jsinger
Bluelighter
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- Mar 21, 2023
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Anyone here with a significant addiction to meth and even after heavy use for 5 years or so didnt experience the whacky shit that effects others almost immediately thus confident in your ability to decipher the illusions you get from meth? Every illusion ive experienced on this drug I usally find the trigger or if not stll know in my head it’s the drug. Might get sketchy an hour or two hell maybe even a day but im dealing with a different animal now. Around December at work (maintenance at a privately owned service station) i started getting a very much more intense feeling of being watched and my usual response of its just the meth wasnt calming the anxiety down
Who i think is watching me is random public people at large which means even if it were true no major consequences would occur. It then became a problem outside of work bc my roommate hates drugs and meth more the rest and began feeling like she is watching me when Ill hear the door open or dogs bark if she were to go outside and peek my window. At work for the third day in a row it’s almost constant and i dont look any customers in the eye and I’m shaking, dropping shit basically that nervous feeling you get when you know your being watched by a boss. I tell myself it’s the meth, who cares if you are being watched nothing bad will happen but cannot snap the feeling. I am not sleep deprived and the quality of the dope has been relatively the same. Is this onset of psychosis or a passing issue or possibly rooted in another mental illness concern. I have extremely high anxiety And meth has usually helped my mood Albeit intensified the anxiety it’s just different.
I’ve asked to work during the night when the store is closed bc today was ridiculous
Who i think is watching me is random public people at large which means even if it were true no major consequences would occur. It then became a problem outside of work bc my roommate hates drugs and meth more the rest and began feeling like she is watching me when Ill hear the door open or dogs bark if she were to go outside and peek my window. At work for the third day in a row it’s almost constant and i dont look any customers in the eye and I’m shaking, dropping shit basically that nervous feeling you get when you know your being watched by a boss. I tell myself it’s the meth, who cares if you are being watched nothing bad will happen but cannot snap the feeling. I am not sleep deprived and the quality of the dope has been relatively the same. Is this onset of psychosis or a passing issue or possibly rooted in another mental illness concern. I have extremely high anxiety And meth has usually helped my mood Albeit intensified the anxiety it’s just different.
I’ve asked to work during the night when the store is closed bc today was ridiculous
