Sitting here clean and sober. I did it! Hooray!
The thing is, I fucking hate it. Why? I am truly a broken individual, and I do not ever feel good naturally. A life without drugs is not worth it to me, and yet I live on anyway because I don't really wanna die or kill myself, and also killing yourself is more difficult then you would think. Even if I did want to die the thought of the tainted memory of myself from suicide really would bother me.
I suspect I'm not alone here.
The thing is, I fucking hate it. Why? I am truly a broken individual, and I do not ever feel good naturally. A life without drugs is not worth it to me, and yet I live on anyway because I don't really wanna die or kill myself, and also killing yourself is more difficult then you would think. Even if I did want to die the thought of the tainted memory of myself from suicide really would bother me.
I suspect I'm not alone here.