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JessTD said:
Do normal people even really exist? I find myself often wondering if everyone is secretly on something.
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Not really, we all have something. 2/3 of the US is overweight and is using food as a drug if they arent using drugs outright, or drinking, gambling, exercising compulsively etc.

I'll say it again though, exercise is one of the best drugs to get into. Really helps with opiate addiction in particular.

Don't feel strange or ashamed unloading this to "strangers"...this place is a very good resource, there are alot of people here with alot of different experiences.

If you are having cravings id recommend getting some blackseed oil capsules. Really helps with opioid cravings and you can take it as needed without concern of becoming dependent. Helps for sleep, mood and anxiety too. My favorite brand is "healths harmony", they are inexpensive:

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JessTD said:
How much time? The days are still going by so damn slowly.
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i wish i knew the answer to that. it's different for everyone. i know i quit suboxone 54 days ago and i still don't feel right. it takes a long time. those anxieties and shitty feelings all come back. i hardly remember a time when i wasn't on something. give it time and good things will happen
 
Okay so it takes a long time. All right. So how do people get through the days during this period of anhedonia?
 
i found going to work every day even though it SUCKED helped pass the time. yard work passes time. going for nice drives. whatever used to make you happy before the drugs. the day just has to be full of activities of some kind or time just drags on. it's hard for the first bit but gets easier as the days/weeks go.
 
JessTD said:
Okay so it takes a long time. All right. So how do people get through the days during this period of anhedonia?
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gabapentin regulates my mood and gives me energy, that and music. Without music I would've killed myself already.
 
Music... ya know, I've heard certain frequencies do something to your brain...
 
you are very very early in, stick with it. you're already likely functioning better than you were a couple of days ago, whether you notice or not. psychological work, meditation, exercise and general self care will help, as will things you genuinely find fun. when i was at my worst i had lost all interest in anything but using, so basically had no options for fun in my life anymore.

fuck i couldn't even make a cup of tea, i'd spend an hour smoking crack after having the idea, finally get down to put the kettle on, 40 mins later reboil the kettle, taking my shit downstairs so i could use in the kitchen and have a better chance of getting some liquid in me (i'd go days without peeing so knew i needed it). forget about it as soon as i'd made it so end up several hours later chucking down a cold cup of black tea cos i had no milk in. so yeah, to me at least, being able to do things that are actually fun makes a huge difference.
 
Sorry about the absence. Didn't relapse. Just very depressed. Not as much as I was, I guess. I'm just so fucking bored and antisocial and I enjoy nothing but I'm trying to get thru the days.

What kinda fun activities helped you guys stay clean and release some dopamine again? And please for the love of god, anything but exercise. I live it florida. Outside is a literal sauna constantly and I'm just not to the point where I can sweat my fucking ass off and then take a million showers because of swamp ass.
 
Booze and weed lol. Yes, they help immensely but once I'm stoned or have a buzz, I eventually end up asleep so those things are reserved for before bed. I still have a whole day to get through.

I try to color but I can never do it for long.

I'm actively working on my recovery and trying to rewire my brain but it's like all I can think about is how miserable I am.

And it's weird. Some days i have an AHA moment and it gives me hope, but then the next day it's like I mentally take several steps back.
 
JessTD said:
Booze and weed lol. Yes, they help immensely but once I'm stoned or have a buzz, I eventually end up asleep so those things are reserved for before bed. I still have a whole day to get through.

I try to color but I can never do it for long.

I'm actively working on my recovery and trying to rewire my brain but it's like all I can think about is how miserable I am.

And it's weird. Some days i have an AHA moment and it gives me hope, but then the next day it's like I mentally take several steps back.
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You have to be really comfortable with the thoughts in your head
 
drive to places you've never been. i started working on day 15 of sub withdrawal and that helped pass the time. miserable or not at work it really made the time fly by. find some odd jobs or yard work helped me too.
 
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