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[unicorn83]

months pass by, and every day im changing, from that once sensitive, caring, loving, and happy person, to what i am today. who have i become i ask myself, a selfish, self obsorbed bitch? an insensitive unemotional ho? i used to be able to comfort people, i used to be able to give support. but today, im nothing, but....i'm nothing. a friend in need, what do i do? nothing. what can i do? will i ever make a difference? will i ever be happy again? questions remain unanswered, days pass by turning into months, into years, it's been two years, tow years and a half actually, and im still sitting ere asking, pleading, begging for an answer to why? why is this happening to me?
deterierating (sp?) slowly, but rapidly, been given two chances in life, will i survive a third? do i want to risk my life again? do i want to die tonight? no i wanna know why? that's all i ask from u..an answer to why is this happening?
sending a prayer to all those who are in pain tonight, as it's the worst place to be.
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'id rather live in an illusion than face harsh reality' me
GouRanGA
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IM unicycle83

 

[plazma]

Verrrrrry nice... and it's hard to disagree... pain is a bad place to be... good work!

-plaz out-
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[5FACES]

i send my heart out to you, it might be 2 years, it might be 3 or even 4 but know that SOMEDAY the sun WILL shine!! lonliness and pain is one of the hardest obstacles to overcome in life but have faith and happy days will come. sometimes everything can't be answered but if learn how to cope with the unknown then you can begin to put things in perspective.
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before love there are
memories of innonence.
after there are none...

 

[ice-9]

self introspection is a precursor to change.
only if *you* want to change though. no one can make you do or be otherwise.

 

[Submiss]

It's happening because you are allowing it too
I agree with Ice 9.
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"The only gracious way to accept an insult is to ignore it; if you can't ignore it,
top it; if you can't top it, laugh at it; if you can't laugh at it, it's probably deserved."
J. Russel Lynes

 

[unicorn83]

i agree with u both, but it's hard and impossible to detach yourself from everythings that's happening around you, as that's the only way things will change.
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'id rather live in an illusion than face harsh reality' me
GouRanGA
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IM unicycle83

 

[Sara Tonin]

Unicorn, you have to support and love yourself before you can support others. Some may see it as selfish, but it is not. Your way of dealing with the pain right now is to shut down. That is ok for right now...take time to let yourself heal. You will be happy again and you will feel again without so much pain. You are a tough girl and I have faith in you.