Hi, I figured after reading through your posts I'd share my experiences with cocaine. Hopefully, it will bring help to someone just as some of your posts have helped me (and BL in general).
I'm in my mid 20's, financially stable. In school you could say I was "understimulated". I'd always beat the tests quick and with high grades. I graduated from "high school" with financial security (parents, have good relation with them, can't tell them about drugs though because they're very conservative) so I studied for a while then dropped out. Mostly because I had this mindset of "I'll do this later because I'm too lazy to do this now". At this point I haven't touched C, and 2 years ago was my first try. I've been on and off from time to time, using maybe 1-3g for a week, then not use for 1-2 months then use again. I'm not going to kid myself by saying I'm not addicted, because frankly I'm quite sure I'm addicted. However I wonder if there are any other people that use C sometimes out of "boredom" or "nothing better to do at the time"?
I never had any issues with withdrawl, but again I find myself coming back... Eventually because well I miss it, I don't have a job, and I don't start uni til' December. I don't need a job because I have financial security, but I feel like I'm just wasting time... I feel like i need some sort of guidance but not from a doctor or psycologist, but from another person that can try and see things from my perspective. I need help looking at this from a different angle. If it helps I'm a casual weed user and take mdma on rare occasions.
Peace, Love and Understanding to you all reading this, you sincerely have my warmest thoughts.