I have had some pretty terrible depression I a am currently going through.
Worse then I ever thought could even exist! I have lost all cognitive abilities it seems and don't care about one single thing anymore.
So I am going to start taking an antidepressant and see if that helps. I took Citalopram a couple of years ago and it worked pretty good I guess but I wasnt depressed. I took it for anxiety. Mainly hypochondria anxiety.
The Citalopram caused weight gain and sexual dysfunction though. Otherwise it seemed to stabilize my mood and I forgot all about my anxiety.
A few months after I started taking Citalopram I got addicted to opiates. That went on for a couple of years until I went on Subutex. I have also been taking klonopin for a couple of years also.
At first the subs made me feel great. They still are really the only thing i look forward to in my days. I felt normal and all. Now I do not know if it's the subs or just my crappy life that has caused my depression but I have to do something here!
I can now see why people commit suicide! I cannot stand being around people more than twice my age that have twice the energy as I do! I have been around many people with cancer and they were not as bad as I am right now with my depression.
I cannot afford to really go to any doc other than my sub doc once a month. He scribed wellbutrin on my last visit. I also already have a couple of hundred 40mg citalopram pills from about a year ago.
So which one should I take?
My main symptoms now are no energy, no appetite, no emotions, anxiety for no reason, no sexual feelings at all, a loss of cognitive abilities. I have also developed some pretty strange ocd symptoms i would rather not get into. Also many many more i cant think of right now.I don't even care about the things I once loved so much. I truly have no emotion and don't really care if I live or die right now.
I would do anything right now for an endless supply of roxi 30's! They are the only things I have found on this planet that makes me feel like a normal person. I am actually a better person while taking them! No doubt about it! After taking opiates for depression I can kind of see why they are not prescribed for that but if someone is suicidal and opiates are gonna make them feel better then why not? It's there own body and they can do whatever they want with it!
Damn I wish antidepressants made me feel the way oxy did! Instant relief! I don't like the high, nodding feeling from opiates. I like the energy, happiness, and all the other great things about opiates.
A lot of this depression is because of my life and medicine can't fix that but I have to start somewhere. Hopefully a antidepressant will give me the motivation to change my life.
Damn I wish I never found out that opiates could make me feel the way I did! I feel like for the rest of my life in the back of my head will be how great I would feal if I was on opiates. I wish I never found out that great feeling ever existed! I was content to feel the way I did for the rest of my life but now I always measure how I feel to how I felt while on opiates! Will that feeling ever go away????? I'm even on subs now! Imagine me without subs!
No opinions on this?
Past experiences with antidepressants? Anything. Just trying to get a little input from people who have been in the same place as I am now.
Worse then I ever thought could even exist! I have lost all cognitive abilities it seems and don't care about one single thing anymore.
So I am going to start taking an antidepressant and see if that helps. I took Citalopram a couple of years ago and it worked pretty good I guess but I wasnt depressed. I took it for anxiety. Mainly hypochondria anxiety.
The Citalopram caused weight gain and sexual dysfunction though. Otherwise it seemed to stabilize my mood and I forgot all about my anxiety.
A few months after I started taking Citalopram I got addicted to opiates. That went on for a couple of years until I went on Subutex. I have also been taking klonopin for a couple of years also.
At first the subs made me feel great. They still are really the only thing i look forward to in my days. I felt normal and all. Now I do not know if it's the subs or just my crappy life that has caused my depression but I have to do something here!
I can now see why people commit suicide! I cannot stand being around people more than twice my age that have twice the energy as I do! I have been around many people with cancer and they were not as bad as I am right now with my depression.
I cannot afford to really go to any doc other than my sub doc once a month. He scribed wellbutrin on my last visit. I also already have a couple of hundred 40mg citalopram pills from about a year ago.
So which one should I take?
My main symptoms now are no energy, no appetite, no emotions, anxiety for no reason, no sexual feelings at all, a loss of cognitive abilities. I have also developed some pretty strange ocd symptoms i would rather not get into. Also many many more i cant think of right now.I don't even care about the things I once loved so much. I truly have no emotion and don't really care if I live or die right now.
I would do anything right now for an endless supply of roxi 30's! They are the only things I have found on this planet that makes me feel like a normal person. I am actually a better person while taking them! No doubt about it! After taking opiates for depression I can kind of see why they are not prescribed for that but if someone is suicidal and opiates are gonna make them feel better then why not? It's there own body and they can do whatever they want with it!
Damn I wish antidepressants made me feel the way oxy did! Instant relief! I don't like the high, nodding feeling from opiates. I like the energy, happiness, and all the other great things about opiates.
A lot of this depression is because of my life and medicine can't fix that but I have to start somewhere. Hopefully a antidepressant will give me the motivation to change my life.
Damn I wish I never found out that opiates could make me feel the way I did! I feel like for the rest of my life in the back of my head will be how great I would feal if I was on opiates. I wish I never found out that great feeling ever existed! I was content to feel the way I did for the rest of my life but now I always measure how I feel to how I felt while on opiates! Will that feeling ever go away????? I'm even on subs now! Imagine me without subs!
No opinions on this?
Past experiences with antidepressants? Anything. Just trying to get a little input from people who have been in the same place as I am now.
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