Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

[Jabberwocky]

@DeadManWalkin' you ever tried an energy drink called CRAZY WOLF
I had it when I was in Europe and that shit is mega strong like amphetamine strong lol made my heart beat so fast, and my vision go mega bright/hi Def, one day drank 2 in a row and honesty felt like my heart was gona pack up

No, I haven't. They don't seem to have it here. I used to drink lots of energy drinks so I know the brands.
I would love to try it.
After 4 bottles of that Thailand stuff and 1x 0.5L energy drink called Red Devil, I was also very pumped up. Cleaning up my house and stuff. Couldn't focus on anything I was always in hurry to somewhere.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I like Bang, Reign, and rockstar ONLY because they carry 300mg caffeine. If im going for taste? Honestly - red bull.

 

[Jabberwocky]

YE PPL

SHADYISM LANGUAGE

nice to see some trying here

although it's pretty hard at first you have to visit neptune's moon to sink

Many people have spoken about Shadys mom, but Shady came from inside her.
I think just having little fun with her mum doesn't equate to Shady coming from inside her.
That's why Shady knows the language the best. It runs in the blood.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I like Bang, Reign, and rockstar ONLY because they carry 300mg caffeine. If im going for taste? Honestly - red bull.

I like the blueberry rockstar with pomegranade and Red Devil is really good brand too, don't know if it's in US.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Nah never seen a red devil.

We have redline though. It's pretty rare though.

 

[JoEhJoEh]

Good morning DMW! I just took 5.5 grams of phenibut and just starting to pheel it. It’s best to take on an empty stomach, I find. I gotta pick up my adderall script today. So that’s that.

Good boy.

I'm proud of me that even with my major depression I just showered and i will have a walk in a big park then. I hope I really do it because mostly I think FUCK IT and walk back to my apartment.Wanted to have a psychosomatic rehab - first free appointments in all Austria: FEBRUARY. Are they crazy???
So I called my Psychotherapist who knows me 12 years already and made appointments for the beginning of September even if I can't afford which I told him - but I'm lucky, because he does not need it now, I can pay when I start working again. Isn't that nice? Such a nice guy!

JJ

 

[Joey]

Trying to get pumped for my job interview at 1. Instead I got really stoned. Taking a breather now, stop smoking pot now to be just semi-fried later it is.

I'm gonna fucking nail it. Dead serious.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Trying to get pumped for my job interview at 1. Instead I got really stoned. Taking a breather now, stop smoking pot now to be just semi-fried later it is.

I'm gonna fucking nail it. Dead serious.

Good to hear from you!
I wish you best luck Alex, but I don't really believe in luck. It's skill and you got it.
Last time we spoke you were so high you could barely speak. It's great to hear you are improving.
How has your stopping of meth been going on? You have been off for like a month now, if i remember days right?
Unless you have relapsed, but from what I've seen on your posts - it's unlikely.
I wish you great luck and good fate in your journey!
Play the cards you were given smartly and you can make even bad deck of 'em work really good.
That's life.
Best regards - DMW

 

[Jabberwocky]

DMW ignored the fact that i found a mate.

Jelous, homo?

 

[Jabberwocky]

DMW ignored the fact that i found a mate.

Jelous, homo?

I think we have spoken about your mate on our PM's - but if it's another mate Contragz my man! It's great to find somebody to have little fun with.
Keep your flag high and enjoy the fun times that are in every relationship in the beginning, I would call it the "Starting rush" which lasts for like a month or two when you get to know each other and everything is cool, but later the normal life kicks in and there you really see is your mate good or not.

 

[BK38]

Bleugh. Feel like crap today, but a long t break from Gabas is necessary. I just wish my pot was ready to harvest.

 

[Jabberwocky]

My buddy Blazo just hooked me up with a half ounce of dat chronicccc.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Bleugh. Feel like crap today, but a long t break from Gabas is necessary. I just wish my pot was ready to harvest.

Sup BK?
Myself I'm dropping my bupre dose to 1mg a day and eat gabas to help with withdrawals coming for that. I have eaten 450mg today, yesterday I ate 900mg and I was super fucking high I was nodding all over when I was buying a cap, nodding in trains etc. Then I got home and friend came over, gave me 10mg clonazapin and that was fucking huge, then did 1mg bupre IV and damn, ended up falling asleep to a chair with a cigarette in my mouth. I was so fucking zombie, but yeah. Pregas are good for boosting drugs.
From now on, I will only eat 300mg a day. The only reason I ate 450 today was that I bought 14x, we ate 6x in total with my woman so we had 8x, I gave friend 1x so we had 1 leftover.

