so... over a year after my psycho ex decided it would be too hard to explain to her family that she was leaving me to fuck her boss at school, and easier to make me out as a bad guy and have me arrested with a 'controlled call' (translation, some bitch you haven't talked to in weeks calls you and leaves a message to call her back, and when you call her back it is recorded by detectives with nothing better to do and now you somehow have a harassment charge).. just over a year after that, and just under a year after she came crawling back apologizing for being such an evil shallow whore.. and I was dumb enough to take her back.. and just a couple months after I got the courage to Finlay leave her.. despite the 8 stitches in her wrist she had to have put in after she slashed it with a steak knife in front of me because I said I couldn't take the abuse anymore and I had to leave her.. After all this shit, this ACD I was given on the charge has been revoked at the last fucking second because the court appointed counselor stopped scheduling me after my insurance switched and I racked up 300 dollars in bills. I went to talk to that lady for MONTHS, and they originally told me it would just be a few visits, I thought I was going on my OWN time! Now my record is destroyed because I couldn't afford to keep going to talk to some lady every week about what me and the girl the court said I can't be seeing are going to be doing together that week!? GOD I HATE OUR LEGAL SYSTEM!!! If my dad was cop or judge this shit would be OVER with! For fucks sake! Cops in THAT town caught us fucking behind a movie theater and let us go after running our IDs for Christ sake! Why the FUCK is this still going on?? We went through an entire new section of relationship in the past year, got together, and broke up again, and this is STILL going on?? I've got to miss fucking CLASSES over this?? I have a fucking test I can't retake on my fucking court day!! 
Why can't I get away from crazy bitches?? Why did it have to be so PERFECT with someone so completely bat shit schizophrenic crazy??.. I just can't believe after taking her back, taking all the risks of just BEING with her, risking my damn life LIVING with her, and even in the last god damn moments of our relationship lying to authorities to protect her and keep her from getting locked up- the exact opposite of what she went out of her way to do to me that same time the year before.. after all that, I end up with a criminal charge because I couldn't pay a bill..
sabrina... it was like her and I were the same person.. most of the time that is.. everything I did I wanted to do with her.. she would just snap on a regular basis.. seriously schizophrenic, it was like dating two people.. one was perfect... the other was like golem.. It really scares me to think she could have fixed it with medication too
I could have married the sane part of her personality. Three years wasted learning that crazy is crazy no matter how much you love the person.
I wish she would have seen a doctor... I still do... she didn't hesitate to slash her wrist in front of me.. she didn't think twice before purposely wrecking her car in a rain storm and almost killing some innocent guy in the process.. and that obviously didn't have much impact on her because she did the same damn thing a year and a half later and broke her leg running her car into a guard rail on the highway.. her temper is going to get her or someone innocent killed the way she's going... that's why I had to leave her.. I couldn't let her Vanilla Sky my ass
Right now it's impossible to think I'll ever find such a perfect match again.. I didn't think one as close as HER could exist.. minus the freakouts.... It was like we became the same person.. whatever...wasting time... have to do homework..
Just have to try again.. after all... it wasn't all that great in the beginning with her... I put a loooot of work into that girl.. she was so sheltered and immature lol.. just gotta start fresh with someone new and see what grows from it I guess.. that is if I don't just blow my brains out in the meantime, which is becoming an increasingly attractive option I must say.
Why can't I get away from crazy bitches?? Why did it have to be so PERFECT with someone so completely bat shit schizophrenic crazy??.. I just can't believe after taking her back, taking all the risks of just BEING with her, risking my damn life LIVING with her, and even in the last god damn moments of our relationship lying to authorities to protect her and keep her from getting locked up- the exact opposite of what she went out of her way to do to me that same time the year before.. after all that, I end up with a criminal charge because I couldn't pay a bill..
sabrina... it was like her and I were the same person.. most of the time that is.. everything I did I wanted to do with her.. she would just snap on a regular basis.. seriously schizophrenic, it was like dating two people.. one was perfect... the other was like golem.. It really scares me to think she could have fixed it with medication too
I could have married the sane part of her personality. Three years wasted learning that crazy is crazy no matter how much you love the person. I wish she would have seen a doctor... I still do... she didn't hesitate to slash her wrist in front of me.. she didn't think twice before purposely wrecking her car in a rain storm and almost killing some innocent guy in the process.. and that obviously didn't have much impact on her because she did the same damn thing a year and a half later and broke her leg running her car into a guard rail on the highway.. her temper is going to get her or someone innocent killed the way she's going... that's why I had to leave her.. I couldn't let her Vanilla Sky my ass
Right now it's impossible to think I'll ever find such a perfect match again.. I didn't think one as close as HER could exist.. minus the freakouts.... It was like we became the same person.. whatever...wasting time... have to do homework..
Just have to try again.. after all... it wasn't all that great in the beginning with her... I put a loooot of work into that girl.. she was so sheltered and immature lol.. just gotta start fresh with someone new and see what grows from it I guess.. that is if I don't just blow my brains out in the meantime, which is becoming an increasingly attractive option I must say.