Dezamasezon
Bluelighter
So, I've been sober 55 days... it sucks, don't like it, but Drug Court will lock me up if I fail anymore screens... Anyway, This I wrote; it's about rejection. It sucks. I hate emotions so much. Tell me if you like it or if you hate it.
A thousand thoughts rush through my mind
When I search for words I just can't find.
I can't think of what to say to you;
What's worse I don't know what to do.
I want you more than anything;
Nothing can match the joy you bring.
But you only want me as a friend
And like my heart, my hopes won't bend,
They'll shatter into shards of broken tears;
They'll consume me like my darkest fears.
They'll cut me deeper than the blade
And I'll be trapped inside this Hell I've made.
I built it on my hopes and dreams,
But it crushed and tore them at the seams.
My world, ignited, writhes in flame,
And here I'm left to take the blame.
It's all my fault, that I can see,
I let you get too close to me.
I should have just pushed you away...
I had a feeling it would go this way.
A thousand thoughts rush through my mind
When I search for words I just can't find.
I can't think of what to say to you;
What's worse I don't know what to do.
I want you more than anything;
Nothing can match the joy you bring.
But you only want me as a friend
And like my heart, my hopes won't bend,
They'll shatter into shards of broken tears;
They'll consume me like my darkest fears.
They'll cut me deeper than the blade
And I'll be trapped inside this Hell I've made.
I built it on my hopes and dreams,
But it crushed and tore them at the seams.
My world, ignited, writhes in flame,
And here I'm left to take the blame.
It's all my fault, that I can see,
I let you get too close to me.
I should have just pushed you away...
I had a feeling it would go this way.