 

[Joey]

Good to hear from you!
I wish you best luck Alex, but I don't really believe in luck. It's skill and you got it.
Last time we spoke you were so high you could barely speak. It's great to hear you are improving.
How has your stopping of meth been going on? You have been off for like a month now, if i remember days right?
Unless you have relapsed, but from what I've seen on your posts - it's unlikely.
I wish you great luck and good fate in your journey!
Play the cards you were given smartly and you can make even bad deck of 'em work really good.
That's life.
Best regards - DMW

I was mashed on dxm and probably alcohol. I remember that, i had a hard time talking and forgot about you a few times even.

Im still off meth. 3 weeks, a bit more. I havent been counting the days. Alcohol as well im 2 weeks sober.

Thanks for the kind words. Weve ought to discord again someday. Interview is in half hour. I had a nap so Im good to go.

Im gonna be a shoe in here. I have a college certificate and 4 years experience in machining, plus more factory experience and theyre desperate for people all positions so Im not worried at all. Ill answer their questions and Ill be on here saying I got the job in an hour I bet.

 

[BK38]

Sup BK?
Myself I'm dropping my bupre dose to 1mg a day and eat gabas to help with withdrawals coming for that. I have eaten 450mg today, yesterday I ate 900mg and I was super fucking high I was nodding all over when I was buying a cap, nodding in trains etc. Then I got home and friend came over, gave me 10mg clonazapin and that was fucking huge, then did 1mg bupre IV and damn, ended up falling asleep to a chair with a cigarette in my mouth. I was so fucking zombie, but yeah. Pregas are good for boosting drugs.
From now on, I will only eat 300mg a day. The only reason I ate 450 today was that I bought 14x, we ate 6x in total with my woman so we had 8x, I gave friend 1x so we had 1 leftover.

Hey DMW. Yeah, you've got a bigger habit than me at the moment. I haven't done any hard drugs lately, but I had just been using Phenibut at a common dose, every few days generally for months. So I'm bound to feel a bit shit after totally stopping. Not getting the same bang from the drugs though, so it's time for a break. I'm mostly just irritable, lethargic and having some insomnia/sleep disruption. I'm just being a bitch. It's nothing compared to when I've gone through actual benzo, alcohol or heroin WDs. Also, I'm not drinking or anything, so I'm dead sober and annoyed with myself for not working harder toward my goals. I'm just having a whine really. Good luck with your taper. Are you trying to get off the Bupe completely?

 

[Shady's Fox]

So get ur egg crash by my hellz wind staff

 

[Joey]

Okay signing into the app for interview now.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Hey DMW. Yeah, you've got a bigger habit than me at the moment. I haven't done any hard drugs lately, but I had just been using Phenibut at a common dose, every few days generally for months. So I'm bound to feel a bit shit after totally stopping. Not getting the same bang from the drugs though, so it's time for a break. I'm mostly just irritable, lethargic and having some insomnia/sleep disruption. I'm just being a bitch. It's nothing compared to when I've gone through actual benzo, alcohol or heroin WDs. Also, I'm not drinking or anything, so I'm dead sober and annoyed with myself for not working harder toward my goals. I'm just having a whine really. Good luck with your taper. Are you trying to get off the Bupe completely?

I am. I have to quit,, because I can be so much more. I should be so much more.
I'm a smart and young guy full of potential. I can be anything I want.

 

[BK38]

I am. I have to quit,, because I can be so much more. I should be so much more.
I'm a smart and young guy full of potential. I can be anything I want.

Right on. That's a winning attitude. I'm also trying to get my shit together more and fulfill my potential. I think finding out yesterday that I'm going to be an uncle is the kick in the ass I needed to work a lot harder. I want to be able to support my sister a lot more by traveling to the UK, treating her to some nice meals etc and getting stuff for the baby when it arrives. I'm also sick of being so broke all the time or working on a shoestring budget, it's not good for my self-esteem to have been more or less out of work for so long. Also, it's definitely time to gtfo of France. I'm hoping I can score some work back in Amsterdam or maybe I'll make a move to Berlin, a lot of it is dependent on work and the Covid situation.

Anyhow, you can do it and so can I.

 

[BK38]

My buddy Blazo just hooked me up with a half ounce of dat chronicccc.

Jelly to the max.