Ahh, what a relaxing day was today... well, it wasn't the most relaxing day of my life at all, but after being in withdrawal from Benzodiazepines for some days, finally yesterday I could I get a nice amount of Lorazepam, together with a tiny bit (and I mean, something like 10mg, very tiny) of Risperidone, helped me to get a good night of sleep. Something priceless for me. So yes, even at the morning of today when I had to wake up from bed because of my backpain, I didn't feel like killing myself like in previous mornings. That wasn't unpleasant.
I went to buy some groceries, and ended up eating 4 whole small chicken burgers by myself; after that, I even had some chocolate cookies. Geez, that happens when you haven't eaten for one or two days, you can't restrain yourself. Anyway, thanks to the big meal and some Lorazepam, I could get like 3.5 hours of sleep between 1am and 4am.
When I woke up I felt the load of the food still in my stomach, so I went to my favourite pharmacy, which is like 20 squares from where I live. As I walked under the grey skies, I was thinking if getting an upper or a downer. I'm more of a downer person, always been, in all sense, specially when it comes to drugs, but the best I could thought was Tramadol, and honestly, I didn't want to buy -again- it; iit was too late to enjoy it... also, I didn't have enough money to buy Pregabalin, my usual second option. So, given I had the option to choose, I didn't doubt anymore and choose SOMA, or Carisoprodol.
I have done Carisoprodol (SOMA is shorter) for quite a while, and I often get different experiences, I feel like writing and nostalgic (like I do now), sometimes the SOMA euphoria gets triggered, and very few times I get depressive because of how disphoric (is that a word?) it is.
There is something that should be obviously constant: any kind of backpain is gone. Even Pregabalin and Tramadol together often doesn't work for this.
So, as soon as I got home, I literally chugged 5 350mg SOMA pills, an Aspirin with grapejuice, and a tiny bit of Lorazepam. After calming down a bit, I made a big cup of delicious green tea (gotta love that L-Theanine). And then I proceeded to write this, while listen to a remix of Dido.
Before ending this post, and going to browse some other sites or watch some relaxing anime, I just want to throw here that even at this moment, when my life is filled with hundreds of important problems (like getting evicted), I still feel that if I were to kill myself, I would do it with SOMA while at the same time jumping from the roof of the building. Now that the effect of the 1.5grams I taken has kicked in, I can tell.. I shouldn't feel sad the way I choose to "fix" my problems, and I shouldn't care if people thinks I'm being selfish.
Even so, I feel like enjoying this delicious "drunkness while philosophical" feeling while it lasts. Not to mention the lack of any headache (that's why I took the Aspirin before) and more importantly, lack of backpain while sitting straight for almost whole hour. May probably redose if I don't feel sleepy enough in hour... although I doubt it. Thanks for reading.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_carisoprodol
substancecode_soma
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
roacode_oral
I went to buy some groceries, and ended up eating 4 whole small chicken burgers by myself; after that, I even had some chocolate cookies. Geez, that happens when you haven't eaten for one or two days, you can't restrain yourself. Anyway, thanks to the big meal and some Lorazepam, I could get like 3.5 hours of sleep between 1am and 4am.
When I woke up I felt the load of the food still in my stomach, so I went to my favourite pharmacy, which is like 20 squares from where I live. As I walked under the grey skies, I was thinking if getting an upper or a downer. I'm more of a downer person, always been, in all sense, specially when it comes to drugs, but the best I could thought was Tramadol, and honestly, I didn't want to buy -again- it; iit was too late to enjoy it... also, I didn't have enough money to buy Pregabalin, my usual second option. So, given I had the option to choose, I didn't doubt anymore and choose SOMA, or Carisoprodol.
I have done Carisoprodol (SOMA is shorter) for quite a while, and I often get different experiences, I feel like writing and nostalgic (like I do now), sometimes the SOMA euphoria gets triggered, and very few times I get depressive because of how disphoric (is that a word?) it is.
There is something that should be obviously constant: any kind of backpain is gone. Even Pregabalin and Tramadol together often doesn't work for this.
So, as soon as I got home, I literally chugged 5 350mg SOMA pills, an Aspirin with grapejuice, and a tiny bit of Lorazepam. After calming down a bit, I made a big cup of delicious green tea (gotta love that L-Theanine). And then I proceeded to write this, while listen to a remix of Dido.
Before ending this post, and going to browse some other sites or watch some relaxing anime, I just want to throw here that even at this moment, when my life is filled with hundreds of important problems (like getting evicted), I still feel that if I were to kill myself, I would do it with SOMA while at the same time jumping from the roof of the building. Now that the effect of the 1.5grams I taken has kicked in, I can tell.. I shouldn't feel sad the way I choose to "fix" my problems, and I shouldn't care if people thinks I'm being selfish.
Even so, I feel like enjoying this delicious "drunkness while philosophical" feeling while it lasts. Not to mention the lack of any headache (that's why I took the Aspirin before) and more importantly, lack of backpain while sitting straight for almost whole hour. May probably redose if I don't feel sleepy enough in hour... although I doubt it. Thanks for reading.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_carisoprodol
substancecode_soma
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
roacode_oral
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