Moonlitskies09
Greenlighter
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- Nov 11, 2016
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I've mentioned this a few times but for the sake of clarity, I've been using IV heroin recreationally for about six years. I went through a daily use phase a few years ago that lasted about three months, never have had a real tolerance. I always bought a cap and would use half for me and share half with my friend in those days and she ended up in rehab, and I got sober and continued on just fine.
Opiates have lost a lot of their magic. I still get very high when I use but now that I'm living alone I just don't enjoy them the same way, I used once in the past nine months because I haven't enjoyed it. There's nobody else like me that I know, so many are in AA begging God for help... Heroin is sad and lonely without someone to use with, and I don't like to be around people that try to push me to get high all the time, it's too sad to see them hurt like that.
I'm looking for anyone's advice on anything they went through after long term, occassional use. A lot of my friends are dead or otherwise out of the picture. I'm the only one that made it so far without it ruining my life. I lost my closest friend, she hates me now and blames me for her addiction. I miss her a lot more than I used to like herion. Everything about drugs feels toxic now. I feel like I wish I'd have overdosed and never had to see the people I love get hurt.
Opiates have lost a lot of their magic. I still get very high when I use but now that I'm living alone I just don't enjoy them the same way, I used once in the past nine months because I haven't enjoyed it. There's nobody else like me that I know, so many are in AA begging God for help... Heroin is sad and lonely without someone to use with, and I don't like to be around people that try to push me to get high all the time, it's too sad to see them hurt like that.
I'm looking for anyone's advice on anything they went through after long term, occassional use. A lot of my friends are dead or otherwise out of the picture. I'm the only one that made it so far without it ruining my life. I lost my closest friend, she hates me now and blames me for her addiction. I miss her a lot more than I used to like herion. Everything about drugs feels toxic now. I feel like I wish I'd have overdosed and never had to see the people I love get hurt.