the bone.
....then i started to notice other things. I looked in the fire place, which has black soot smeared all over in the back of it. I started seeing a face in the soot. Then the face started bleeding a little. Then the white spot, which was the face's eye, turned into a little bug and started crawling around. None of this was really a new experience for me, but it was deffinatly a bit more intense than usual and much more interesting to watch.
Then my boyfriend called me to come out on the balcony because he said he saw a deer outside. Once i stepped outside, everything became even more intense. It was really dark out, aside from the moonlight and street lights. I started seeing all kinds of figures and animals walking around. Soon, i saw some bright white Aliens off in the distance. At first, i was a little paranoid oftheir motives, but they seemed to comunicate to me that they were friendly and trying to be helpful. Soon they started dancing around, waving their strange looking arms and such. I saw the one alien standing in front of the space ship--it was shaped to look like a giant evil-looking dog head. It's opened mouth was the door.
Now, this was a delusion that had developed in my head a year or so before i had ever tried drugs. --I had believed that Aliens/beings from other demensions were trying to communicate with me and have me come live with them. I believed the government was aware of these creatures communicating with me trying to steal me away and it angered them. They were angry too, because i knew their secrets. I was constantly being watched/followed by spies to make sure i wouldn't go anywhere, etc...or so i thought.
So now that im high on coke and seeing these aliens, that delusion comes flooding back into my mind. These aliens are hear to take me away...to save me, i thought. And then i soon realized that spies were hiding all over the place in between me and the aliens.. They were driving by me on the street below my balcony. there was a spy car parked behind a hill...they were ready to take action. And i had to remain perfectly still so they wouldn't shoot at me. IF i tried to make a run for it, they would.
My boyfriend couldn't get me to come inside for a long time. Once i did. I started gabbering on to my boyfriend about all the things i use to believe when i was off my medication--that there was a camera up near the ceiling behind the wall, that the government was angry with me because i knew too much information, etc. But it was nice because oi was actually able to really talk to someone about these things, whereas before i had never been able to do that...use to keeping it all inside.
After a while, the effects started going away, but for the next couple days, i felt kind've sick and started to hear some voices again.
well, that's all...i think![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
The first time was the best. For the first few minutes, i felt very cold and nervous and paranoid. Then i felt amazing. I remember sitting on the floor for at least an hour just watching my two bunny rabbits play and my dog chewing her bone. My bunnies looked 10 times as cute . I was especially amazed by watching my dog's jaws move and her teeth chew the bone.
....then i started to notice other things. I looked in the fire place, which has black soot smeared all over in the back of it. I started seeing a face in the soot. Then the face started bleeding a little. Then the white spot, which was the face's eye, turned into a little bug and started crawling around. None of this was really a new experience for me, but it was deffinatly a bit more intense than usual and much more interesting to watch.
Then my boyfriend called me to come out on the balcony because he said he saw a deer outside. Once i stepped outside, everything became even more intense. It was really dark out, aside from the moonlight and street lights. I started seeing all kinds of figures and animals walking around. Soon, i saw some bright white Aliens off in the distance. At first, i was a little paranoid oftheir motives, but they seemed to comunicate to me that they were friendly and trying to be helpful. Soon they started dancing around, waving their strange looking arms and such. I saw the one alien standing in front of the space ship--it was shaped to look like a giant evil-looking dog head. It's opened mouth was the door.
Now, this was a delusion that had developed in my head a year or so before i had ever tried drugs. --I had believed that Aliens/beings from other demensions were trying to communicate with me and have me come live with them. I believed the government was aware of these creatures communicating with me trying to steal me away and it angered them. They were angry too, because i knew their secrets. I was constantly being watched/followed by spies to make sure i wouldn't go anywhere, etc...or so i thought.
So now that im high on coke and seeing these aliens, that delusion comes flooding back into my mind. These aliens are hear to take me away...to save me, i thought. And then i soon realized that spies were hiding all over the place in between me and the aliens.. They were driving by me on the street below my balcony. there was a spy car parked behind a hill...they were ready to take action. And i had to remain perfectly still so they wouldn't shoot at me. IF i tried to make a run for it, they would.
My boyfriend couldn't get me to come inside for a long time. Once i did. I started gabbering on to my boyfriend about all the things i use to believe when i was off my medication--that there was a camera up near the ceiling behind the wall, that the government was angry with me because i knew too much information, etc. But it was nice because oi was actually able to really talk to someone about these things, whereas before i had never been able to do that...use to keeping it all inside.
After a while, the effects started going away, but for the next couple days, i felt kind've sick and started to hear some voices again.
well, that's all...i think
